i've decided to let go!!!
so i threw this weapon away on the day of our shoot.
blasted mosquitoes, i think i have about 10+ bites on my legs now even though i was wearing a full body shoot. zzz.
farewell, chui weapon...
and here's the mosquito-infested dilapidated ulu area with everyone hard at work
and before we headed off to saizeria...
*squeals at peggy's lens*
This is all an illusion.
But there is truth within illusions.
And when the illusion fades,
the truth will still resonate within you.
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
ayes.. the irony of it. first i caused a major booboo by clarifying an unfounded statement with an overseas organiser, now who is the one stirring up all the shit and getting the whole community involved? who's the politician now?
we are really alike, in many ways.
there is nothing that i'm denying, so don't bother trying to defend yourself - please, pray do tell everyone who exactly is the person you're having a spat with. or do i have to pm you? my, my, the contradictions. if this is how you plan to destroy a 5 year friendship, there is nothing i can do. oh, and thanks also for helping me identify my subconscious power of being able to convince people unknowingly, you know how we always want our own special powers - and now i've found mine. unfortunately, you seem to have forgotten your listening audience is now a mature bunch of 20+year olds who can actually think and analyse from both sides, by and for themselves. so much for marketing 101.
if i fool people with my innocent ways, aren't you quite the same with your confounding words?
logically speaking, writing your own POV in a public journal is not a way to get things straight. In fact, the thing you wanted to do was to tell the whole world and blow things up even further. game's over, objectives' revealed.
realistically speaking, it does help to increase your DA views. everyone knows the might of your words outweigh the lure of your photos.
psychologically speaking, it does make you feel a lot better doesn't it? PEOPLE SHOULD KNOW WHAT A PRETENDER SHE IS, AND HOW I HAVE SUFFERED.
confusing? don't be. after all, you would rather be direct with somebody else than settle this personally.
by the way, there's only an average of 10 unique monthly viewers on my blog. and they are all locals (read: there was never any overseas cosplayers involved, but lord knows if it's the same for yours'). i prefer to keep DA for cosplay archives, rather than a tool for vindication.
we are really alike, in many ways.
there is nothing that i'm denying, so don't bother trying to defend yourself - please, pray do tell everyone who exactly is the person you're having a spat with. or do i have to pm you? my, my, the contradictions. if this is how you plan to destroy a 5 year friendship, there is nothing i can do. oh, and thanks also for helping me identify my subconscious power of being able to convince people unknowingly, you know how we always want our own special powers - and now i've found mine. unfortunately, you seem to have forgotten your listening audience is now a mature bunch of 20+year olds who can actually think and analyse from both sides, by and for themselves. so much for marketing 101.
if i fool people with my innocent ways, aren't you quite the same with your confounding words?
logically speaking, writing your own POV in a public journal is not a way to get things straight. In fact, the thing you wanted to do was to tell the whole world and blow things up even further. game's over, objectives' revealed.
realistically speaking, it does help to increase your DA views. everyone knows the might of your words outweigh the lure of your photos.
psychologically speaking, it does make you feel a lot better doesn't it? PEOPLE SHOULD KNOW WHAT A PRETENDER SHE IS, AND HOW I HAVE SUFFERED.
confusing? don't be. after all, you would rather be direct with somebody else than settle this personally.
by the way, there's only an average of 10 unique monthly viewers on my blog. and they are all locals (read: there was never any overseas cosplayers involved, but lord knows if it's the same for yours'). i prefer to keep DA for cosplay archives, rather than a tool for vindication.
Thursday, December 23, 2010
i was more interested in working on byakko. finally finished painting all the butterflies!! i added some blue undershades, golder feelers and glittery outlines and shadows. looks not bad, i think.
don't really know if i should paint the back since there's no picture of it... and i'm lazy. hurhur. nobody's gonna photograph the back ah...
also added and modified the collar portion.
don't really know if i should paint the back since there's no picture of it... and i'm lazy. hurhur. nobody's gonna photograph the back ah...
also added and modified the collar portion.
oh my... was googling my own name and i found...
http://www.bebo.com/Profile.jsp?MemberId=35266
hhaha it's as if i found another me! this was the time when i was sun-kissed (a.k.a. DARK) and working in the states. it was also where my love for roller coasters and theme park first started, waaaay back in 2005. and it was also where facebook began, and that was around the time when i knew about fb (and now everyone from bebo has already moved over).
i love work and travel. i wonder if i'll ever have another chance at it again.
MOREY'S PIERS! GREAT NOR'EASTER! WILDWOOD! ED! <3
it's all so long ago...
http://www.bebo.com/Profile.jsp?MemberId=35266
hhaha it's as if i found another me! this was the time when i was sun-kissed (a.k.a. DARK) and working in the states. it was also where my love for roller coasters and theme park first started, waaaay back in 2005. and it was also where facebook began, and that was around the time when i knew about fb (and now everyone from bebo has already moved over).
i love work and travel. i wonder if i'll ever have another chance at it again.
MOREY'S PIERS! GREAT NOR'EASTER! WILDWOOD! ED! <3
it's all so long ago...
Friday, December 17, 2010
i don't really like to do things so last minute, but since i was only 'confirmed' during eoy, i only had 1 week to brush up on my costume. not to mention i checked on videos and found that i had missing parts in the costume i absolutely had to repair...
worked on my scabbard on monday.. yeah i sort of captured these screenshots from youtube videos. lol. had to make out the details myself though since it's not really that clear, and i ended up confusing them with another sword he has. urghh.
went to buy aqua lining for my boots on tuesday as well as for the back of the cape. when i went shopping for the aqua lining... i was hesitant in just buying the lining and came across grey laces. so i thought... why not put those laces on my sleeves?? and i bought them =.= bleahs.
added the 'other side of the arrow' also, and i realised i need more buckles... eeee next time! maybe need to add 2 more...!?
wednesday i had lesson - when i came home it was so so late but i still had a bit of time to sew on lace for my collar tie.
thursday was more lace sewing after i got my bunch of laces... which i discovered that i actually had no need to, but because of my thirst for more patterns... i ended up putting them everywhere. kind of an overdosage if you ask me, but i had no time to take them off again. and of cos i had to pack too x_x i actually ran out of peach thread.. and ended up uhu gluing halfway lol.
actually i do not really like the grey laces. and i used the wrong set of stretchable laces and it seems to be curling. HORRIBLE. i'm regretting now. but what to do! it's too late!!! x_x
worked on my scabbard on monday.. yeah i sort of captured these screenshots from youtube videos. lol. had to make out the details myself though since it's not really that clear, and i ended up confusing them with another sword he has. urghh.
went to buy aqua lining for my boots on tuesday as well as for the back of the cape. when i went shopping for the aqua lining... i was hesitant in just buying the lining and came across grey laces. so i thought... why not put those laces on my sleeves?? and i bought them =.= bleahs.
added the 'other side of the arrow' also, and i realised i need more buckles... eeee next time! maybe need to add 2 more...!?
wednesday i had lesson - when i came home it was so so late but i still had a bit of time to sew on lace for my collar tie.
thursday was more lace sewing after i got my bunch of laces... which i discovered that i actually had no need to, but because of my thirst for more patterns... i ended up putting them everywhere. kind of an overdosage if you ask me, but i had no time to take them off again. and of cos i had to pack too x_x i actually ran out of peach thread.. and ended up uhu gluing halfway lol.
actually i do not really like the grey laces. and i used the wrong set of stretchable laces and it seems to be curling. HORRIBLE. i'm regretting now. but what to do! it's too late!!! x_x
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
made the trousers and the front top, but nothing special about these really.
i'm more interested in the butterflies painting instead heehee. first, pencil sketches... i made a mistake by trying to rub off the wrong drawings and i rubbed off cloth fibres instead. zzz.
blue outlines first.
then the patterns...
i'm not done yet though. zzz paint a little each day and eventually it should be done... i hope x_x all the butterflies are different, and i'm kinda glad because it makes painting more fun. i'd hate to duplicate like 15 of the same butterflies...
also, you can't really see some of the butterflies in full from the only picture i have, so i have to imagine them - that's pretty nice, except i'm just afraid when the real one comes out it won't look the same =.=
i'm more interested in the butterflies painting instead heehee. first, pencil sketches... i made a mistake by trying to rub off the wrong drawings and i rubbed off cloth fibres instead. zzz.
blue outlines first.
then the patterns...
i'm not done yet though. zzz paint a little each day and eventually it should be done... i hope x_x all the butterflies are different, and i'm kinda glad because it makes painting more fun. i'd hate to duplicate like 15 of the same butterflies...
also, you can't really see some of the butterflies in full from the only picture i have, so i have to imagine them - that's pretty nice, except i'm just afraid when the real one comes out it won't look the same =.=
Monday, December 13, 2010
a late post on the present i did for denise. went through her wish list and yay! we're gonna be in the same group for this so might as well do something to motivate her (i hope).
yes she's doing such a sexy character... all the revealing parts are so dangerous..
actually the sewing of the ribbon and joining of the parts are all pretty easy, in fact i think i did it in less than an hour.
it's the gathering of the materials that's difficult. i walked the whole day - textile centre, arab street... and for that 2 golden balls i probably traversed orchard's spotlight, art friend and various christmas decor places to get it. finally located an appropriate one with the right size at causeway... thank goodness for christmas...! finally the tail tassels i got them at spotlight, but i would much rather use a wig, but i had no time to ship one in nor get one on the spot with the correct color. oh well... hope you like it anyway!!
yes she's doing such a sexy character... all the revealing parts are so dangerous..
actually the sewing of the ribbon and joining of the parts are all pretty easy, in fact i think i did it in less than an hour.
it's the gathering of the materials that's difficult. i walked the whole day - textile centre, arab street... and for that 2 golden balls i probably traversed orchard's spotlight, art friend and various christmas decor places to get it. finally located an appropriate one with the right size at causeway... thank goodness for christmas...! finally the tail tassels i got them at spotlight, but i would much rather use a wig, but i had no time to ship one in nor get one on the spot with the correct color. oh well... hope you like it anyway!!
Thursday, December 09, 2010
BYAKKKKKKKOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
no of course i'm not gonna do that version, don't be alarmed.
now this looks much more decent right?
whee heee.
and i've already started it. seriously i think i could have reused the one for my shinigami...
but i remade it all the same, with new materials!
so never mind. should be able to get it done by jan...
no of course i'm not gonna do that version, don't be alarmed.
now this looks much more decent right?
whee heee.
and i've already started it. seriously i think i could have reused the one for my shinigami...
but i remade it all the same, with new materials!
so never mind. should be able to get it done by jan...
eeeks
i chionged stuff for others and didn't really work on mine. x_x eeeps.
worked on my first commission for val 8D YAYYYY i hope you like this!! took 3 hours for the basic stuff to be up, then adjusted it (actually not much adjustments, my measurements were sort of alright lol).
the pockets were a pain in the arse, had to iron it out first to get the shape, then tack it to get the position right. swing it inside out is really NO FUN at all. then comes the buttons.
bleah
and then the finishing touches (side seaming, uhu tack hurhur)
and putting on the blue lines (i think it looks better without the lines.. but oh well!)
i chionged stuff for others and didn't really work on mine. x_x eeeps.
worked on my first commission for val 8D YAYYYY i hope you like this!! took 3 hours for the basic stuff to be up, then adjusted it (actually not much adjustments, my measurements were sort of alright lol).
the pockets were a pain in the arse, had to iron it out first to get the shape, then tack it to get the position right. swing it inside out is really NO FUN at all. then comes the buttons.
bleah
and then the finishing touches (side seaming, uhu tack hurhur)
and putting on the blue lines (i think it looks better without the lines.. but oh well!)
Friday, December 03, 2010
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
sometimes i wonder if i am going to remain like this forever.
and today happens to be one of those times.
i am comfortable with where i am, but is this where i want to stay permanently?
where do i wanna go?
what do i wanna do?
what is important to me?
and one question that was asked repeatedly to me today...does it tie in with my aspirations? and i knew i was at a loss. what aspirations were i looking at? hobby-wise... or career-wise?
i know there is hardly a way to tie both together. i have 2 different lives, and they are really as different as each can be. i'm so afraid that either will eat up the other one, and i'm having a pretty good balance right now. but what i want to proceed as a step further in the future may prove to disrupt this balance. do i want that?
i feel like i'm just waiting and waiting. for something. something. but that something will probably never happen.
and today happens to be one of those times.
i am comfortable with where i am, but is this where i want to stay permanently?
where do i wanna go?
what do i wanna do?
what is important to me?
and one question that was asked repeatedly to me today...does it tie in with my aspirations? and i knew i was at a loss. what aspirations were i looking at? hobby-wise... or career-wise?
i know there is hardly a way to tie both together. i have 2 different lives, and they are really as different as each can be. i'm so afraid that either will eat up the other one, and i'm having a pretty good balance right now. but what i want to proceed as a step further in the future may prove to disrupt this balance. do i want that?
i feel like i'm just waiting and waiting. for something. something. but that something will probably never happen.
progress for ragnarok over the weekend... i think i accomplished quite a lot. my only problem was i was watching chuno halfway and the disc stopped working T_T so i switched to watching the last disc of Baker Kim Tak Gu instead (and finished it hahaha)
ok coat first (wasn't done over the weekend, but just a late update). sewed all the bias tape outline...
then i stuck extra layers for the guards for the armour
and another layer - can you spot the difference?
also connected all the different parts and stuck on velcro.
worked on the shoulder guards too and sewed (YES, SEW) all those triangles on - it figures sewing will give a better 'grip' than hotgluing. think i took half a day to sew them on and kept poking myself T_T
lastly, the sword!!! i spent another half a day (on sat) gluing all those petals on... only to realise that they were supposed to be crystals as informed by benj T_T wahlao, no turning back.. gotta see what i can do to make 'em shine...
and kangaroo glue is horrible, i kept getting them all over my hands and have to take half an hour to peel them off each time. i'm kinda getting used to the smell though - is that a good thing...!?
ok coat first (wasn't done over the weekend, but just a late update). sewed all the bias tape outline...
then i stuck extra layers for the guards for the armour
and another layer - can you spot the difference?
also connected all the different parts and stuck on velcro.
worked on the shoulder guards too and sewed (YES, SEW) all those triangles on - it figures sewing will give a better 'grip' than hotgluing. think i took half a day to sew them on and kept poking myself T_T
lastly, the sword!!! i spent another half a day (on sat) gluing all those petals on... only to realise that they were supposed to be crystals as informed by benj T_T wahlao, no turning back.. gotta see what i can do to make 'em shine...
and kangaroo glue is horrible, i kept getting them all over my hands and have to take half an hour to peel them off each time. i'm kinda getting used to the smell though - is that a good thing...!?
Monday, November 22, 2010
ughhh i smelt glue the whole of sunday. i think my brain is 20% damaged now.
so results of my brain wreck, and i had to spend like half an hour washing all the glue bits off my hands. urghhh:
many many small triangles
which eventually became trapeziums
all the leg guards sewn with velcros (i actually used cloth hard lining for these instead of foam cos my foams were too small lol. may have to stack the patterns again)
all the handguards. the patterns were clearer for this, hmmm.
and the finger bits...
which i glued onto my gloves. it was an OUCH experience. hot glue is very hot you know, but i don't have a hand model... x_x
oh yeah i was watching chuno ep 17 behind. hurhur. finished my nappeun namja... stupid ending. URGHHH he didn't have to die you know!!!! :(
still lacking shoulder guards... bleahs
so results of my brain wreck, and i had to spend like half an hour washing all the glue bits off my hands. urghhh:
many many small triangles
which eventually became trapeziums
all the leg guards sewn with velcros (i actually used cloth hard lining for these instead of foam cos my foams were too small lol. may have to stack the patterns again)
all the handguards. the patterns were clearer for this, hmmm.
and the finger bits...
which i glued onto my gloves. it was an OUCH experience. hot glue is very hot you know, but i don't have a hand model... x_x
oh yeah i was watching chuno ep 17 behind. hurhur. finished my nappeun namja... stupid ending. URGHHH he didn't have to die you know!!!! :(
still lacking shoulder guards... bleahs