i am so bloody hooked on this show that i'm going nuts!!!

i think he's probably the next guy i'm going crazy over after lee jun ki.

so in this show, bidam appears first in episode 21 as the son of mishil and the other king who was overthrown (cannot remember his name). he's really an odd guy, with a crazy streak and a disregard for the importance of human lives. the way he kills is simply maniacal - no doubts about someone with martial arts skills inherited from the most-respected guardians in silla (the country in the show)



bidam is an important character who later helps deokman in her route to becoming king. one particular look i like when he was acting as the 'speaker of god' or 'ji1 tong2'





there's just something that's captivating about masked scarred long-haired guys *_*

not to mention after he joined hwarang he had his hair up in a nice ponytail hoo hoo





aside from his crazy side, he has this tender spot for deokman. the expression he has when he's around her is just <3



this is the scene where i fell in love with him.



still looking good with a moustache.



it's interesting to see how kim nam gil portrayed the role of bidam, from a crazy killer machine, a joker, to someone who is more serious and dark. the role evolution is really intriguing, and this video just about summarizes bidam.



this video features how bidam and deokman had their fates entwined since birth - both being babies who were discarded, and how they were brought together. one of my favourite mvs featuring their star-crossed lives.



and i totally spoilt myself watching this mv, which is going to be what happens in the end. DON'T WATCH IF YOU HAVEN'T WATCH THE SHOW!! i feel i'm going to be traumatised for a week after i watch the last episode.



kim nam gil in real life! winning the awards for his role as bidam and looking damn good.





hi, tall dark handsome knight! now looking forward to his next show!
there should seriously be more korean history dramas!!

i want to watch.. nowwwwwww.... ww T.T
why the crazy guy bidam became so shuai... *_* and yushin-nang is so <3 - he's not shuai nor my type, but it just feels like jang geum and jeong ho. mmmmm *starts dreaming* to hell with work!

made my ladybug bag while watching queen seon duk. almost forgot about it.



basically it's just foam as the inside and cloth wrapped by uhu glue/cloth tape. it can open up at the black/red split to store stuff. hoho...



redid my pauldrons so it's more... 3d-like too. had to tear away all the previous tapes... the foam is actually pretty holey, but i managed to cover the holey parts with the cloth and tried to stick the black cloth tape over all the holey cloth and holey foam ww



gotta love uhu glue and cloth tape. gonna use elastic band to wear it on my shoulders.



i'm listening to lee jun ki's j style now by the way. sexaaaaaaay. *_* <3<3 you make me wanna be someone better hohohoho

did this sometime ago, crafted with clay and painted with acrylic. then i used a black marker to do the outlines, and finally sprayed a coat of protection/shine. quite happy with the necklace except the beads near the stone got kind of smudged... from what i see on other reference pictures, need to change the earring to a stud and need to add something else to that stone as well as change it's color. so i guess there's still much work left!



i like my shading. hahahhahaha.

bwhahaha i guess it was worth it in the end! i'm so happy i actually came back straight and had the urge to blog about this. guess calafare's job is pretty interesting after all!! *_* the only actor i ever admired (shaun/shawn tan/chen whatever, chen hong yu) in singapore due to his yi xin ren show - i still remembered i actually bothered to be home on time to catch every single episode when it was showing that time - was there *_*!!! although there's no actual scenes between us, it was still good to see him in action.

then there's mr pierre png who is really very good looking in real life, and his role is this CEO trying to dissolve an argument with a just-fired uncle employee. the uncle is damn cute too by the way, he is so gao xiao (he made a joke out of 'da pian zi', which is big liar, as 'da bian zi', which is toilet paper. lols). i can't remember his name though... oh well.

was intimidating at first but i managed to see quite a lot of actors/actresses when i was around the make-up room. not bad for a first-time experience! happy happy! (",) not about to promote the show and make you guys watch it here though... *cringes at my acting* bwahhaha.

went to buy the royal blue ribbons at chinatown on sat after a birthday lunch for mao2, and immediately worked on them when i got home. using val's special uhu glue method, it seriously saved me a lot a lot of time! had to sew it in half first before putting them on since it was still too thick.



looks pretty nice on pictures. finally done with her sari... zzz... what a pain...

finally hyped myself to do some stuff over the new year holidays. gahh. aside from chionging the bloody embroideries, managed to piece together a bag from a reference picture here...







oh wait and then i realised that it really shouldn't be a bag at all! holy crap! what is this website selling?! they made part of the embroidery into pants?! GOSH.



it's a good thing i had my laptop with me. the pouch really isn't a pouch, it's for holding her spear!!



so i had to undo and redo it... this is so much easier to do than trying to sew that stupid zip and the circular top. put on the buckles to adjust tightness too. ughh. now the only problem is whether it can withstand holding the spear... -.-



made the armband using 4 'strands' of the leather i had. quite easy, just needs a bit of weaving basic.



then i found an old polo tee my sister didn't want and cut it. didn't really need to seam it since tshirt quality usually don't unthread that much, and if you try to seam, it just goes out of shape like what i have.



and the back



still looks out of shape but at least when it's worn it looks alright xo

Anime: Skip Beat
Sung by: Miyano Mamoru
Title: Prisoner



奪われたのは　この瞳だけじゃない
危険な純粋さ　ボクでさえ持て余していた
時間と狂気(こころ)だけになって　いつしか迷い込むMAZE
キミを呼ぶ声は　愛しさあふれるほど
悲しく響くよ

I'm prisoner in paradise
ボクの闇に突き刺さったキミは
I'm prisoner in paradise
永遠に　抜けない光棘(とげ)
残酷なほど美しい愛に　閉じ込められてしまったよ

抱きしめるたび　無傷ではいられない
その指先はまるで　氷のようにah冷たくて
頬を伝う温かい雫　ボクから自由を奪う
天国や地獄　今さら居場所なんか
求めてないよな

I'm prisoner in paradise
ボクの嘘を真(まこと)にするキミは
I'm prisoner in paradise
永遠に　醒めない呪縛(ゆめ)
無意味な鎖　禁じられた欲望(ふかみ)に
どこまで落ちてゆけばいい?

I'm prisoner in paradise
ボクの闇に突き刺さったキミは
I'm prisoner in paradise
永遠に　抜けない光棘(とげ)
残酷なほど美しい愛に　ボクの命を捧げるよ

[romanji lyrics]

ubawareta no wa kono hitomi dake janai
kiken na junsui sa BOKU de sae moteamashite ita
jikan to kokoro dake ni natte itsushika mayoikomu MAZE
KIMI wo yobu koe wa itoshisa afureru hodo
kanashiku hibiku yo

I’m prisoner in paradise
BOKU no yami ni tsukisasatta KIMI wa
I’m prisoner in paradise
eien ni nukenai toge
zankoku na hodo utsukushii ai ni tojikomerarete shimatta yo

dakishimeru tabi mukizu de wa irarenai
sono yubisaki wa marude koori no you ni ah tsumetakute
hoo wo tsutau atatakai shizuku BOKU kara jiyuu wo ubau
tengoku ya jigoku imasara ibasho nanka
motometenai yo na

I’m prisoner in paradise
BOKU no uso wo makoto ni suru KIMI wa
I’m prisoner in paradise
eien ni samenai yume
muimi na kusari kinjirareta fukami ni
dokomade ochite yukeba ii

I’m prisoner in paradise
BOKU no yami ni tsukisasatta KIMI wa
I’m prisoner in paradise
eien ni nukenai toge
zankoku na hodo utsukushii ai ni BOKU no inochi wo sasageru yo

[english translation]

it's not just my eyes that you stole
i was overwhelmed by this unadulterated danger
it's become nothing but time and my heart
you penetrate the darkness that surrounds me it is perplexed unnoticed and the voice which calls MAZE you who are packed is dear

i'm a prisoner in paradise
a thorn that cannot be removed.I'm prisoner in paradise the light which it does not come out eternally 棘 (accomplishing) were shut in cruel extent beautiful love

i'm wounded each time we embrace
your fingers, they're as cold ...ah... as ice
the warm teardrops on my cheeks...
they steal from me.

As for you who make I'm prisoner in paradise my lie true (truth) I'm prisoner in paradise the spell (dream) meaningless chain which does not awaken eternally in the desire

i'm a prisoner in paradise
a thorn that cannot be removed. I'm prisoner in paradise the light which it does not come out eternally 棘 (accomplishing) lift up my life to cruel extent beautiful love

last updated, 28th jan. have not written for a long time, so while i'm pondering over the essay to uniqlo, thought i might key a very long entry for the first time.

or maybe not.

sighs.

i have so many things to complain about.

1) my job. as if writing a report isn't something i hate, it seems that i have more of it coming after i complained about it to my boss!!! he doesn't seem to understand. i am freaking UNABLE to look for a coder, a facebook person, write an action plan, do a proposal, plan the overall outline, do a sitemap of the modifications to be made, do up a freaking outline AND get the whole damn thing carried out in a single night. he thinks it's simple just because i don't move my butt from my seat the entire day, but he doesn't get how much work you need to put in to get these seemingly insignificant chores stuff. and did i mention i was trying, in the midst of his incredible task list to me, to write a 20page report for this project which requires you to just host an 80mb file?

2) being singaporean. gosh you have to go back to the embassy and the ica building for 300 times before they approve the application and give you your documents. and pay a massive sum. then they put your ugliest photo as your ic and passport photo. and you have to stick with it for 5 years. what's wrong with scanning the better looking photo! (ok i'm so frivolous but WTH) i have to live with the ic for the rest of my freaking life and go across borders for 5 years with that hideous picture! i was so NOT feeling fantastic that i converted. not to mention the first letter the government gave me was 'CONGRATS, YOU HAVE BEEN IDENTIFIED AS AN INCOME TAX PLAYER'. you'd think there's an orientation welcome package, but all the bloody rich government wants is your money when you become part of them.

3) cosplay. all i can say, i'm starting to socialise and know more people, but maybe i shouldn't have. small talking even 10 people at once is a feat. and this world is full of crappy people who seems to want to rise to stardom in a blink, and is friendly to you just because you might be their stepping stone. it's hideous. but i know it's real. sometimes you don't even know if a person is sincere anymore, you can't stop thinking whether this person wants something else when he starts to talk to you, you don't even know what he'll say behind your back, or how he'll twist your words. i might not experience all these, but it's sickening enough to know someone is doing such things. i don't care what it takes, i'll finish whatever characters i have and get out by the end of the year. perhaps it's better to not know anything at all.

i need to rant!!!!!! BLOODY HELL why do i have to write a freaking 15 page report just to get a stupid hosting place set up which only contains the almight ONE file?!!!!!!!!!?!??! what's with all the inefficient procedures? did i say i hate writing reports? I HATE WRITING REPORTS!

don't expect me to bloody come up with a 10page report just to tell you how many downloads you're gonna get you freak because that's just another ONE stupid number!!! ARGHHHHH i'm so sick sick sick of my job!!

leona lewis sings for ff13 english version!!! i can't wait for march to come!!!!

Video Games | Final Fantasy XIII | International Trailer

XBox 360 | Playstation 3 | Nintendo Wii

yes i must be mad, but i'm gonna have these dolls made for my shoot.







perhaps i'll sell them away after that, anyone wants? lols.

made the clothes first. too big for my barbie dolls.



then finally got my dolls stuffing from maomao to make the bodies! they look rather long. let's see if i'm hardworking enough to 'chop' the legs.



made the hair/hat yesterday. awwww.



now i'm thinking what i should draw for the face. perhaps they don't need one since they have masks. a bit lazy to do the masks. no inspirations. zzz.

me and rina finally got down to 'training' our muscles last sat.
bwhahah. results not so bad. this is just the prototype though. still need some more muscles and tattoo. shall not post all the awful pictures rina took while i was wearing the suit since she was drawing on me. yikes

Park Wan Kyu - Fate (from Hong Gil Dong)

kyaaaaa~~~ gong-jai yahhhhhh <3





내가 너무 약해서 내가 너무 나빠서
그저 이렇게 널 보고만 있어
나의 지친 마음도 나의 깊은 상처도
오랜 기억처럼 잊어었나봐..
나를 감당 할 수가 없어~
너에게만 매달리게 되
너 이렇게 가지마~~
내 심장이 너를 부르잖아~
미치도록 잔인한 인연에
더이상 아무것도 할 수가 없어..
슬픈나의 모습도 슬픈너의 눈빛도
그져 스쳐가는 바람이려나
거친 바람소리에 귀를 막아보지만
너를 보는 눈은 막을 수 없어..
같은 하늘아래 너와 난
다른곳을 보고 있나봐..
너 이렇게 가지마~~
내 심장이 너를 부르잖아~
미치도록 잔인한 인연에
더이상 아무것도 할 수가 없어..
끝이없는 마음에~~
버릴수가 없는 이 욕심이
나 이렇게 원하고 원해도
널 자격조차 없는 나인걸..
그럴 자격조차~~없는 나인걸..

—-
Because I am so weak, because I am so bad
I am just watching you like this.
My worn-out mind and my deep scar
I must have forgotten them like an old memory.
I cannot handle myself,
I end up clinging on to you.
Don’t leave like this
(Don’t you see) My heart is calling out to you.
In this cruel fate, that drives me crazy,
There is nothing more I can do.
My sad appearance and the sad look in your eyes –
I wonder if they are just a passing wind.
Although I try to block my ears from the rough sound of the wind
I cannot block my eyes from seeing you.
You and I under the same sky
We must be looking towards different places.
Don’t leave like this
(Don’t you see) My heart is calling out to you.
In this cruel fate, that drives me crazy,
There is nothing more I can do.
In an endless feeling, this greed I can’t abandon
Although, like this, I want and want
It is I that has no right to have you.
It is I that has no right to have you.

——

Naega nomu yaghaeso naega nomu nappaso
Keucho yirohke nol bogoman isso
Nayi chichin maomdo nayi kipeun sangchodo
Oraen Kiogchorom ijossonaba
Nareul kamdang hal suga opso
Noegeman maedallige doe
No ilohke kajima
Nae shimjangi noleul pureujanha
Michidorog janinhan inyone
Toyisang amugotto hal suga opso
Seulpeunnayi moseupto seulpeunnoyi nunpitto
Keujyo seuchyokaneun palamiryona
Kochin poramsorie kyuleul magabojiman
Noleul poneun nuneun mageul su opso
Kateun haneularae nowa nan
Dareungoseul bogo inaboa
No ilohke kajima
Nae shimjangi noleul pureujanha
Michidorog janinhan inyone
Toyisang amugotto hal suga opso
Keutiobneun maeume
Porirsuga obneun yi yonshimi
Na ilohke uohnago uonhaedo
Nol chagyonchocha opneun nayingol
Geurol chagyanchocha opneun nayingol

koped lyrics from here

by the way if you didn't notice, i changed my imeem player to the little ipod on the right hand side and it's playing all the music i like... with videos!! holy cow this is good!

yep it's all k-dramas. hohoho i will consider putting other stuff later but i spent half my day finding the videos i want to put in already.

and i put my self-made MV inside too (iljimae and daejanggeum). watch watch!

and the song fate is reminding me of my prince. jang geun suk just looks so so so sad in the show it breaks my heart.

and my armour i did for a week while watching hong gil dong. speaking of which... it's a really funny drama but the ending had me traumatised for 3 days. gong-jai! my prince! why!!! *gets lovestruck for a while*

ok, back to monster hunter armour. well, it's not very accurate i would say, but it's er... good enough i think for my level. sighs i just can't do anything 100% right. *bawls*

starting off with the skirt since that's what i worked on first. i used those hard type of underlining for the base, and wrapped cloth around them. it's my sewing-free job! all uhu glue! that's why i can watch hong gil dong and do this at the same time.

putting the individual pieces using one of the base strips, this is what i get.



then i did the skirt guard



and stuck them together. the skirt is buckled together using velcro.



this is the front piece of the skirt. used a ribbon so i can tie them to my waist. it's supposed to be underneath the skirt pieces.
now, why does the color look pink here? it's supposed to be orange. ARGHHH.



then i did my hand and leg warmers. ok, i needed to sew up the sides for these. but i didn't sew any of the edges! i used white type to keep the edges from unthreading. i hate sewing curly things actually.



warmers with the brown ribbon glued on.



when i post this it should be completed already. this is the chest plate and shoulder guard. and here i should explain that i used black cloth tape for all the edge lining and clear colored folders for all the colored patterns. this shoulder plate is NOT round enough. clear fail. perhaps i will redo if i'm not feeling too lazy.



here's the corset i did, using the same method as the skirt. it's joined up by machine stitching. too hard to hold corset together with uhu glue.



i did the butterfly pieces for the back and for the headgear.



and the butterfly is stitched behind the corset after positioning it with pins.



then there's the headpiece. actually this is the very first armour piece i did for the whole costume (remember in my previous post i said my helm sucked). it's done using craft foam and wrapping cloth around.



put on the colored pieces separately and lined the insides with white tape so the thread won't uncurl from the edge of the cloth.



i then sewed the 2 pieces together, and did the front cover as well.



the little butterfly goes to the back of the helm. here's the final headpiece with that ahoge sticking out in front (held up using wires inside)



the front shape is still a bit weird. but i AM TOO LAZY now. and i still need to figure out how to make this helm stick to my head. i mean i can wear it now but it's not like tight fitting or anything. it kinda bobs up if i don't find a method to tack it down.



now i only have the chainsaws left. headache...

and boy it's hot when i put all these stuff together...

hmmm? why did i ever get talked into doing this armour? phwehhh...

i undid the stitches and redid it for about 3 times before i finally got it right. though it still looks not very right. GAHHHH. what am i doing?!?!?

then there's my nails i prepared for kyoko.
argh speaking of the shoot on friday, it was really vexing. spent 3 hours to prepare only to arrive at the scene of rain. and got my gown all dirty and brownish at the edges. good thing there's still the home-made in house studio shots. hope it turns out well...

and i lost one of these nails!! T.T

my 2 weeks of holiday is ending in just another 8hours... sighs. time just keep flying when you don't want them to. and i supposedly just got off msn, but i'm blogging now. GOSH. i have to totally keep myself off the screen!! (after these updates of course)

first up, my castor plates. a bit too late now but oh well.



actually resprayed it again.



and i resprayed it AGAIN. all of them don't look that different anyway. wanted the new but not too new feeling but oh well.