Sunday, October 26, 2003


A woman goes into a pet shop looking for a parrot. The assistant shows her a beautiful African Grey parrot, What about this one, Madam? A beautiful bird, I'm sure you'll agree, and it's an absolute steal at only �0. Why is it so cheap? the woman asks. Well, replies the assistant, it used to live in a brothel and as a resultit's language is a touch fruity!.Oh, I don't mind that, said the woman, making her mind up, I'm broad minded and it'll be a laugh having a profane parrot. So she buys the parrot and takes him home. Once safely in his new home, the parrot looks around and squawks at the woman, F **k me, a new brothel and a new madam!,

I'm not a Madam and this isn't a brothel says the woman indignantly. A little later the woman's two teenage daughters arrive home. A new brothel, a new madam, and now new prostitutes, says the parrot when he sees the daughters. Mum, tell your parrot to shut up, were not prostitutes complained the girls but they all see the funny side and have a laugh at their new pet. A short while later, the woman's husband comes home and the parrot says, Well F**k me, a new brothel, a new madam, new whores, but the same old clients. How ya doin Andy?

Friday, October 24, 2003

Eve 6 - Think Twice (nothing reflective... just that the tune is nice (",))

When all is said and done
And dead does he love you
The way that I do

Beathing in lighting
Tonight's fighting
I feel the hurt so physical

Think twice before you touch my girl
Come around I'll let you feel the burn
Think twice before you touch my girl
Come around come around no more
Think twice before you touch my girl
Come around I'll let you feel the burn
Think twice before you touch my girl
Come around no more

She spreads her love
She burns me up
I can't let go
I can't get out
I've said enough
Enough by now
I can't let go
I can't get out

Wait till the day you finally see
I've been here waiting patiently

Crossing my fingers and my t's
She cried on my shoulder begging please

Think twice before you touch my girl
Come around I'll let you feel the burn
Think twice before you touch my girl
Come around come around no more
Think twice before you touch my girl
Come around I'll let you feel the burn
Think twice before you touch my girl
Come around no more

She spreads her love
She burns me up
I can't let go
I can't get out
I've said enough
Enough by now
I can't let go
I can't get out

What is it you really want
I'm tired of asking

You come wasted

When I showed up and he was there
I tried my best to grin and bear
And took the stairs but didn't stop at the street
And as we speak I'm going down

Cause she spread her love
And burnt me up
I can't let go
I can't get out
I've said enough
Enough by now
I can't let go
I can't get out

Think twice before you touch my girl
Come around I'll let you feel the burn
Think twice before you touch my girl
Come around come around no more
Think twice before you touch my girl
Come around I'll let you feel the burn
Think twice before you touch my girl
Come around no more
You are Form 0, Phoenix: The Eternal.

"And The Phoenix's cycle had reached
zenith, so he consumed himself in fire. He
emerged from his own ashes, to be forever

Some examples of the Phoenix Form are Quetzalcoatl
(Aztec), Shiva (Indian), and Ra-Atum
The Phoenix is associated with the concept of life,
the number 0, and the element of fire.
His sign is the eclipsed sun.

As a member of Form 0, you are a determined
individual. You tend to keep your sense of
optomism, even through tough times and have a
positive outlook on most situations. You have
a way of looking at going through life as a
journey that you can constantly learn from.
Phoenixes are the best friends to have because
they cheer people up easily.

Which Mythological Form Are You?
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! You are most Like A Sapphire !
Dark, mysterious - but unforgettable. You have a
beauty. Delicate, and shy you try to stay away from
limelight but often your intelligence puts you in
at the
deep end. You're like a Sapphire, because, your
beauty is priceless.
You're intelligent, full of opinions, and not big-
headed about it all.
Sometimes you need to put yourself out there, as
you can be a bit shy.
Congratulations ... You're the mysterious gem
everybody wants to have and learn more about.

?? Which Precious Gem Are You ??
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?? Which Angel Or Demon Are You ??
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Animalistic Horoscope

RED KANGAROO (Aries Mar 2 - Apr 19)
The kangaroo or "great foot" has an abundance of speed. His great feet with highly developed tendons allow an abundance of energy because of their self-supporting attitude. The kangaroo sets down an intuitive path for its young to follow, ensuring its growth. It has a nurturing tendency - supporting, fostering and encouraging its young. The kangaroo has a strong sense of family togetherness.


The red kangaroo woman is independent, optimistic and idealistic, with a strong faith in the future. She is capable of intense passion but is temperamental and likes freedom. Although loyal, she dislikes playing a secondary role to a man.


The red kangaroo man is faithful and idealistic. He dislikes flirtation and is both possessive and jealous. He is often intolerant, selfish and demanding, but can be sentimental. He is generous but not good at budgets.

HAIRY-NOSED WOMBAT (Taurus Apr 21 - May 21)

Placid wombats go about their business largely unseen, stubbornly digging large underground homes where they can go to escape their predators. Their tenacity means they don't give up on anything - wombats just keep digging until their goals are achieved. Being nocturnal feeders gives them an advantage, as most predators are sleeping when wombats are feeding.


The wombat woman usually has a friendly disposition and likes entertaining at home. She likes her partner to be dependable and a good provider. She has a mind of her own and is emotionally strong. She has a strong sense of beauty and can excel at decorating her home.


The wombat man is usually strong and masculine in his appearance, with a generous mouth and kindly eyes. He makes a good partner as he is loyal, considerate and romantic. He loves his home and children and likes to provide those special extras for his woman.

SUGAR GLIDER (Gemini May 22 - June 21)

Known for their timid nature, gliders must take a giant leap of faith as they parachute themselves into the great unknown, usually landing safely in the arms of their carefully chosen tree. In the darkness of the night and the silence of space, sugar gliders launch their way through life, trusting that the next tree will be there to catch them.


The sugar glider woman is often fickle and treats romance as a game. She has a wonderful imagination and can be lively and happy when it suits her mood. She has an appealing charm and is more practical than sentimental. She can be attracted to a man for his intellectual qualities,but then suddenly become bored. She is a thinker (and a very able one) and is often a career woman.


The sugar glider man is a good talker and, with his ready wit, shines socially. He is so unpredictable that his mood can change in a moment, and he has a tendency to become critical and irritable. One moment, he can be sullen and morose, the next, up in the clouds. His aims in life are > changeable and his instabilities are often his undoing. He is not known for being possessive or jealous. For him, variety is the spice of life.

KOALA (Cancer June 22 - July 23)

Koalas, with their firm grip on life, always know where they are going by being aware of the opportunities they are presented with. Koalas are very selective in the paths they take, and will foster only those directions that present the most enrichment. They choose their trees very carefully as the choice not only provides their source of food, but also their bed.


A koala woman is good at saving and likes to build upreserves of food or essentials for rainy days. She is motherly, protective and fond of her children and home. She is very imaginative, highly sensitive and easily hurt. Harsh words or criticism can wound her deeply and she will easily retreat into hertree.


The koala man is wary of strangers and will never confide his secrets to others. He loves his home and garden and has an affectionate and sentimental heart. He is usually very loyal, but even so, he can be fickle.

FRILL-NECKED LIZARD (Leo July 24 - Aug 23)

Lizards weave wonderful dreams of memories that have been long forgotten. They remember the dreamtime, when they ruled the earth. Lizards, when under threat, will let drop their tails as a defense mechanism ensuring their survival, butpeople will not let go of past issues and this will be their undoing.


The frill-necked lizard woman is usually popular, good looking and has a vibrant personality. She likes fine clothes and dressing up. She dislikes slovenly men and likes to feel proud of her partner. She loves going to dinner or to a show, and likes mixing with the best people, in the right places. She is intelligent and has a good sense of humour and is inclined to be independent. She has a soft heart, is usually sentimental, and has a weakness for flattery.


The frill-necked lizard man likes to be dominant, but he can be jealous and has quite a strong temper if annoyed. He can flirt and is often fickle, although he may not mean this at heart. He dislikes loneliness, and will look for fun and pleasure and for the types of people who will blend with his ego. He is loyal and affectionate and generous with his money. He is usually well built and is fond of sport.

ECHIDNA (Virgo Aug 24 - Sept 23)

The echidna is most likely to raise its spikes when someone gets too close; it needs it space. The little creature is so safely encased in his own comfort zone, he is afraid to allow anyone in. The moment it is threatened, it rolls itself into a ball so that nothing can harm - and it can't see the light.


An echidna woman likes a caring but not dominant partner. She can be practical and loving at the same time. She has an orderly and efficient mind and is usually well controlled, both mentally and emotionally. She is loyal and respects the truth. She is fond of books, writing, concerts, artistic entertainment, and arts and crafts.


The echidna man loves to work and is careful in his choice of partner. He frowns upon dramatic declarations of love and of flirtatious and empty affairs. He looks for an intelligent partner who will take an interest in family. He is loyal, decent and possessive, but is not usually jealous. He can be fairly strict with children but is always fair.

COCKATOO (Libra Sept 24 - Oct 23)

Cockatoos continually primp and preen their feathers to attract potential mates. It is also a reflection of their high self-esteem. Their open, friendly nature can be seen in their willingness to mix with others. Cockatoos are sometimes seen alone but, mostly, they spend time in large groups enjoying each other's company.


The Cockatoo woman likes to own lovely things - beautiful clothes, perfume, pictures, fresh flowers, candlelight and good music. She has a flair for socializing, and entertaining at home. Her home will be well cared for, clean and colourful in a quiet way, and she will surround herself with furniture that blends with her nature. She is usually highly intellectual, witty and charming. She is sentimental and affectionate, and does not like to work or live alone.


The Cockatoo man lacks driving ambition, but works for a comfortable, secure life. He is often "in love with love" and becomes confused between a good friendship and romance. He cannot live alone and must have someone to share his life and dreams with. He is fond of the art and literature and is very sociable, courteous and obliging. He will not willingly hurt anyone's feelings and he has a natural gentleness about him.

REDBACK SPIDER (Scorpio Oct 24 - Nov 22)

The redback spider ceaselessly weaves the web of life. It knows that as long as it remains active in pursuing life's goals, it will always be nourished by the universe. Its knowledge of the world and its energy is reflected by its ability to catchwhat it needs.


The redback spider woman has a strange glamour and penetrating eyes. On the surface she can be calm and poised, hiding her thoughts and emotions with great skill. She is possessive and has a natural interest in the opposite sex. She will be loyal and affectionate in a happy relationship, but hates weakness and looks for a strong partner in life. She can burn with jealousy, resentment and furious anger if her principles are put to the challenge. Her home is usually full of good taste, comfortable and very clean.


The redback spider man is extremely passionate. In his work, religious belief, politics, friendships and business relationships, he is intense and thorough. He is very energetic and perceptive and likes to probe tothe very roots of mysteries. He is intuitive and jealous in his personal and business life and will think nothing of pushing others out of his way if they should try to obstruct.

KOOKABURRA (Sagittarius Nov 23 - Dec 21)

The kookaburra's distinctive laughing call is contagious - it makes one feel like laughing along. It can stir up feelings of joy and of positive energy. When you hear a kookaburra laugh, remember to allow yourself to laugh as well, for laughter and joy are part of the very essence of our being.


The kookaburra woman is cheerful, optimistic and friendly. She is honest, confident and independent. She is not fussy about the house and is not one to slave in the kitchen. She likes drama and excitement, travel and the open countryside. She hates to feel possessed and tied down to routine. She likes good company, nice clothes, good food and wine. She is casual towards romance but, when really in love, will be loyal and affectionate.


The kookaburra man dislikes discipline and confined spaces. He is very optimistic, idealistic and intelligent. He likes a partner who will share his love of fun and adventure. He is not possessive, jealous or demanding, and likes to be free to come and go as he pleases. He is honest, open minded, easy to get on with, friendly and popular. He must have a challenging interest in his life or else he will become bored and restless.

GOANNA (Capricorn Dec 22 - Jan 20)

Goannas are forever curious about their surroundings. They calmly saunter along using their powerful body and legs to climb trees and rocks as they poke their noses into all manners of mischief. But should goannas feel there is danger about, they'll make a speedy retreat.


The goanna woman can be icy or charming; either way, she is sensible, determined, clever and superior. She makes a particularly good career woman - she's ambitious, and looks for security, so she will work hard to climb the ladder of success. She excels at managing the household chores and the budget and makes a caring mother, but can be a little too strict with her children.


The goanna man is strong, dependable and very ambitious. He is often a loner, but not by choice. He rarely shows his feelings and many think he has a heart of stone. But he is innately shy and adopts a serious approach towards love.

EMU (Aquarius Jan 21 - Feb 19)

These great flightless birds forage attentively in family groups and pair off during the breeding season to prepare for new arrivals. Once the eggs are laid, the male assumes the motherly role of taking care of them and then the chicks, once they've hatched.


The emu woman is faithful when in love, but not ardent or emotional. She likes to be able to carry on with her own interests and mix with her friends as often as she likes. She will often work when married to get away from the confines of the home. She is interested in the future but not from a material angle. She is not a snob and will go out of her way to help friends in trouble, whether they are richor poor.


The emu man admires intelligence and hates to be possessed. He is kind and loyal and enjoys an interesting social life where he can mix with the type of people who match him intellectually. He has a modern outlook and fixed opinions. He would make a good scientist, inventor, pilot, social worker, writer, mental-health worker or teacher.

PLATYPUS (Pisces Feb 20 - Mar 20)

The platypus feeds at dusk and dawn, so it is not easily seen. If it senses an observer it will dive beneath the water. Though timid, it has the means to defend itself if it chooses.


The platypus woman is full of charm, is sometimes quite witty, demure and feminine. She adapts to circumstances and to other people's influences easily but she can be careless, secretive and deceptive. She can lose herself in her dream world and be oblivious to reality, so she requires someone who can protect her.


The platypus man is easily hurt, sensitive and needs plenty of encouragement. He dislikes criticism and arguments and can easily become moody or depressed. His interests lean towards the arts, but he would make a good doctor, chemist or welfare worker. He is happy in an environment where his sympathetic qualities are employed.

Wednesday, October 22, 2003

The Doll and the White Rose

Take time to appreciate what you have now....

On the last day before christmas, I hurried to go to the supermarket to buy the remaining of the gift I didn't manage to buy earlier. When I saw all the people there, I started to complain to myself : 'It is going to take forever here and I still have so many other place to go...' 'Christmas really is getting more and more annoying every year. How I wish I could just lie down, go to sleep and only wake up after it...' Nonetheless, I made my way to the toy section, and there I started to curse the prices, wondering if afterall kids really play with such expensive toys.

While looking in the toy section, I noticed a small boy of about 5 years old, pressing a doll against his chest. He kept on touching the hair of the doll and looked so sad. I wondered who was this doll for. Then the little boy turned to the old woman next to him : 'Granny, are you sure I don't have enough money?' The old lady replied : 'You know it that you don't have enough money to buy this doll, my dear.' Then she asked him to stay here for 5 minutes while she went to look around. She left quickly. The little boy was still holding the doll in his hand. Finally, I started to walk toward him and I asked him who did he want to give this doll to.

'It is the doll that my sister loved most and wanted so much for this christmas. She was so sure that Santa Claus would bring it to her.' I replied to him that maybe Santa Claus will bring it to her, afterall, and not to worry. But he replied to me sadly. 'No, Santa Claus can not bring it to her where she is now. I have to give the doll to my mother so that she can give it to her when she goes there.'

His eyes were so sad while saying this. 'My sister has gone to be with God. Daddy say that Mummy will also go to see God very soon, so I thought that she could bring the doll with her to give it to my sister' My heart nearly stopped. The little boy looked up at me and said : 'I told daddy to tell mummy not to go yet. I asked him to wait until I come back from the supermarket.'

Then he showed me a very nice photo of him where he was laughing. He then told me:'I also want mummy to take this photo with her so that she will not forget me. I love my mummy and I wish she doesn't have to leave me but daddy says that she has to go to be with my little sister.' Then he looked again at the doll with sad eyes, very quietly. I quickly reached for my wallet and took a few notes and said to the boy: 'What if we checked again, just in case if u have enough money?' 'Ok' he said. 'I hope that I have enough.'

I added some of my money to his without him seeing and we started to count it. There was enough for the doll, and even some spare money. The little boy said : 'Thank you God for giving me enough money'
Then he looked at me and added : 'I asked yesterday before I slept for God to make sure I have enough money to buy this doll so that mummy can give it to my sister. He heard me'' I also wanted to have enough money to buy a white rose for my mummy, but I didn't dare to ask God too much. But He gave me enough to buy the doll and the white rose. You know, my mummy loves white rose'

A few minutes later, the old lady came again and I left with my trolley. I finished my shopping in a totally different state from when I started. I couldn't get the little boy out of my mind. Then I remembered a local newspaper article 2 days ago, which mentioned of a drunk man in a truck who hit a car where there was one young lady and a little girl. The little girl died right away, and the mother was left in a critical state. The family had to decide whether to pull the plug on the life-assisting machine, because the young lady would not be able to get out of the coma.

Was this the family of the little boy? Two days after this encounter with the little boy, I read in the newspaper that the young lady had passed away. I couldn't stop myself and went to buy a bunch of white roses and I went to the mortuary where the body of the young woman was exposed for people to see and make last wish before burial. She was there, in her coffin, holding a beautiful white rose in her hand with the photo of the little boy and the doll placed over her chest. I left the place crying, feeling that my life had been changed forever. The love that this little boy had for his mother and his sister is still, to that day, hard to imagine. And in a fraction of a second, a drunk man had taken all this away from him.

Thursday, October 16, 2003

Some Quotes


No MaN Or WoMaN Is WoRth YouR TEaRS,
AnD ThE OnE WHO is,Won'T MaKE yOu CrY.....

JuSt BEcAusE SomEoNE dOEsN't LoVE YoU ThE Way YOu WAnt TheM TO,
DoESn't MeAN TheY thEY DoN't LoVe YoU WitH aLL ThEY HaVE...

A TrUe FrIeNd Is SoMeONE wHo rEAcHes FoR YoUr hANd

THe WorST wAy To MiSs SomEoNE iS tO Be SittINg
RiGhT bESIdE ThEM KnOWinG YoU CaN'T HaVe ThEM...

NeVeR FrOwN,EveN WhEN YoU ArE SAD,BeCaUSe YoU NeVer KnoW
WhO Is FaLLinG In LoVe With YouR sMile

BuT tO oNe PeRsOn YoU MaY bE ThE wORLD .....................................

DoN't WaStE YoUR TiME On A MaN/WoMaN,
WhO Isn't WiLLiNG tO WasTe ThEiR tImE On You...

MaYbE GoD WaNtS Us To MeeT A FeW WrOnG PeOPLe
BeFOrE MeeTiNg tHe RigHt OnE,
So ThaT WheN We FinaLLy MEet ThE PeRson,
We WiLL KnOw HoW To Be GrATefUL..

DoN't CrY BeCAuSE It iS OvER,SmILE BecAUsE It HAppENed.

ThErE's AlWaYS gOInG To bE pEOpLE tHAT hURt yOu
So wHAt yOU HaVe To DO iS KeEp On TRusTiNg

And jUsT Be MOre CarEfUL AboUt WhO YoU tRuSt nExT tIme ArOuNd..

KnOw whO YoU ARe BefORe YoU TrY AnD KnOw SoMeOnE ELSe
ANd ExPecT TheM To KnOw YOu...

DOn'T tRy So HaRd,ThE BesT ThIngS CoME
WhEn YoU LeasT ExPeCt TheM tO......

Wednesday, October 15, 2003

Rules From Men To Women

We always hear "the rules" from the female side. Now here are the rules from the male side. Please note... these are all numbered "1" ON PURPOSE!

Learn to work the toilet seat. You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down. We need it up, you need it down. You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down.

Sunday = sports. It's like the full moon or the changing of the tides. Let it be.

Shopping is NOT a sport. And no, we are never going to think of it that way.

Crying is blackmail.

Ask for what you want. Let us be clear on this one: Subtle hints do not work! Strong hints do not work! Obvious hints do not work! Just say it!

Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.

Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do. Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.

A headache that lasts for 17 months is a problem. See a doctor.

Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument. In fact, all comments become null and void after 7 days.

If you won't dress like the Victoria's Secret girls, don't expect us to act like soap opera guys.

If you think you're fat, you probably are. Don't ask us.

If something we said can be interpreted two ways, and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one.

You can either ask us to do something or tell us how you want it done. Not both. If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.

Whenever possible, please say whatever you have to say during commercials.

Christopher Columbus did not need directions and neither do we.

ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings. Peach, for example, is a fruit, not a color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve is.

If it itches, it will be scratched. We do that.

If we ask what is wrong and you say "nothing," we will act like nothing's wrong. We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle.

If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, expect an answer you don't want to hear.

When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine... Really.

Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as baseball, the shotgun formation, or monster trucks.

You have enough clothes.

You have too many shoes.

Tuesday, October 14, 2003

Tree, Leaf And Wind

[Tree ]

The reason I'm called tree is because I'm good at painting trees. Overtime I started to use a tree on the right hand corner as a trademark for all my watercolor paintings. I have dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U. There's one gal who I love a lot but never dare go after her. She doesn't have a pretty face, doesn't have a good figure, doesn't have outstanding charm. She is just a very ordinary gal. I like her. I really like her. Like her innocent, like her frankness. Like her cuteness, like her intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her is because I felt somebody so ordinary like her is not a good match for me. I'm also afraid that after we are together all the good feelings will vanish. I'm also afraid other's gossips will hurt her. I felt that if she's my gal, she will be mine ultimately & I don't have to give up everything just for her. The last reason, made her accompany me for 3 years. She watch me chase after gals, and I have make her heart cry for 3 years.

She wants to be a good actress and I'm a very demanding director. When I kissed my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smile & say "Go on!" before running off. The next day, her eyes was swollen like a walnut. I purposely didn't want to think about what causes her to cry but laugh at her the whole day. When everybody go back home, she was alone crying in the classroom. She didn't know that I returned from soccer training to get something. I watch her cry for an hour or so.

My 4th girlfriend didn't like her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on her character she's not the type that will start off the quarrel. But I still sided with my girlfriend. I shouted at her and her eyes was filled shocked. I didn't care about her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she still laugh & joke with me like nothing has ever happened. I know that she's very hurt but she didn't know that my heart ache is as bad as hers.

When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her out. After going out for a day, I told her that I have something to tell her. She told me that coincidentally, she has something to tell me too. I told her about my break up and she told me about her getting together. I know whose the guy. He has been going after her for quite a while. A very cute guy full of energy, lively and interesting. His pursuit for her has been the talk of the school. I can't show her my heart ache but could only smile & congratulate her. When I reach home, the heart ache is so strong that I can't stand it. It's like a heavy weighted stone on my chest. I couldn't breathe. Wanted to shout but can't. Tears rolled down & I broke down & cry. How many times have I seen her cry for the man that doesn't acknowledge her presence too.

During graduation, I read a sms in my hp. It was send 10 days ago when I broke down and cry. I haven't read it since then. It says "Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"... ...


During Pre-U days, I like to collect leaves. Why? Because I felt that for a leaf to leave the tree she has been relying on for so long it takes a lot of courage. During the 3 years of Pre-U I was on very close terms with a guy. Not BGR kind but as buddy kind. But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. The sourness in the heart can't be describe by using a lemon. It's like 100 rotten sour lemon. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 mths. When they broke up, I hide my strong sense of happiness. But after a mth, he got together with another gal. I like him & I know he like me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he love me why he doesn't want to make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. Time after time, my heart was hurt. I begin to suspect that this is a one sided love. If he don't like he, why does he treat me so well. It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. Liking a person is very heart wrenching. I can know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can't expect me a gal to ask him right?

Despite that, I still want to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, love him. Hoping that one fine day, he will come & love me. It's like waiting for his phone call every night, wanting him to send me sms. I know that no matter how busy he is, he will make time for me. Because of this, I waited for him. The 3 years were the hardest to go through & I really want to give up. Sometimes, I wonder should I continue waiting. The pain and hurt, the dilemma accompany me for 3 years.

Till the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior begins to go after me. Everyday he pursuit me relentlessly. From outright rejection to a point in time when I felt that I'm willing to let him have a small footing in my heart. He's like a warm & gentle wind, trying to blow a leaf away from the tree. In the end, I realized that I didn't want to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know this wind will bring this badly battered leave far away & better land. Finally I left tree, but the tree only smile & didn't ask me to stay. Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay... ... ...


Because I like a gal called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 mth after I transfer to the new school. I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me playing soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends looking at him. When he talks with gals there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like she likes to look at him. One day, she didn't appear. I felt something amissed. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accept the note. The next day, she appeared & pass me a note and left.

Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away.It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never want to leave tree.

I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me. Within 4 mths, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her.

Although I know she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope. Hoping that she will agree to me my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked "what are you doing? How come you didn't want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I couldn't believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her door bell. During the moment when she opens the door. I hugged her tightly. Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay... ... ...

Its not easy to love someone at first, but after time you accept everything, ever aspect; every imperfection and flaw and you find that even if you could, you wouldn't want to change the person after all. Love does that to a person. Maybe some of us were wrong to believe that love was cruel, toying with our baser emotions and instincts. Maybe we just misunderstood what it truly meant.

If you love someone right now. Tell them you love them, before the wind blows them away like it did to the leaf.

The Leaf departs because of the Wind's unrelenting pursuit; or maybe twas because the Tree didn't ask her to stay...

Monday, October 13, 2003

Guys As Female Buddies

CONTRARY to the popular belief that men cannot have purely platonic relationships with women, today more and more females have found best friends in their male counterparts. Of course, even more women have gay best friends, but hey, that's a different ball game.

We all know that women outnumber men. So why can't women stick to tradition and just giggle with their girlfriends? Let me tell you why:

While most guys are terrible at being good boyfriends, they can actually be great friends. Without the stress of jealousy, commitment, looming anniversaries and other dates that should-never- be-not-even-once forgotten, women and men can have pretty good relationships.

They're not afraid to get their hands dirty. While most women squeal when being splattered with mud, men like rolling in it. They don't worry about ruining their manicure or getting dabbed with spaghetti sauce on their shirt. They're more relaxed, less conscious. That makes them more fun.

They don't spend too much time going on bathroom breaks. They don't constantly complain that they're getting fat.

They think like guys. How else will you be able to dissect the head of that guy you've been drooling for without your male best friend's analysis of the situation? How will you snag Mr. Perfect without his guidance? Your male best friend knows what and how guys think he is one.

They give great advice. While women tend to be more flowery with words, men tell it as it is (unless of course, they are in the middle of courtship or are trying to sweet talk girls into something). They jolt you back to reality.

You feel protected. Now I do not mean that women are weak, weak creatures. I am a feminist myself. But it's nice to know that if someone starts beating you up, your male best friend will be there to help you cream them.

They act like big brothers. They warn you about no-good idiots who are after you. But of course, they're actually all big babies, which brings us to the next reason:

You can mother them. Let's face it. Men - whether they're 16 or 60 - are kids. It's a given fact.

They don't fall in love with guys. How many friendships have been ruined because of pals going after the same guy? Countless. This will never happen between you and your male best friend to each his own.

They're not afraid of calories. For most girls, pigging out is unheard of. Guys live for buffets and enjoy food more. That makes them great companions for eating out.

They don't like boybands. (Most of them, anyway.)

They're sweet.

They don't shriek or scream.

You can be yourself. Forget about crossing your legs and dabbing at your little mouth with a napkin. You can relax and chill and do whatever you want. You can be a guy with them.

They don't get PMS (pre-menstrual syndrome)ever.

They don't talk about getting married at least, not to you.

They're not too clingy.

They won 't get mad when your p hone is busy. Then again, in this day and age when almost everyone has call-waiting, who does?

They share your love for computers and passion for the Internet. You can talk about the NBA and not just about how cute the players are.

They don't easily freak out. They can handle gory and morbid stuff. They don't get terrified.

Their parents are not strict with them. Unlike most girls, they don't have curfews and can do what they want when they want to. That means more time for you to hang out.

But, of course, like everything else in this world, having boy buds also has its downside. Here are a few:

Their girlfriends get jealous of you. Admit it, sometimes, us girls can be pretty unreasonable. Some females would not be 100% comfortable with the idea that you're hanging out with her guy a lot.

They forget you're a girl. They've been calling you "dude" for such a long time that they've forgotten your gender. This is why you'd hear your guy friend say, "Whoa!" when he sees you all dressed and made up. This is why they think it's okay to salivate over other girls and comment on their bodies when you're around. This is the reason they tell disgusting jokes and expect you to laugh with them. Don't expect them to open doors for you and yes, don't expect them to carry your things. And unless you start wearing skirts to show off your legs, it will probably take a bump on their heads to remember you're a girl.

They can be pretty obnoxious. They can rattle off endless curse words for minutes. They can tell sexist jokes and can be pretty sarcastic at times. But once you sharp en your tongue and prepare your own vocabulary of insults, you may just beat them at their own game.

Sometimes, they can take you for granted. You've been with them so long that they expect you to hang around forever. If they blow off your plans because they suddenly got a date with some hot chick, they expect you to grin and bear it. If they ask you to befriend this girl they've got the hots for so they can get on her good side, they expect you to do it for them even if you hate her guts. Let's face it. Most men really need a dose of sensitivity.

You may end up as a girlfriend substitute. This happens a lot especially with males who are afraid of commitment. You end up going to his prom or to his all-important office function as his date. He introduces you to his parents just to stop them from asking about his almost non-existent dating status. He finds security in your friendship and seeks comfort in your companionship. You become his ultimate excuse for not going out with other women.

You have to endure their burping contests. And when you tell them to say, "Excuse me," you get chided for being too prude.

They may scare away boys that you like. Having other boys around you all the time may cause a hottie to think twice about asking you out especially if he's the type that scares easily. One, he may think that any of the guys are more than just a friend. Two, even if they are just your friends, he probably knows that if he screws up and hurts you, he's going to be in trouble. Then again, why should this bother you? If the potential boyfriend cannot even stand up and face your friends, how can you expect him to be strong when it is needed?

Your boyfriend can get jealous of them. In the same way that their girls do not appreciate your presence, your guy might not like the idea of you hanging out with your close male buds. The male ego is a very, very sensitive thing. More so if the owner dotes on it. As bad as this sounds, sometimes, it boils down to a difficult choice your boyfriend or your boy-friends?

They can dump you when their girlfriends get too jealous. Since you are expected to always be the perfect and understanding friend, they don't think you're going to mind if they stop hanging out with you. "She doesn't understand why we have to go out and watch movies when I can do it with her." But you've got to understand the guy. He's probably pretty sick of hearing her whine, "Why is she texting you again? Doesn't she have any other friends?" and "What! You're going out again? But you just went out with her last week!" And just in case that particular relationships ends, they expect to be able to pick up from where they left and resume the friendship like nothing happened. Yes, friends make sacrifices. Even hard ones.

They can fall in love with you. If I'd get a money for every single time this has happened in history, I can probably buy that Ford 150 now. Unless you feel the same way about your guy friend and you want the friendship to become more than just that, the situation may not be pretty. Either you forget about it and laugh about it when you get older or your friendship goes ka-put. Definitely not a good way to end things.

You might end up falling in love with them.

Friday, October 10, 2003

Calling All Math Genius...

A mother is 21 years older than the child. 6 years from now the mother will be 5 times as old as the child.
Question : Where's the father?

Try first, before you check the answer below.

Solution :
The mother is 21 years older than the child.
M = C + 21

In 6 years from now the mum will be 5 times as old as the child.
M + 6 = (C + 6) x 5

C + 21 + 6 = (C + 6) x 5
C + 27 = 5C + 30
-3 = 4C
C = -3/4

The child is -3/4 years old, that is, it'll be born in 9 months.

by mathematical induction....
Right now, the father is on top of the mother...

Thursday, October 09, 2003

The Little Green Man

There once was a little green man living in a little green house on the top of a little green hill. One day the little green man wanted to take a bath so he went and took his little green bottle of shampoo and his little green bar of soap and also his little green towel and into his little green bathroom he went. As he took off his little green shirt and his little green pair of shorts, he stepped under his little green tap and started to bathe. Just then a saleswoman came to the front of the little green man's house and rang on his little green bell.
"Ting Dong". The little green man heard his little green bell and he thought that his pizza had arrived so he hastily took his little green towel, wrapped it around his little green waist and rushed to the door. As he opened his little green door, his little green towel came undone, and dropped unto his little green doormat, exposing his little green, uh...thing.The saleswoman gave a shriek and rushed out of the little green house.
In all her haste and all her horror, she did not see the truck coming at 120 mph which struck her, killing her on the spot.

Question: what is the moral of the story?


(Another safety message from the traffic police)

Monday, October 06, 2003


There were once 2 brothers who lived on the 80th level. On coming home one day, they realized to their dismay that the lifts were not working and that they had to climb the stairs home.

After struggling to the 20th level, panting and tired, they decided to abandon their bags and come back for them. They left their bags there and climbed on. When they struggled to the 40th level, the younger brother started to grumble and both of them began to quarrel. They continued to climb the flights of steps, quarrelling all the way to the 60th floor.

They then realized that they had only 20 levels more to climb and decided to stop quarrelling and continue climbing in peace. They silently climbed on and reached their home at long last. Each stood calmly before the door and waited for the other to open the door. And they realized that the key was in their bags which were left on the 20th floor ......

[not meant to be a joke! at all...if you find yourself laughing at it, it's about time u start thinking about what you want in life.]

This story is a reflection on our lives... many of us live for the expectations of our parents, teachers and friends when we were young.

We seldom get to do the things that we really like or love. It is under so much pressure and stress that by our early 20s, we get tired and decide to dump this load.... and enjoy life. Being free of the stress and pressure, we work enthusiastically and dream ambitious dreams.

But by the time we reach our 40s, we start to lose our vision and along with that, our dreams and goal in life. We began to feel unsatisfied and start to complain and criticize. We live life in misery as we are never satisfied.

Reaching 60, we realize that we have little time left for complaining and we began to walk the final episode in peace and calmness. We think that there is nothing left that could disappoint us, only to realize that we cannot rest in peace because we have an unfulfilled dream.....a dream we abandoned about 60 plus years ago......

So what is your dream? ......Keep them alive....Follow your dreams so that you will not live with regrets ......and you will have stories to share with your loved ones.

Sunday, October 05, 2003

Phil's Test -

Dr. Phil gave this test on Oprah she got a 38. Some folks pay a lot of money to find this stuff out. Read on, this is very interesting! Don't be overly sensitive! The following is pretty accurate. And it only takes 2 minutes. Answers are for who you're now......! not who you were in the past.

Have a pen or pencil and paper ready. This is a real test given by the Human Relations Dept. at many of the major corporations today. It helps them get better insight concerning their employees and prospective employees. It's only 10 simple questions, so...... grab a pencil and paper, keeping track of your letter answers. Ready?? Begin...

1. When do you feel your best?

a) in the morning
b) during the afternoon & and early evening
c) late at night

2. You usually walk...

a) fairly fast, with long steps
b) fairly fast, with little steps
c) less fast head up, looking the world in the face
d) less fast, head down
e) very slowly

3. When talking to people you...

a) stand with your arms folded
b) have your hands clasped
c) have one or both your hands on your hips
d) touch or push the person to whom you are talking
e) play with your ear, touch your chin, or smooth your hair

4. When relaxing, you sit with...

a) your knees bent with your legs neatly side by side
b) your legs crossed
c) your legs stretched out or straight
d) one leg curled under you

5. When something really amuses you, you react with...

a) a big, appreciative laugh
b) a laugh, but not a loud one
c) a quiet chuckle
d) a sheepish smile

6. When you go to a party or social gathering you...

a) make a loud entrance so everyone notices you
b) make a quiet entrance, looking around for someone you know
c) make the quietest entrance, trying to stay unnoticed

7. You're working very hard, concentrating hard, and you're interrupted, do you...

a) welcome the break
b) feel extremely irritated
c) vary between these two extremes

8. Which of the following colours do you like most?

a) Red or orange
b) black
c) yellow or light blue
d) green
e) dark blue or purple
f) white
g) brown or gray

9. When you are in bed at night, in those last few moments before going to sleep, you lie...

a) stretched out on your back
b)stretched out face down on your stomach
c) on your side, slightly curled
d) with your head on one arm
e) with your head under the covers

10. You often dream that you are...

a) falling
b) fighting or struggling
c) searching for something or somebody
d) flying or floating
e) you usually have dreamless sleep
f) your dreams are always pleasant


1. (a) 2 (b) 4 (c) 6

2. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 7 (d) 2 (e) 1

3. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 5 (d) 7 (e) 6

4. (a) 4 (b) 6 (c) 2 (d) 1

5. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 2

6. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 2

7. (a) 6 (b) 2 (c) 4

8. (a) 6 (b) 7 (c) 5 (d) 4 (e) 3 (f) 2 (g) 1

9. (a) 7 (b) 6 (c) 4 (d) 2 (e) 1

10. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 6 (f) 1

Now add up the total number of points.

OVER 60 POINTS: Others see you as someone they should "handle with care". You're seen as vain, self-centered, and who is extremely dominant. Others may admire you, wishing they could be more like you, but don't always trust you, hesitating to become too deeply involved with you.

51 TO 60 POINTS: Others see you as an exciting, highly volatile, rather impulsive personality; a natural leader, who's quick to make decisions, though not always the right ones. They see you as bold and adventuresome, someone who will try anything once; someone who takes chances and enjoys an adventure. They enjoy being in your company because of the excitement you radiate.

41 TO 50 POINTS: Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced! not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.

31 TO 40 POINTS: Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful & practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest. Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust in your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over it if that trust is ever broken.

21 TO 30 POINTS: Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It would really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment, expecting you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then, usually decide against it. They think this reaction is caused partly by your careful nature.

UNDER 21 POINTS: People think you are shy, nervous, and indecisive, someone who needs looking after, who always wants someone else to make the decisions & who doesn't want to get involved with anyone or anything. They see you as a worrier who always sees problems that don't exist. Some people think you're boring. Only those who know you well know that you aren't.