Resting place

30 May 

You know how the government desperately wants you to have kids when they give you lots of stuff to celebrate the birth of your babies. we received 2 boxes full of things needed for baby life - a mommy bag, baby swaddlers, thermometers, napkins, clothes, pillows etc. they were very cutely designed and i really appreciate the thoughtfulness of the local province. of course, one box was for Linzy and the other for Minzy. they were nice enough to give 2 boxes of different things for us. i really hope i get to use them when Minzy is discharged.

also, we decided to split the flowers from charis into different pots, since we didn't have one that was big enough for the whole basket. we placed 1 in the kitchen, 1 in the living room and 2 along our 2nd floor corridor.

i really don't know how to keep plants and i hope they can last longer in their new pots. but it seems that some stalks were already withering. nampyeon kept saying that florists must be people who don't like flowers... because if they do, why would they pluck the flowers from their environment and shorten their life?

i guess it's because they didn't know that most of the people who receive flowers don't really know how to care for them... if not the flowers wouldn't have such a short life... well, at least there was a point in their life where they were most beautiful and most valuable, and they brought happiness to someone.


while organizing my things i came across the first ultrasound scan i had that had just 2 embryos. at first i kept thinking that Kinzy and Linzy were my original embryos and Minzy was the 3rd child brought about by Linzy. however i realised that it was not so. Linzy was actually the 3rd child brought about by Minzy, in fact. She was the weakest of the 3 with the lightest weight, and she had a hole in her heart. I remembered because the doctor looked in detail for a long long time at her hollow heart, on my right stomach. however, towards the last 2 months of pregnancy, she suddenly grew bigger than everyone else. i was told the baby on the right side was bigger as well. that was when the doctor suspected TTTS, since she was always about 30g heavier than Minzy. however, that 30g actually doesn't mean anything. it was just normal for twins to have different weight, as long as they are not too far off, and the weights are monitored closely for any disparity.

When Linzy was born, she was at 450g and Minzy at 430g. Minzy is actually our 2nd embryo. it was unfornate that the sister she brought out didn't survive with her. she must have wanted a sibling so much. the twins must have grieved when Kinzy passed on. they must have been distressed in my womb, when their dead sibling was just a membrane away.

knowing that the 2 embryos weren't the ones who went to heaven... i decided to change my picture so all of us could be together, forever, at least in this tiny space in our house.

this was the only photo i have where the triplets were captured together. i remembered how elated i was when i saw them all together. i had received a bunch of  20 other photos together with this, were each baby were scanned and printed for me everytime i went for ultrasound. this was the picture i wanted to post to announce my joy.

it's ok. mommy and daddy will always have the three of you pictured together, in our hearts.

Another bad news

4 May 

Finally got to do a proper ultrasound for once. The doctors checked the length and weight of growth of each baby and then told me that i seem to have a lot of waters (yang shui) in me, that might have been causing the incessant contractions. They suggested to remove it via a needle, but it would be done next week after some monitoring. I was sent back to my ward, but the nurses suddenly told me that the doc wanted to see nampyeon separately.

Unfortunately nampyeon was out on an errand but he would try to get back before 5pm to see the doc. Since it was a PH tomorrow, the doc highly insisted nampyeon to see her today.

As they say... it isn't always a good thing if your doc wants to see your guardian separately. And true enough, when nampyeon came back he told me that our twins were experiencing TTTS and we will need to move hospital the next day. There was only 2 doctors in Seoul who could treat it and we should do it fast.

Getting warded... immediately.

20 weeks.

We called Yongin Severance but no one picked up since it was a PH and we eventually decided to just get warded at Bundang Yeoseong instead, since they picked up the call almost immediately. 2hours later i was at the hopital and after the fetal movement checks, the doctor advised for me to be hospitalised immediately. I had packed my stuff and was ready to receive medical attention. The good thing was nampyeon could stay with me and i didn't need any corona test. The hospital obviously cared more about the emotional well-being of moms more than tertiary institutions. I was also surprised their food improved so much (due to a change in caterer). Every meal seem so well-designed and tasted heavenly! It looked normal but the taste was unlike other dishes that had the same outlook.

duck meat!

For the whole week i was dripped on Lavobar and had the levels adjusted whenever i felt more pains or when the intervals got shortened. I had nampyeon by my side who helped me to the toilet since i was trembling terribly from the drip's side effects. He entertained me and installed Stardew valley so we could continue gaming since there was nothing i could do while bed ridden. However i couldn't game for very long - my babies must have hated it because my contractions came on whenever i was on my phone, and i could barely play an hr or so.

In our 5person-ward, there was only another lady with us. She had twins like me and early contractions. I noticed she was sniffling occasionally.. and i realised she might have lost her child in her triplet set like me. She had someone accompanying her who would console her to not cry and be brave and i heard it all. It was actually minimally consoling to know i was not the only one going through such a mess. I could identify with her sniffles, because I, too, made the same sounds just every once and then.

After almost a week there i was scheduled to have an ultrasound to check the baby's condition. I was hit with a new bout of bad news. One of our twins had a hole in her heart and this hospital wasn't equipped to handle it. Additionally they were not able to purge my contractions at their current medical level. The doctor urged us to transfer to a tertiary hospital with the correct specialists early next day.

an unexpected passing

I was looking forward to my detailed Ultrasound because i would be able to see my babies' genders. The doctor's expression wasn't so good when he started to spoke though.

'첫째 아기가 잘 못 된것 닽아요 - My eldest baby seems to have gone wrong.' Till now, I can never forget what he said. 'It doesn't have a heartbeat.' At first i thought ok something may have gone wrong but they could fix it couldn't they? But he told me 'The baby is dead. We don't know why, it may have been born with a weak stature from the beginning.'

How can this be? My eldest was the most healthiest, biggest, with the strongest heartbeat. How could it have been weak? I didn't understand. They could not diagnose further. The doctor said the only thing they can check now is if the remains of it will affect the other 2 through a blood test, and if i was having contractions again. However since it was in a separate sac, it was unlikely to affect.

I started to cry as the sentence sank in. One of my babies died. The doctor said I should be hospitalised to monitor but due to the current situation i would need to be hospitalized alone for at least 1 week with no visitors. I refused. I couldn't go in a room alone straightaway by myself for a week without any emotional support. I was a wreck. I cried when i went to the toilet. I cried when nampyeon was settling the bills and i cried when they were drawing my blood for testing.

There were so many regrets that passed through me. Perhaps i should have listened to my FIL and get hospitalized from the start. Perhaps i sat for too long and the the baby was being crushed beneath. Was it too pressured by the twins above? Perhaps i should have requested for a detailed ultrasound all the same on the next day when I last came here for a scan. But all these perhaps... were too late. That night while i slept in between tears i looked out for signs of contractions and i felt a slight squeeze occasionally. I decided i would get warded the next day just in case, even if I needed to be isolated.

Wk 20.. the start of the downturn

This was when my whole nightmare started. I had diarrhea the day before because i left my carrot cake out from the morning and didn't keep it in the fridge. I ate it at night for dinner and it tasted slightly weird. This was probably the worst decision I've ever made... and I'm not sure if this was the trigger factor but I'm sure it had something to do with what follows after.

Feeling uneasy, i called for a checkup just the next day. Our main doctor wasn't there and the lady who took over just did a quick scan of each baby's heartbeat, as well as my cervix length. They put me in the contractions room to monitor my tummy movements and said that i seem to be having slight contractions (eventho i couldn't feel anything abnormal). I was placed on IV drip for about an hour with a device in my hand to press should i feel anything weird. I didn't, and ended up not pressing anything. The only thing i felt was my throat drying up when they linked the drips and i kept coughing.

At the end i was told that i could leave but i would need to do a Corona test - it involves sticking a stick about 70% the length of a pocky down my nose to retrieve the mucus at the back, and a cotton swab of whatever it is at the back of my mouth. I was told to stay home till they called me for the results. Of course i was negative for Corona.

I was supposed to have a detailed ultrasound of my babies on the 7th but it was postponed a week later since the rough ultrasound indicated normality. During this week i carried on activities per normal - working on Photoshop, playing games, taking noon naps and staying up late (till 4am). Looking back, late nights and long hours of sitting may even have been contributing factors.

There was nothing out of the normal.

Getting bigger... 15 weeks

I've been so lethargic lately that i can't bring myself to do anything except to eat, sleep and shit. in fact, that's what the doctor has advised me to do - no exercise, no working, just rest a lot. seems like a bunch of solid advice.

i've changed to a new and bigger hospital called Yongin Severance, which is much nearer to my house (15mins) compared to the previous (45mins), but that's not really the reason for changing. In terms of cost, the prev place was cheaper and the services offered were much better too. It was also focused on women and pregnant people. But this new hospital was a multi-purpose hospital built for everything and wasn't as niche as the previous. The main reason was because my prev doc said I had to move cos there won't be enough incubators should my babies come early T_T

The weird thing was the doc at the new hospital also said that since it's a newly-opened (since March 2020 lolol) hospital, incubators were not ready yet! And he advised me to not deliver before July if possible. But uh, how do i control this? The expected, healthy delivery date is actually September and i wouldn't like to deliver 2 months in advance as well... =_=

But anyway... some 'work-in-progress'....

I'm 15+ weeks into pregnancy and look at my growth. I don't know why but in the span of that 3 days between Mar 11 and Mar 14 my tummy just sorta ballooned. My babies are growing rather healthily at about 10cm each now.

I'm actually a little worried because when I search for how triplet tummies look like... I am shown things like this:

I take this ref because she looks like she's about the same size as me. doesn't it look like she has aliens breeding inside?! uhhh i'm not sure how i can even move around once i get to that size!! x_x from her insta it's about a 20kg lump.... O_O~~~

On to the brighter side... my scanning time is definitely getting longer and longer (more than 30mins at least). but on the bright note i get a lot of pictures. like about 15-20pieces per scan hahahaha. i think the brown pieces look like 4D scan as my sis said. this was done at my prev hospital and they were very meticulous and clear with all the printing.

The 3 babies altogether. I don't know how #R (rightside) sleeps because it's totally flipped and the nurse kept shaking my tummy so that it will turn for us to look XD The bottom #S (solo) looks like a penguin in the photo lolol. This is probably my last 4D and video ultrasound because those services are not offered in the new hospital T_T

Following that i had my new ultrasound in the new hospital. The process is similar but I am horrified to know that I would need to get that stick stuck in my vagina again to test the size of my cervix. I thought I was all over that sticking in thing T_T hated it so much!!! For some reason the nurses only printed 3 photos of my #L (leftside)... unfair. In the 2nd photo you can see its alien expression hahaha.

here i took the scans that shows all their faces. #S looks like it is waving hehe.

Previously #R was facing the complete opposite but this time we had a good view. It was stretching the legs and waving its hands. So cute see that little palm!!! All of them were pretty active during the scan actually. #S was rubbing the face, #R was bouncing and #L kept waving the hands. I am amazed each time I do my ultrasound. It's a great pity I am unable to have the video footage!!! All that precious movements!!! TwT

As for myself, I'm still experiencing nausea, headache and my belly feels taut. I keep needing to bend forward as if my skin has not been stretched enough to cover the larger bump, and sleeping with my legs propped or with my back lifted up is much more comfortable to reduce nausea and the tight feeling. I've been having acne outbreaks on my face, my back, the back of my neck, my upper chest area, and hairs growing all over my tummy. I look horrifying now. But I am comforted when nampyeon still hugs and kisses my forehead and cheeks as if I don't have all of those (god forbids his sighting of my acne). hehe. he helps me to put aloe vera on my back and on places i can't reach too. =lovelove= nampyeon support is really important since i don't have all my family and friends with me now. i just hope he would stay home longer because his presence is a kind of moral support eventhough we can't do a lot of things right now.

There's still 5.5 more months to go and I hope I can pull through this and get them all out safe and sound! In this period where COVID-19 is rampant... I wish the lucky god will protect my kids and let them see a peaceful world when they're out (",)

Not twins... but triplets..?

I'm getting up for my regular check up after about 10days past my confirmed pregnancy.
Just hoping nothing's up! i get to hear the little ones' heartbeats today~

I'm kinda losing a lot of weight and going back to 44kg again. but i still have a little bump.

i'm peeing normally and i just realised that that choking feeling in my throat is actually morning sickness. eventhough i don't actually vomit out... but yes, it's still the same thing. i do vomit out lots of air though - if burping can be called that way. i'm probably burping like once every 10mins. i still don't have much of an appetite but it has improved greatly... from one spoonful of rice to about 5 spoonfuls..? i'm trying to eat more.. but the morning sickness is really not helping. -_- thank goodness the nurse says that i do not necessary need to start driving my weight up. just eating healthily and whenever i want to, as per my normal lifestyle, is fine. phew... i thought i'd have to eat a few more servings for the little humans in me.

so.... i have a big shock today. but it's quite a lovely surprise.

you know it is a little hard to determine if my scans are normal when it looks like brocolli has sprouted in those black circles. is that even normal? i'm frightened further when the doc gives a shocked diagnosis and says 'oh nooooo.... oh god...' i thought my eggs were having issues...

but apparently.. it wasn't what i thought. it turns out that one of my eggs split into 2. which means i will be having triplets! can you see the 3 different heartbeats? the last little lad (mid heartbeat pic) has a weaker heartbeat as compared to the rest but it's still audible. now, how did this very very low 1% or something happened to me..??

well, at first the doc was shocked and worried because she thinks that my little body would have trouble handling 2... and 3 would be too much. she told me that it could be removed via a loooong needle stuck up my vagina (with no anaesthesia) within this week. the idea of having a needle stuck up is bad enough, but i really didn't want to do anything bad to my babies. also, the likelihood that the other babies would be affected should i choose to do this is there.

i didn't really have to think much for this. i just asked if there is any possibility of me dying in the whole process or any of my babies dying, should i keep all 3. there was no such risk, so the deal is done. of course, the whole process wouldn't be all sunshine and flowers - i can expect to be bedridden from the 5th month onwards, since my body would be so heavy i probably wouldn't be able to move. it would probably be a lot worse than when my body was bloated. the babies are likely to come out premature, and would have to be hospitalised for at least 2 mths, during which whether they would survive or not totally depends on their determination.

it was definitely worth a challenge... i guess? i'd just have to keep myself safe and strong for a good 8mths more! i mean it's not like anyone can have triplets. i must have been sent this challenge because heaven wants to make a wager on whether my little physique can endure this.

i told my mom later on, for the first time, that i am pregnant. i am only about 7 weeks but if my nampyeon is telling my FIL and MIL... then my mom deserves to know. it turns out that while i thought both our family histories didn't have any twins, my mom said otherwise. apparently my mom's uncles and aunties had twins, and she thought this gene would be passed to my bro. well, guess what mommy.....

i must have been too overjoyed for words because my blood test decided to tell me my sugar level was high (so i have to retake it) and my morning sickness decided to pour cold water on me, by making me vomit that night. it was slightly terrifying because there were hints of blood in my initial vomit. ughhhhh do you have to spoil my mood that way... thankfully, i googled and it seemed like something pretty normal. i guess for me it is mainly because i wasn't drinking enough water and eating enough, so my body decided to scare me. yessir... i get it....

on the bright side, my babies need natal names...~~~

Follow up Ultrasound

Getting out of the hospital wasn't really the last step. There's of cos more checks and visit to the docs to come, to ensure that in the first trimester my babies are developing properly.

In any case, here's my good news! Both the embryos implanted safely in my tummy.

the good thing is i get a printout of all the ultrasounds i go to as well as the video! the videos are downloadable through an app called SayBebe, and after you register the barcodes given by the hospital. they gave me a diary to log my baby status as well as a book on pregnancy caring. but it was in full korean so i only looked at the pictures...

after about a week, i am still quite bloated although my weight dropped to about 48kg. my tummy has this very weird bumpy shape though. not sure if it's normal or due to my oversized ovaries...

1) Rewards for a confirmed Pregnancy~

since i was confirmed to be pregnant with twins, i was given an official certification and the reward to apply for a Hengbokh card. If you have 1 baby, you get about 600k but with more than 1 baby you get 1000k (why doesn't the math add up?!) Not complaining since i get free money, although it can only be used for hospital fees and fees related to my babies. i went down to Woori bank to make an application and it came about 3-4days later. wheee~

2) Body Dryer (really not needed)

in the meantime... we bought some stuff to prepare my later days... nampyeon has been eyeing this for some time and he finally has an excuse to get - a body dryer! although i have much doubts about this machine... i was not able to stop him...

it's supposed to be able to measure your weight and your fat amount (thru a phone app) while you're on it. basically, it's a machine for lazy people who do not want to dry themselves with a towel after bathing. and nampyeon insists that when my tummy gets bigger i'll need this cos i won't be able to bend an dry my legs. but for now... you actually have to stand there for a good few minutes so the wind can evaporate those water off your body.. and the so-called warm wind, is not warm at all... 0/10 for this product. 300bucks fly away just like that....

3) Body Pillow

the next thing is a body pillow recommended by my sis, because she says that in the later trimester i would have to sleep sideways to prevent the bump from pressing on my organs. since this pillow looks really comfy... i got my husband to do a search for the better ones before he went to purchase.

we bought this for about 95k..?? it's actually pretty expensive for a pillow and the cover requires an extra 30k T_T i actually don't think it has any special abilities for now except for the queer shape. tried sleeping with it on the first day but the neck portion was too high and i got a neckache. so... i kinda flipped it around and now the neck portion is to prop my legs. but i realised that if i stack my pillow vertically over the neck portion i can sleep in a slightly raised position. these days my morning sickness is terrible and i feel like vomiting if i sleep in too straight a position. so this thing actually helped! 8/10 for now? it's supposed to help more when my bump gets bigger!

4) Clarins Pregnancy Care Set

my last purchase is a clarins pregnancy care set recommended by my sis to prevent stretch marks. i actually already have stretch marks on my thighs, so the likelihood of getting it on my stomach is probably 100%. the best promo is back in singapore! they give all kinds of freebies and if you get it at metro there's an additional 20% off (sometimes), from the UP 185SGD. since i need to start using it from about the 2nd month onwards and no one is visiting this period... i got it off lotte shopping mall for about 115k. it came with quite some freebies as well. not too bad! i've alr started using 80% of them. heheh. i'm not really sure on the effects yet but since my sis says it's good it must be!

Going for IVF

The IVF process.

By nature I guess we are both not a very active couple and everytime we want to have it, we sort of miss the timing completely or are too lazy in the end. With a low sperm count on my husband's side, we decided that the only way for me to have a kid by next year is to just go for IVF.

As I'm writing this I actually can't remember the first few visits I went but I did keep almost all of my receipts so I guess I can sort of remember what went on.

First visit 22 Mar

We decided to take our friend's recommendation to attend this hopsital. However I came at a very bad time when my period just ended, so the doctor was not able to check anything. We registered some basic information and took a survey on our health and sex life. The doctor gave some advice on vitamins to take, and when we should do the deed and we were advised to come back again. Nampyeon went on to order some vitamins that his friend recommended called Fathermin and Implamin (no need to guess who takes what).

Expenditure: 7,200 KRW

First ultrasound / pap smear and blood test 27 Mar

I was able to do an ultrasound & pap smear test while my husband took a blood test. I'm not sure why he didn't do a sperm test that day because we ended up coming back for that anyway. Probably because we did it previously at Davos hospital and the doctor said there wasn't any issues.

Expenditure: 118,960 KRW

Test analysis and Sperm test 5 Apr

Ended up having to do the sperm test. Nampyeon understood the doctor wrongly and thought that I wouldn't need to do the HSG test (test to see if fallopian tubes were blocked) if he was the main problem. But i told him that i needed to do that test no matter his outcome. And sure enough, the doc told us that I needed to do HSG....T_T

Expenditure: 38,200 KRW

Test analysis and Sperm test 6 Sep

Needed to go back to listen to the analysis of the sperm test. whilst Davos said that his semen was normal, this hospital gave quite an in depth analysis of the count and motility etc. there's also an indication of the acceptable levels for each section so if you're within the levels you're good.

Expenditure: 6,500 KRW

HSG test 18 Sep

Yup, there was a huuuuuge interval between Apr and Sep. On one hand I can only book once my period started so they can estimate when it's finished, and I will need to do the test on the 10th day from when my period starts. On the other hand, the hospitals are always booked fully!!! Nampyeon called when my period started, and there wasn't any dates. We ended up booking the dates for when my next period was estimated to start at, and thankfully my period started pretty on time and we made it to the test just on my 10th day. Additionally I was actually touring Europe in between so I didn't have time for doctor visits XDDD

BTW my husband told me that this is a SUPER DUPER painful test. When they insert the dye in and your fallopian tubes are blocked you're supposed to feel about 3000x your normal period pain. and so the doctor suggested for me to eat painkillers 15mins before. But when i asked my sis if she took the test, she said she didn't have any pain at all.... i really wonder where my husband is really all the articles from. he made me dread this test so so so much.

And surprisingly i didn't have any pain. i guess i have healthy fallopian tubes. duh. the doctor warned that it will be painful when she inserted the ink but there was no feeling at all so i was surprised when the whole thing was done. one of his friend said that she felt such pain she sat in the changing room staring into space and almost fainting until someone called out to her to check if she was still alive.

Expenditure: 35,500 (HSG check), 3,000 (painkillers) KRW

HSG Analysis 21 Sep

Yep, so no problems with my tubes. Not much for an analysis but we just have to decide what we want to proceed with next - IUI or IVF. we decided to just go with IVF since the sperm count wasn't high and they are basically wiped out before they reach the egg. IVF would at least help to filter out the better sperms and ensure the egg is fertilised.

Expenditure: 28,870 KRW

Start of IVF 29 Nov

Again, there was the time lapse because i thought i had to come when my period is over, but i actually should have went on my 2nd day of period. my next period happened in Singapore, so i couldn't go and i could only go on my 3rd cycle since my HSG analysis. Apparently i thought i would have the process right there and then but it seems that i have to prep my body for it. so i was given Gonal injections and some antibiotics (or antigens?) - it seems to be some medicine to not let my body reject the process that comes afterwards. i'm not very sure because EVERYTHING was explained in Korean and the korean that came with me don't even know what's happening x_x we were advised to take the antigens injections and of course buy some vitamins. i needed to take multivitamins while nampyeon needed some fertility vitamins.

Expenditure: 102,700 (injections), 7,720 (antibiotics), 79,640 (all the vitamins) KRW

Routine check 3 Dec

As we are fast approaching the maturity of my eggs, the doctor advised to come back on the 4th day of injection so that she can check the state. my eggs are growing well (of course) but i had to continue my injections (dammit, why doesn't the guy get some injections too). to top it off i have to have TWO injections everyday - Gonal and Cetrotide. Cetrotide is used for follicle stimulation when the eggs approach maturity. i'm not sure what that means but uh just follow what the doctor ask. the injections look really complicated though. i almost fainted when i saw the big needle but it was for mixing purpose. thank goodness. i also have to thank my stomach for having enough fats so i wouldn't feel so much pain when self-injecting. also cursing at why i have to inject all this shit when my guy is the issue *$^&#!(*!&$#; being a woman is SO SHITTY. i only have my mom to thank that i'm so healthy because i kinda avoided half the pains in the process thanks to my wonderful body. only praying it wouldn't crumble with all these process going on.......

Expenditure: 102,600 (injections) KRW


Routine check 7 Dec

Another check and more injections. Thankfully these will be the last batch. and i have to take a blood test to make sure that my hormone levels (i think) are ok to proceed. they said that if the levels weren't right i would have to redo the whole process (from my next period cycle... and restart all the injections...). so i only have to wait for a call to see if that happens after they are done with my blood test. for now i just have to do 2 injections on the day at very specific times and another 3 more the next day, and specific times again. i have to inject that complicated Cetrotide and the last 2 injections are suppose to prepare me for the final extraction and needs to be taken exactly 36hours before. forgot to take a pic of it cos i was too excited to throw it away but it looks something like this:

after that all my injections are over! here's a summary of all the shots i took.

Expenditure: 93,700 KRW

Extraction 10 Dec

D-day 1. This is probably the most feared process out of everything, because i would have to get completely anaesthesized while they stick a looooong needle up by vagina to reach the ovaries, then extract the eggs from there. i was advised to fast from 12am onwards the day before since this is akin to a minor surgery. first i had painkillers IV dripped in me, then i was moved to the surgical room where both my arms were strapped (like a mad man) and my legs on the holder. then the anaesthesia was IV dripped in me. i don't know how long it take but the last words i heard was 'now we're going to put anaesthesia in you...' and then i was completely knocked out. wooooah. my first time getting completely numbed. it wasn't too bad. i woke up like 2hrs late in the recovery room, having no recollection or whatsoever of what happened in the past 2 hours. the nurse took my blood pressure but it was between 60-90, which was too low so she asked me to remain resting. but the pressure didn't change after 30mins so she just let me go XD i've probably had low blood pressure all my life and i didn't know it. but i was feeling completely fine with no acute pain or whatsoever, as if nothing happened. there was only a slight stitch to the sides of my stomach but it was the same feeling as if you have eaten and ran afterwards.

the medicine i had to take was some antibiotics and this vagina detergent. i have push this pill up my vagina every 8 hours to wash the insides. ughhh. and yeah i have to wake up to do it even if i'm sleepy...... and because the pill might slid out, i was advised to lie down for at least 30mins each time i put the pill in x_x which means... i can't go out in the middle of the day anymore. ughhh i think... this is worse than having the self-injections...................................... T_T and i have to do this for 2 weeks...................... ughhhhhh

oh in the meantime, my lucky husband only had to have his sperm specimen taken out through a rather enjoyable process. puis.

Expenditure: 295,100 (egg extraction) + 30,300 (sperm extraction) KRW

Embryo Transfer 13 Dec

i was actually feeling rather ok except for the occasional stitch happening. the common effects after the extraction was pain, flatulence, dizziness and feeling like you wanna puke so i was pretty glad i wasn't getting any of the symptoms. but from the 2nd day onward i started to become rather bloated. i couldn't exert a lot of strength or walk too fast because the 'stitch' would then happen. i couldn't straighten my back cos it caused the stitch again. it was not a very painful stitch but it was still rather uncomfortable. i walked slowly and did everything slowly, so the stitch was still bearable. but the bloatedness wasn't. the doctor advised to drink lots of ion water to get rid of the gas inside and i regretted not doing that since day 1 T_T only started drinking from day 3 (which was the day before the transfer), which didn't help much. i would eat really little and feel really full and i would feel so hungry and full at the same time T_T it was so irritating. but anyway the transfer is really quick - it is similar to pap smear in a way. the really uncomfortable moment was you have to have a belly full of urine to do this process so that it doesn't hurt so much. we were told not to pee about 2 hrs before. during the process, the would press really hard on your bladder cos that's the only way they can see the insides clearly. i was bloated and full of pee and it was hurting but there was no way out - i only have to tolerate that for less than 5 mins. they inserted a loooong tube in me - i couldn't see what it was but i really hate things going up my vagina. after that they announced the transfer and the embryo slid in in just 5secs. i could see in the screen a tiny sparkle which was the embryo and the doctor announced that i'm half-pregnant.

i was moved to the recovery room to lie down for about 1 hr lest the egg drop out. the nurses told me i needed to have some vitamins drip and i was like - wait, no, more needles??? i didn't hear that before! but thankfully they were the ones who got mixed up so i didn't need to have anything injected into me. phewwww. so after staring at the ceiling for 1hr i was finally able to go home. it's unfortunate that AGF was the next day and i couldn't go since i need to rest... oh well....

Expenditure: 420,300 KRW