i thought fullmetal alchemist deserved to be the #1 rated anime, and was doubtful of samurai champloo when it took #1 position instead, but i was wrong. samurai champloo is truly an extraodinary anime. i've never seen anything like it (of cos that was what i thought when i watched fma too) - from its sequence change, break scenes (one of a kind and different for every episodes!), storyline, drawings, music (very hip-hop and indie-chic) and character personalities, it is all truly unique and captivating. eventhough each episode tells of a different story, the characters' personalities and histories are told and built upon them indirectly nontheless. and the stories are all incredibly thoughtful, whilst being supremely hilarious at the same time (i love the rhino-bug pulling the stone and the funny music-making rappy guy!), with an ending that is so unpredictable. this is one anime i wish could go on forever, hence i wanted to take my time watching it instead of finishing everything in one blow (of cos i have to set time apart for studying as well ;p). i'm on episode 12 now... hope a second series can come out...!!!
and i love jin!!!!!! oh my god #11 about him was fantastic...!! and the funny expression he has when he was told his specs was worth a lot O_o`

Did you know that those who appear to be very strong in heart, are real weak and most susceptible?

Did you know that those who spend their time protecting others are the ones that really need someone to protect them?

Did you know that the three most difficult things to say are:

I love you, Sorry and help me

Did you know that those who dress in red are more confident in themselves?

Did you know that those who dress in yellow are those that enjoy their beauty?

Did you know that those who dress in black, are those who want to be unnoticed and need your help and understanding?

Did you know that when you help someone, the help is returned in two folds?

Did you know that it's easier to say what you feel in writing than saying it to someone in the face? But did you know that it has more value when you say it to their face?

Did you know that if you ask for something in faith, your wishes are granted?

Did you know that you can make your dreams come true, like falling in love, becoming rich, staying healthy, if you ask for it by faith, and if you really knew, you'd be surprised by what you could do.

i finished dae chang geum in a week!
it's such a nice nice show. makes you want to watch it over and over again. especially when it gets to the last parts. and jung ho is such a great guy!!! ok, he doesn't look that appealing to many with his moustache, but character-wise and oh that smile and look!!! absolutely heart-melting... i can't believe there's actually such a guy. since this show is based on real history, of cos there IS such a guy. wait till you see the real face of jung ho without the moustache, ji jin hee is sooo damn handsome!!! WAAAA... *faints* and jang geum is such a great great woman. she is so so pretty!! she earns my total respect hands down! first ever woman in the imperial court with a rank, and the first ever imperial physician who is a female too... wow... that is really something. and this show really makes people empathize with her situation. and her willpower, determination, kind-heartedness and a spirit that never bows to evil. my new idol!!
how i wish there's a part 2... and that the show is longer... but i suppose the show is already as good as it can be already... and well, there is no second jang geum for a second part right... so i can only wait for jang geum's dream in anime form now!!!

Thank You, Dad

At age 8, your dad buys you an ice cream.
You thanked him by dripping it all over your lap.

When you were 9 years old, he paid for piano lessons. You thanked him by never even bothering to practice.

When you were 10 years old he drove you all day, from soccer to football to one birthday party after another.
You thanked him by jumping out of the car and never looking back.

When you were 11 years old, he took you and your friends to the movies.
You thanked him by asking to sit in a different row.

When you were 12 years old, he warned you not to watch certain TV shows. You thanked him by waiting until he left the house.

When you were 13, he suggested a haircut that was becoming.
You thanked him by telling him he had no taste.

When you were 14, he paid for a month away at summer camp.
You thanked him by forgetting to write a single letter.

When you were 15, he came home from work, looking for a hug.
You thanked him by having your bedroom door locked.

When you were 16, he taught you how to drive his car.
You thanked him by taking it every chance you could.

When you were 17, he was expecting an important call.
You thanked him by being on the phone all night.

When you were 18, he cried at your high school graduation.
You thanked him by staying out partying until dawn.

When you were 19, he paid for your college tuition, drove you to campus carried your bags.
You thanked him by saying good-bye outside the dorm so you wouldn't be embarrassed in front of your friends.

When you were 25, he helped to pay for your wedding, and he cried and told you how deep he loved you.
You thanked him by moving halfway across the country.

When you were 50, he fell ill and needed you to take care of him.
You thanked him by reading about the burden parents become to their children.

And then, one day, he quietly died. And everything you never did came crashing down like thunder on YOUR HEART.

i don't want to sleep... but i've no choice... have i?

MY PROF SUCKS!!!!!! i bet he doesn't even know what he's teaching that's why he cannot answer my questions. and he's just plain lazy so he can't be bothered to type out the solution via email. SUCKER!!! all his slides and notes are really not from the textbook's given cd rom and website's downloaded slides la!! so lazy, no need to do anything still can't be bothered to help his student. please go back to china where you come from!!!

what am i doing... mid term is only tomorrow but i'm still whiling my time away... haiz... this is pathetic. pathetic for someone who has struggled a long way to end up in the final leap, only to trip over by blind foresight and end up injured. pain. just move on.

i know it's stupid, but i can't help it.
i know it's true and i won't deny it.
it just sucks.

supposed to be doing my stats homework... but haven't been updating myself for quite long so here goes:

kendo

our sensei thinks we should write something to record our memories for the youth tournament. first time we fought.
well i was up against opponents of the 3rd and 8th kyu, but it wasn't as horrible as i thought. i think my worst mistake was when i tried to do a taekwondo kick - well i guess out of self-defense one can do anything right...
the 3rd kyu, from nyp, (ting ting or serena i think) was the first person who ever taught me how to keigo. hence i had expected our fight to be quick and clean, 2 whacks on the men and i'm off. the next fight with chery, my senior, was a draw because i managed to hold off her attacks and she didn't quite abused her men attacks which i thought i'd be doomed to fall prey do cos of our height difference. since my foundation wasn't very solid, i didn't really expect myself to score any points, so i was pretty happy with drawing. ;p
i think i did rather well in the team event too. because i did see myself scoring half-points (1 flag up and the rest waved), just that probably my strokes weren't thorough enough. and i abused my men attacks this time cos my opponent (also called ting ting, but surname huang) was a tad shorter than me. i was also glad philip sensei bothered to tell me to cut through with my attacks just before i start. well, i guess any pointers given by any sensei are worth a cheer because this probably proves that i can actually do it but i just needed extra push. so i am gonna work harder for my next few kendo practice and sharpen my moves...

new year

one week of break but i've done next to nothing but while away my time. first 2 days spent in malaysia was spent sitting around smelling cigarette smoke and listening intently to sounds people make when they are gambling (shuffling of mahjong tiles, flipping of cards, gasps of 'wah lau' etc), in between eating a lot of funny new year goodies and zhu chao at my san gu's eldest son's ship. oh and there waa a lot of housefly swatting and aimless walking around too. i guess this is all just part of bonding.
then there's the day when i just puked from 3am till noon i think. what a memorable day. i didn't really know what was happening to me so i was pretty frightened, i guess that was why i was crying like mad. but i think i got something really fantastic out of this ordeal. i realise i have the most wonderful, caring and meticulous darling in this world who doesn't mind sacrificing an entire day to stay by my side and watch me sleep the whole day, clean up my puke and carry a lump like me around. i was quite sad that i couldn't go eat the drunken prawns at his house though. i'm also glad i couldn't eat for the whole day, nor for the day after that, and can only eat a bit more after that - cos that means i can thin down wahahhahaha

school
i hate school. i hate midterms. and they are just coming so soon. bluarghz. i'm bored. bye.

Credit Card Scam

This one is pretty slick since they provide YOU with all the
information, except the one piece they want.

WARNING...New Credit Card Scam.

Note, the callers do not ask for your card number; they already have it.
This information is worth reading. By understanding how the VISA
&MasterCard Telephone Credit Card Scam works, you'll be better prepared
to protect yourself.

One of our employees was called on Wednesday from "VISA", and I was
called on Thursday from "MasterCard".


The scam works like this: Person calling says, "This is (name), and I'm
calling from the Security and Fraud Department at VISA. My Badge number
is 12460 Your card has been flagged for an unusual purchase pattern, and
I'm calling to verify. This would be on your VISA card which was issued
by (name of bank). Did you purchase an Anti-Telemarketing Device for
$497.99 from a Marketing company based in Arizona?" When you say "No",
the caller continues with, "Then we will be issuing a credit to your
account. This is a company we have been watching and the charges range
from $297 to $497, just under the $500 purchase pattern that flags most
cards. Before your next statement, the credit will be sent to (gives you
your address), is that correct?"

You say "yes". The caller continues - "I will be starting a Fraud
investigation. If you have any question s, you should call the 1- 800
number listed on the back of your card (1-800-VISA) and ask for
Security.

You will need to refer to this Control Number. The caller then gives you
a 6 digit number. "Do you need me to read it again?"

Here's the IMPORTANT part on how the scam works. The caller then says,
"I need to verify you are in possession of your card". He'll ask you to
"turn your card over and look for some numbers". There are 7 numbers;
the first 4 are part of your card number, the next 3 are the security
Numbers' that verify you are the possessor of the card. These are the
numbers you sometimes use to make Internet purchases to prove you have
the card. The caller will ask you to read the 3 numbers to him. After
you tell the caller the 3 numbers, he'll say, "That is correct, I just
needed to verify that the card has not been lost or stolen, and that you
still have your card. Do you have any other questions?" After you say

No, the caller then thanks you and states, "Don't hesitate to call back
if you do", and hangs up.

You actually say very little, and they never ask for or tell you the
Card number. But after we were called on Wednesday, we called back
within 20 minutes to ask a question. Are we glad we did! The REAL VISA
Security Department told us it was a scam and in the last 15 minutes a
new purchase of $497.99 was charged to our card.

Long story made short - we made a real fraud report and closed the VISA
account. VISA is reissuing us a new number. What the scammers want is
the 3-digit PIN number on the back of the card. Don't give it to them.
Instead, tell them you'll call VISA or Master card directly for
verification of their conversation. The real VISA told us that they will
never ask for anything on the card as they already know the information
since they issued the card! If you give the scammers your 3 Digit PIN
Number, you think yo u're receiving a credit. However, by the time you
get your statement you'll see charges for purchases you didn't make, and
by then it's almost to late and/or more difficult to actually file a
fraud report.

What makes this more remarkable is that on Thursday, I got a call from a
"Jason Richardson of MasterCard" with a word-for-word repeat of the VISA
scam. This time I didn't let him finish. I hung up! We filed a police
report, as instructed by VISA. The police said they are taking several
of these reports daily!


They also urged us to tell everybody we know that this scam is
happening.

Please pass this on to all your family and friends. By informing each
other, we protect each other.


Regards
Shek

christy~bell, your career personality type is INTP

That means that based on the standard measure of personality traits, brainstorming and creating new concepts is one of your strengths. You are an out-of-the-box thinker and come up with great ideas. You are one of those people who absorb seemingly disparate pieces of information and turn them into one brilliant and coherent thought. In other words, you see connections between ideas where others cannot.

Your inquisitive nature makes you a life-long seeker of knowledge. Your excitement comes from developing the concepts and ideas, once you know that your idea works, you are on to the next challenge. Your mind moves so quickly that you surround yourself with a strong team to finalize the ideas you conceive.

The reason employers and recruiters might be on the lookout for you is that only about 3-4% of the U.S. population shares the unique characteristics of your personality type. Research shows that businesses succeed when employers create a good balance of personality types in the office. And since only 3-4% of the U.S. population shares your type, that means employers are looking for you.



But, to truly show employers what you have to offer, you need to understand a little more about traits that make up your type.

ff12 trailer!!! nice theme song by angela aki. i can't wait!!

lots of thoughts running through my head...

first off, even if you feel that you are better than your seniors, does that give you authority to disrespect them, humiliate or laugh at them? no matter what, seniors are still seniors, and i do respect them unless they totally failed the job.

and secondly, if kendo is turning you into such a bakemono who lusts for blood, wouldn't it be better for you to quit it? (there is NO visible blood shed with any one of your hits anyway)

kendo is discipline. if the men alone shields you from differentiating right and wrong, friend or foe, then you have not the discipline yet.

lastly, we would definitely support your decision to keep silent as we won battles after battles, because you are not even fit to be called part of us. and yes, laugh if we fall, because it won't even be worth a notice for us.

hey guys take a look at the memoirs of a geisha link i put up! damn funny... ahahahah

just completed magna carta tears of blood. it's that feeling you get when you look so much to completing and you've done it, then you've got nothing to look forward to anymore. the ending of it was pretty satisfying, though short, and all the graphics were worth the patience!

watched memoirs of a geisha yesterday too. kinda disappointing for a show i looked so forward to. the book is definitely much better. the story pace is SLOOOW (seems to be the norm for everything i'm looking forward to nowadays), i almost fell asleep and the subtitles were so bad that i couldn't really catch what they were saying. it's fortunate i've read the book, else i won't have an inkling of what the hell was going on. i'm suprised dad didn't fall asleep. when it was around 1.5hours i thought the show was past limit, it felt like 3hours had past.

muscle ache ever since i got back from kendo. the strain on my shoulders - OUCH. guess that's the price you pay for trying to be independent. and i can't believe my calf muscle aches too. first time i'm haing pain all over. dakara, mochiron watashi can't go for today's morning training... (not to mention it's so darn far away and i've to wake up when the sun's not up) sorry guys, guess you can't put too much faith on me for the competition, and sorry SMU kendo club, you'll have to be embarrassed again...

and hey i've to get back to FA already! watched a lame show called madagascar, completed my stuff so enough fooling around, i gotta be back on track yeah... oh wait... there's still dinner... hmmm FA can wait hahaha - no way i can't repeat my MA mistakes again... (-_-`)

stop dousing in self-pity. get up and walk on. from now on, you will not depend on anyone.

Tomoko Tane - Broken Wings

I know this will not remain forever
However it's beautiful
Your eyes, hands and your warm smile
They're my treasure

It's hard to forget

I was still with this solution
Don't spend your time in confusion
I'll turn back now and spread...

My broken wings...
Still strong enought to cross the ocean with
My broken wings...
How far should I go drifting in the wind?
Higher and higher in the wind

My broken wings...
Still strong enought to cross the ocean with
My broken wings...
How far should I go drifting in the wind?
Across the sky just keep on... Flying

you're getting on my nerves... i'm evil i know.
let it vanish.

Pope Vs Ah Peh

About a century or two ago, the Pope decided that
all the Chinese had to leave Italy. Naturally there
was a big uproar from the Chinese community.

So the Pope made a deal. He would have a
religious debate with a member of the Chinese
community. If the Chinese win, they could stay. If
the Pope wins, the Chinese would leave.

The Chinese realized that they had no other
choice. So they picked a middle-aged man named
Ah Peh to represent them.

Ah Peh asked for one condition to be added to
the debate. "To make it more interesting", he
said, "neither side would be allowed to talk".

The Pope agreed. The day of the great debate
came. Ah Peh and the Pope sat opposite each
other for a full minute.

Then the Pope raised his hand and showed three
fingers. Ah Peh looked back at him and raised one
finger. The Pope waved his fingers in a circle
around his head. Ah Peh pointed to the ground at
where he sat.


The Pope pulled out a loaf and a glass of wine. Ah
Peh pull out an apple.

The Pope stood up and said: "I give up. This man
is too good. The Chinese can stay."

An hour later, the cardinals were all around The
Pope asking him what happened?. The Pope
said, "first I held up three fingers to represent
the holy trinity. He responded by holding up one
finger to remind me that there was still one God
common to both our religions."

"Then I waved my finger around me to show him
that God was all around us." He responded by
pointing to the ground and showing that God was
also right here with us."

"I pulled out the wine and loaf to show that God
absolves all sin. He showed me an apple to remind
us of the original sin. He had an answer for
everything.

What could I do?"

Meanwhile, the Chinese community had crowded
around Ah Peh. "What happened?" they asked.

Well," said Ah Peh, "First he indicated to me
that all Chinese had 3 days to get out of here. I
replied to him f*@k off and not one of us was
leaving." "Then he pointed that this whole city
would be cleared of Chinese. I showed him that we
are staying right here." "Yes, and then???" asked
the crowd. "I don't know", said Ah Peh, "He took
out his lunch, and I took out mine!!!"

Qian Bian Chinese Jokes

Q1) Ah Mei's dad has 7 wives. The 5th and 7th are Africans. Guess a Chinese idiom.
A1) Wu Qi Ma Hei

Q2) There's a party in the forest. Who didn't get to eat the cake!?!
A2) GRASS because Cao Mei Dan Gao

Q3) Ah bao was murdered! However, the police quickly found the killer. Who was it?
A3) Ah Dou because Dou Sha Bao

Q4) Xiao Bai and Da Bai are bros. As Xiao Bai grows older, he looks more and more like his bro. Guess a Chinese idiom.
A4) Zhen Xiang Da Bai

Q5) Osama, Bush , Blair and Saddam play mahjong. Who will win first??
A5) Saddam Hussein because Saddam Hu Xian

Q6) What's the panda's 2 biggest wishes?
A6) i. Get rid of dark eyes ring
ii.Taking colour photo

Q7) Who will pick up the dumpling (ba zhang) on the floor?
A7) Xiang Long because Xiang Long Shi Ba Zhang

Q8) There are 3 Male and 1 Female pencils in a box. The Female pencil got pregnant!! Which Male pencil is responsible?
A8) The one without the rubber

Q9) Xiao Ming drinks milk to grow up. What does Da Ming drink?
A9) Alcohol because Jiu Yang Da Ming

Q10) Which brand of shampoo is the wealthiest?
A10) "Lux" Super Rich

Q11) What did Batman say when he fell down?
A11) Painful Sia... (Bian fu sia)

Q12) 'Baby no teeth'. Guess a chinese idiom
A(11) Pei Bi Wu Chi

Q(13) Who is the fastest man in the world?
A(13) 'Chao Chao' cos suo chao chao, chao chao dao

A McDonald's Love Story...

A little old couple walked slowly into a McDonald's one cold winter evening.

They looked out of place amid the young families and young couples eating
there that night.

Some of the customers looked admiringly at them. You could tell what the
admirers were thinking:

"Look, there is a couple who has been through a lot together, probably for
60 years or more!"

The little old man walked up to the cash register, placed his order with no
hesitation and then paid for their meal.

The couple took a table near the back wall and started taking food off of
the tray.

There was one hamburger, one order of french fries and one drink.

The little old man unwrapped the plain hamburger and carefully cut it in
half.

He placed one half in front of his wife.

Then he carefully counted out the french fries, divided them in two piles
and neatly placed one pile in front of his wife.

He took a sip of the drink, and then his wife took a sip as the man began to
eat his few bites.

Again, you could tell what people around the old couple were saying. - "They
were used to sharing everything."

Then the crowd noticed that the little old lady still hadn't eaten a thing.

She just sat there watching her husband eat and occasionally sipped some of
the drink.

A young man came over and begged them to let him buy them another meal.

The lady explained that no, they were used to sharing.

As the little old man finished eating and was wiping his face neatly with a
napkin, the young man could stand it no longer and asked again.

After being politely refused again, he finally asked the little old lady,
"Ma'am, why aren't you eating. You said that you share everything.

What is it that you are waiting for?"

She answered,

"THE TEETH"

her reply:
we agree wat i told you TUE i'm @ oark mall wat. jsut like we agreed to meet
@ NG MO KIO END UPP. WHO DID NOT APPEARED?
WHO DELIBERATELY DENID THE FACT THAT HER FRIEND IS COMING INSTEAD OF HER~
YOU ALWAYS BACK OFF YOUR WORDS
THEN NOW YOU ARE POINTING FINGERS @ ME
RIDICULOUS
YOU ARE THE ONE THAT DID NOT HONOURED YOUR WORDS. I SAID ANG MO KIO MRT OR
EUNOS MRT.. BUT U TOLD ME LAST MIN DID U REALISE AND YOU ARE STILL SPOUTING
NONSENSICAL WORDS. STILL FEELING SORE ABOUT THE WHOLE THING CHILDISH.

I HAVE TO PAY FOR YOUR FARE IF YOU GO OUT OF THE MRT STATION I TRAVELLED TO
MEET YOUR FREN ON SUNDAY. DID I ASKED YOU TO PAY FOR THE TRANSPORT! SO I
THINK YOU SHOULD PAY FOR MY TRANSPORT TO PASS YUR FRIEND THE NECKLACE. COZ
IT'S WASTING MY TIME. WASTING MY MONEY!!! THE WHOLE IDEA IS TP POST TO U BUT
YOU ARE NOT WILLING TO TRANSFER WAT WAT CAN I SAID YOU DELIBERATELY WANNA ME
TO SPEND MORE. CRAZY STILL WANNA ARGUR ON SUN STUFF. CHILDISH!!!

actual letter of what i have sent in response to her reply:
can i ask if your purpose of meeting up is to meet me or to pass your item? because on tuesady, apparently, you passed your item AS PER AGREED. this is not a matchmaking session, i do not have to meet you personallly as long as the item still falls in my hands on the same time and at the same place and i have still fixed your item by the same time and date.
regarding transport fees, do you wanna guess how much my friend spent traveling to meet you then? he exited at marsiling because i thought you were not gonna meet up already and had to re-enter to travel to ang mo kio againh. and that amounts to more than your single trip. i'm not arguing over the transport fees on sunday because both of us have paid our prices. you know why there's no charges for meet ups? it's because both parties have provided consideration - we're both paying for our trips, that is why it is unreasonable to claim. and that is why i'm stopping at dhoby ghaut for you and NOT exiting.
i think it is you who feels sore about the whole thing if you're still dwelling about sunday's matter because that is now irrelevant. what i'm trying to negotiate is this meet up instead. i am not pinpoint any matters yet, i'm just telling you how i feel as a seller. i'm trying to negotiate this patiently, but take a look at your reply - all in capital and screaming that i'm a childish and sore seller - do i do that to you? no! i'm trying to reason here. please give a moment's thoughts before you hurl abuse at me. i guess this means we won't be meeting today. if you're still keen do sms me by 2pm.

what i really want to send in response:
please go to hell. (**insert all the foul words in existence here**)

"if you don't get your hopes up, you can take anything... you feel less pain."
i don't admire my squall for nothing.
i remember when i took home my history paper with a failed grade. that was my prelim. and i remember crying to my mom because i only had 1 elective, and failure meant getting retained. i didn't think that i would fail it.
it's just that i don't think i want that to be repeated again.

i'm not as carefree as you think i am.

maybe that's why i'm such a spineless, goaless worm digging the depths aimlessly.

UN Survey

A worldwide survey was conducted by the UN. The only question asked
was: "Would you please give your honest opinion about solutions to the
food shortage in the rest of the world?"

The survey was a huge failure,
In Africa they didn't know what 'food' meant,
In India they didn't know what 'honest' meant,
In Europe they didn't know what 'shortage' meant,
In China they didn't know what 'opinion' meant,
In the Middle East they didn't know what 'solution' meant,
In South America they didn't know what 'please' meant,
And in the USA they didn't know what 'the rest of the world' meant.

2 months since i last wrote.
not much to update anyway.

there's student discount of $1/ticket if you watch at jurong east theatre (not sure if it's for all the same types or only on weekends), watched oliver twist there and someone snored damn loudly in the theatres. sweet dreams.

why don't anyone believe that my accounting is just terribel even if i have proof. where's the help that i need so much?

it looks like it's raining soon. better take in the clothes.

no kendo today so i'll be home stoning all day.

Asian Kung-Fu Generation - Rewrite (from Full Metal Alchemist)

kishin da omoi o hakidashitai no wa
sonzai no shoumei ga ta ni nai kara
tsukan da hazu no boku no mirai wa
"songen" to "jiyuu" de nujun shiteru yo
yugan da zazou o keshi saritai no wa
jibun no genkai o soko ni miru kara
jiishiki kajou no boku no mado ni wa
kyonen no KARENDAA hidzuke ga nai yo
keshite RIRAITO shite
kudaranai chou gensou
wasurarenu sonzai kan o
kishikaisei
RIRAITO shite
imi no nai mousou mo
kimi o nasu dendouryoku
zenshin zenrei o kure yo
mebaete ta kanjou kitte kuyan de
shosen tada bonyou shitte naite
kusatta kokoro o
usugitanai uso o
keshite RIRAITO shite
kudaranai chou gensou
wasurarenu sonzai kan o
kishikaisei
RIRAITO shite
imi no nai mousou mo
kimi o nasu dendouryoku
zenshin zenrei o kure yo

Wanting to spit out the jarred thoughts is
Because there's no other proof of my existence
My future that I should've grabbed hold is
Conflicting between "dignity" and "freedom"
Wanting to erase the distorted afterimage is
Because I'll see my limit over there
In the window of the excessively self-conscious me
There are no dates in last year's calendar

Erase and rewrite
The pointless ultra-fantasy
Revive
The unforgettable sense of being
Rewrite
The meaningless imagination

The driving force that creates you
Give it your whole body and soul
After cutting my feelings that grew, I regret
After realizing that after all, I'm just a mediocrity, I cry
A depressed heart
A dirty lie

Erase and rewrite
The pointless ultra-fantasy
Revive
The unforgettable sense of being
Rewrite
The meaningless imagination
The driving force that creates you
Give it your whole body and soul

Gundam Seed - Akatsuki no Kuruma

Kazesasou kokage ni utsubusete naiteru
Mi mo shiranu watashi wo watashi ga miteita
Yuku hito no shirabe wo kanaderu GITAARA
Konu hito no nageki ni hoshi ha ochite
Yukanaide, donna ni sakende mo
ORENJI no hanabira shizuka ni yureru dake
Yawarakana hitai ni nokosareta
Te no hira no kioku haruka
Tokoshie no sayonara tsuma hiku
Yasashii te ni sugaru kodomo no kokoro wo
Moesakaru kuruma ha furiharai susumu
Yuku hito no nageki wo kanadete GITAARA
Mune no ito hageshiku kakinarashite
Aa kanashimi ni somaranai shirosa de
ORENJI no hanabira yureteta natsu no kage ni
Yawarakana hitai wo nakushite mo
Akaku someta suna haruka koete yuku
Sayonara no RIZUMU
Omoide wo yakitsukushite susumu daichi ni
Natsukashiku me fuite yuku mono ga aru no
Akatsuki no kuruma wo miokutte
ORENJI no hanabira yureteru ima mo dokoka
Itsuka mita yasurakana yoake wo
Mou ichido te ni suru made
Kesanaide tomoshibi
Kuruma ha mawaru yo

Shaded by the trees, calling out to the wind, I'm lying face-down crying
I saw a version of myself I didn't even recognize
On this guitar I'm playing the melody of someone who's passed on
A star falls in the grief of someone who'll never be seen again
Please don't go, no matter how much you scream,
all it will do is quietly stir these orange petals
Saved on my soft brow,
I send the memories in my palm far away
An eternal farewell as I keep strumming
The heart of a child clinging to a gentle hand
The blazing wheels cast it off and continue on
On this guitar I'm playing the grief of someone who's passed on
The strings in my heart being plucked at violently
In the pure white unstained by sorrow,
the orange petals stirred in a summer shadow
Even if my soft brow is lost,
I'll cross over the far off, red-stained sand
The rhythm of farewell
Branded into my memories, on the ever-turning earth,
there is something sprouting in remembrance
Sending off the dawn's carriage
Those orange petals are stirring somewhere even now
The peaceful daybreak I once saw
Until it is placed in my hands once more,
please don't let the light go out
The wheels are turning

that was the worst presentations anyone could have given.
i was so totally unprepared for the barrage of questions, and my group members didn't help at all also. imagine admitting to the whole class that you didn't read up on the case. (well, i couldn't find any other ways to smoke through stuff that i'm not sure about right) go ahead and laugh. bluarghz. haiz. think i probably failed my individual parts. i hate business law.

oh well, hope i can still fall back on the report.

introducing another love of my life... KWON SANG WOO~~ for those who have endured my craze please bear with me until i find another new love hahahahaha *drools* so shuai... i'm obsessed *_*

you looked right through me...

oh man... i can't believe i'm whiling my time away in lee kong chian library... i mean lee ka shing library. eeks. i've been looking forward to creative thinking classes after all the funny things i heard form my senior and now it's cancelled. it sucks double time too cos i have to waste about 7 hours of my time waiting for my dinner to start. (-_-`) oh well, at least i've experience of what i should do when i have so much time on hand with my laptop as the only source of entertainment. mail, sngapore auctions, hongkong auctions, taiwan auctions, several us brands websites, blog, msn, and yeah games. guess i'll be continuing kingdom hearts after this. heh. i think my dress sense is deteriorating. i'm totally clashing today. (-_-`) and damn! ... is being weird.

Law Enforcement Academy of Singapore (electrical)...

i'd like to pay a tribute to all my colleagues using the little time i have left before school starts.

to garry (my manager): the ultra rich guy who only ate a piece of so-called "premium" steak, 2 cuppucinos, 1 soup and 1 cup of ice-cream for his buffet. really can count them with my fingers. lots of money, a freak for cleanliness (there's always dust! no point wiping the shelves!!), a wise and sometimes silly even manager! he looks very cute when he laughs cos it's so kiddy, and his serious face doesn't always look all that serious to me. i will never forget the day i photostated 5 entire files for you, all the catalogues and such, and in the end the format was wrong (-_-`). hmmm. and stop telling me you got a lot of 'd's for your results (and d=distinction). *going crazy*

to hendrie (ex-assistant manager, now really manager since garry's gone): i really appreciate you trying to give me a full month's salary when i only worked for half a month and took so many leaves!! (oops i've just announced his good intentions) the funniest thing i remembered was that you told the tailor that your stomach has only gotten bigger since his last visit. and you're just about the only person who ever said thank you when i helped you do something, and commented the clothes i was surfing on the auctions are rather nice (i'm guilty as charged). and you practically bounced around when you got the internet up and and running, the look of triumph!!

to han (very senior engineer, soon-to-be-manager): i can'[t stand your alcohol breath and smokes!! (always kena niao-ed by me for smoking while door is opened) a very tall and stout guy who laughs like a kid (d'ya realise all my colleagues are very kiddy...) for a man like himself. likes to tease hazel and order her around, while being ordered by garry around. went shopping with garry and bought an apple notebook on impulse. only websites he surf is hardwarezone to look for new and more powerful handphones (changed about 5times in a week once - i had the shock of my life). loves his wife and bought her a 3g phone to see her while talking to her (hmmm but your own handphone's not 3g le...).

to richard (senior engineer): i know you're gonna get married and don't have money to treat us, as you have been oweing shirleen and everyone treats since don't know how many years ago. the name richard always reminds me of a doctor's name, and you look like you should have been one! hope you enjoy playing (and selling) all the games you leeched from me, and happy auctioning your phones + creating lots of ids to boost your own rating *hurhurhur* the only job you ever gave was handing up daily reports, and it was so funny seeing you with your 'bird nest' hair in various styles shouting at everyone to hand up their daily report ("ALBERT, WHERE'S YOUR DAILY REPORT!?!"), and scolding the banglas!! oh and he's the only one who drives a car to work.

to edy (just promoted engineer): what is it with you and my dates, and being too humble?? this guy wears specs and has 1dimple, so ideal for me but is attached (hoho just kidding alright don't get too high). too afraid to let everyone know the buffet he treated us yesterday costs almost $300++ (maybe more). a guy too generous and always speak in his soft indonesian drawl. he can take 1minute to think of what he's gonna say next ("ni de na ke... ah... errr... *scratches head* -5minutes past - aiyah...") i'm glad your sms has gotten a big longer than 2letters per sms since december ("i c."). a patient and mr. nice guy. lucky girlfriend! haha.

to jack (freshie engineer): a guy who loves jay chou and claims he looks like tidus. sloppy in appearance, he's always full of confidence and likes to chui niu ("wo tai you qian le"). the typical ah-beng sprinkled around singapore. haha. and i like your small little car which you used to drive me home with, i'll miss that one much. (he smses ,like this .no idea why .) remember when you tried to meet up for your monitor and we got lost while on the way home... *diaong* and when you reached marsiling only to realise the $355 zodiac package is a cheaterbug store! and you kept bargaining with me over my compaq laptop, and ended up configuring a desktop yourself. one horrible guy!! another thing i'll never understand about him is why he's only about as tall as me when he's a basketball player. hoho ;p

to albert (very busy engineer): bird bird!! he's the clown of our team!! and mr. bottomless pit also. he was serving everyone at the buffet yesterday with "self-made" rojak and duck noodles. i only just discovered he likes fishing. albert really looks like my grandmother, and he has 2dimples! what a cute uncle. although he's 40+, he acts like a little kid with all his lame jokes and antics. the only thing he'd lament about me leaving is... "who'll help me do material orders?!" trying to pick up computer skills by typing but always give up in the end and look for me. albert has learnt to be punctual and i always kena niao-ed for being 5-10mins late (cos i'm the second to reach office after him so he doesn't bother with the rest later). a take-charge person seen scurrying around during our shifting of office! albert owns a highly transportable lorry. hoho.

to yip (quiet engineer): yip always buy treats for us, curry puffs and what-nots. a very very quiet and shy guy who's in his forties and almost died of embarrassment when i first came in and called him 'uncle yip'. he's so quiet that sometimes when he sits beside me during my bus trips, i only realised his presence when we got off the same station! (too absorbed in my zodiac) always the "new guy" around cos he was transferred to another department and came back again, and re-introduced himself as 'new-bird' (to niao albert). i'm always shocked when he shouts at his workers though! i'm looking forward to the treat you're giving this wednesday! (although many are doubting whether you'll really be treating haha)

to bong ("starters (status)" draftsman): a down-to-earth and quiet guy who sits in the corner (in the centre now) peacefully doing his drafting. only recently he began to ask me to do some stuff for him and i had a haaaard time understanding his indonesian accent, what with pronouncing status as starters, and level as labour. even hendrie teased him about it! poor guy. a hardworking and grandfatherly like uncle. i think i always get frustrated when you tried to tell me something and i don't understand, and i need my aunt to translate english to me!! aiyoh... bong, ya gotta work harder on speaking to everyone. ;p

to hazel (only female engineer): only got to know you better near the end. i still can't forget how you dirtied your butt when you fell yesterday! everyone was rolling on the floor laughing about it. hope you won't have too much trouble taking over my admin stuff cos i heard you absolutely hated admin works, and now as the only female around, they'd assume you'd take over my job. hee. i infected her with my auctions fever also! i think everyone who's ever been an admin at LEAS electrical will definitely learn to yahoo auctions... (shirleen taught me and i taught mandy, now hazel also). and you will get used to everyone calling you "hei se" (black colour). hoho.

and that's all... hope i haven't missed out anyone... love you all and i will miss everyone once LEAS project ends. cos everyone will be separated le...

The Rat Mystery Files (v) - Tribute to Tweetz

it was really horrible...

i guess hunger overtook tweetz and he landed right in the trap, chewing happily away on the other half a loaf of the bun bread...

you know it has been a month tweetz came, but i haven't seen it once! how queer. and now it's caught but i couldn't even say goodbye, so no pictures posted. according to my mom, it was a rather lovely rat with brown skin and big shiny eyes. i suppose due to all the washing my mom did in the kitchen, it had free bath everyday.

the weirdest thing though, was that we had all given up on nabbing the tiny monster. mom placed the cage on top of a chair cos she needed to wash the floor, but didn't take it down. dad was smart enough to place another stool beside the chair so it could climb up the cage. and it did.

the horrible thing was dad threw tweetz along with the cage into the big canal outside our house. which means it must have been drowned when i reach home. at least it had a happy feast before it died i suppose.

maybe because i've been blogging about tweetz and laughing about all the silly antics it pulled which drove my mom crazy (it'll be different if i was the one driven crazy!), that i've sort of become attached to it eventhough i've never seen it physically before. and it doesn't help that mom complimented it on being a clean and pretty rat instead of those disgusting scurrying furballs along back alleys and rubbish dump.

we've sort of relaxed the security about covering our food and closing the doors at all times, but i guess we're used to it already!

(and regretfully, no more coackroach extermination displays by our friendly neighbourhoold tweetzie...)

i've been segregated from this world. no internet access, no reception, no fax or printer, totally nada.

and now i'm blogging again because everything's back!! whoo-hoo~ (except reception)

so dear friends if you find me uncontactable it's not because i've moved overseas or anything.

and dear me, smu underground places are gonna be exactly like this. i'm just experiencing it first. no reception. that sucks. ah well at least i can cut down on my sms rate.

The Rat Mystery Files (iv)

Tempt not, a desperate mouse�/em>

it has just been discovered, with great agony (and in my opinion a somewhat delightful knowledge), a cockroach disposed in its separate entities �legs, hands and organs askew in various parts around the refridgerator, with the ruthless murderer still on the loose and with trails unfound. The following night, the fearless rat left a large trail (did I say its trail was unfound?) of rubbish leading to its hideout, which is a little rectangular hole used for water drainage whenever my mom has to wash the floor. It appears that the tweetz (let� name the rat that way shall we) has decided to clean its newfound home by shoving the dirt we have swept in out of the way. With the help of my brother� intelligent plan, we decided to leave the trap right in its doorstep so that in its scurry it would dash into its own entrapment filled with wondrous pig� trotter, malt and fried squid (queer food for rats, I� say). I� have poked a really long saber deep into its new home, but my mother decided that a dead rat would stink and choke the place up, so we dropped the idea.

It was a peaceful day following the placing of our trap, but tweetz could probably survive on the leftover debris he had saved that was edible, hence he did not attempt to foolishly dash out for a pee. Somehow or rather, mom decided to shift the entrapment of food to the refridgerator again, to which I did not investigate the reason, but I suppose the rat must have slimmed down such that it was able to swerve rightwards / leftwards so as to avoid a head-to-head collision with the food trap, hence making its escape once again. Or rather, we discovered that we have not only one, but TWO drainage holes which is presumably linked, thus it could have actually went out for a walk via the other exit, rendering our trap useless since it was only facing one of the holes.

A hungry mouse is a flying mouse�/em>

And just a day ago, tweetz somehow managed to pull off a flying trick in the midst of our sleep. I suppose it has climbed to the edge of the cabinet� handle and performed a Dhalsim� body stretch to reach the bottom of the dangling bread in a plastic bag, then slid its fangs to punch through the double layered plastic, and used immense strength to haul itself and half a loaf of bread gracefully to the back of the refridgerator. That� only because we did not have enough bread for breakfast the next day and I was angst-ridden to know that the other half a loaf of my bun bread is in the food trap, and I was left with 4 slices of ham for breakfast and lunch. In the evening, there were discovered a slimy bunch of piles near the side of the fridge, which was discovered to be the other half of the loaf of bread, courtesy of my sister. And dad presumes it was just stocking up for the coming days when we are going to put our guard up to tighten the security of our food storage. How smart.

Will somebody call the pest control? Or are we gonna keep it to wipe the roach species. Is it a friend or foe??!!

The Rat Mystery Files (iii)

measures taken to let rat escape:
1) stinky balls were strewn around so it would suffocate the rat (etc in the bathroom, behind refridgerators)
2) main doors opened in the day and evening so it can get out
3) trap cage shifted from near bathroom to near refridgerator, back and forth (i have no idea why actually, maybe it's cos my mom wants to clean the kitchen floor)

the rat's queer behaviour:
1) i think it mistook my sister's green school skirt, which is currently used as a "ma jiao bu" (meaning floor mats) as food, cos my mom found it bitten and stuck near our washing basin. points for guessing how it got stuck there.
2) mom accidentally sucked up its dropping in the living room and had a hard time cleaning the vacuum cleaner. according to victim, the dropping was still fresh (*yucks*)

minor mysteries solved:
1) the squeaky sounds from my study room is actually the ringing sound of my phone. (it's spoilt ma...) knowing that, i still jumped at the squeaks. i was shocked when there was the sound in the evening and my brother just picked up the phone when i was abou to tell him that's the rat noise (-_-`) felt kinda dumb. O_o`
2) mom says it's pretty smart so she guess that it's a male. since the suspected babies theory has been declared void as above, she may be correct. (well, i'm not about to go on about why female rats cannot be smart o_o`)

it's probably gonna be staying my house for a long time. maybe i'll just give it a name. jerry? or tweety. (i hate these 2 characters anyway. no pro-tweetys/jerrys campaign please!)

The Rat Mystery Files (ii)

here's an update after being away from camp for so long...

last spotted before i went for camp: monday 1st august 2005. my sister's birthday! went to eat at xiao thai guo, the place with lots of cute waiters and cheap food. but i've digressed, so let's move on. anyway we were back in my house and the rat! it was in the cage trying to eat the malt powder (which was in a packet). we have decided to change the bread pieces to malt powder cos it was found that the rat tore open packets of instant malt poweder to chew on on top of our water flask (guess how it balanced there). BUT, my mom screamed at its bulky sight and since the cage was a little rusty, the defining piece of metal to lock on the cage did not fall down. gahhh so the rat pushed its big butt and scampered away.

repairs done: dad tried to polish and smoothen the metal piece so the cage would work. but alas, the rat did not fall for the same trick twice.

4th august 2005: my sis saw a tail peeping out from behind the fridge. guess it hiding place. (-_-`)

babies? i heard squeaks in my room again! security was tight and no rooms were left open except for the mere seconds while we entered the room. so i have duduced that there are probably babies around. checked the desk near my computer but no hints of them found. maybe it was only my imagination.

gone? mom cleaned the storage room and the floors. trails of ants were killed by boiling water near the dustbin area. wondered if there are crumbs the rat brought anywhere that lured the ants. or if its carcass is rotting, if it's dead, that is. she flooded the floors to clean but it's either the rat is so fat it can't be washed out by the flood attack or its not there anymore. ugh. where could it have gone to.

mom's deductions: there are less droppings already. the rat probably managed to slip into smaller nooks and crannies cos it's starving so much that it's thinner and has less stools now.

mom's horror: the rat sneaked into my mom's bag to eat the packets of biscuits inside! biscuits crusts and bits were all over in the bag. no droppings found though. haha.

next plan: set the trap up again and hope that its hunger oversomes its danger instincts, falling into our trap again.

having fun at vivace... in the girls' toilet. full length mirror included! too bad being underground means we're unreachable on our mobiles... hoho i have to laugh when xm's panasonic stabilizer crashed to the ground... stabilizer no more! oops... i'm gonna get whacked... O_o`

ghostly reflections of our own...

can you believe that i was one of the smaller people in the group... so much that i was hoisted around all the time. and there's our 3 muscular men supporting the weights. luckily we had a former cheerleader's help to form this in less than a minute haha

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISTER~!!! you're 22... so old liao...

The Rat Mystery Files (i)

indication of first appearance made: around last week 24th july (can't remember), the first huge dropping which i mistook to be a dead bug near my wardrobe in the study room.
supporting witness: my brother claims that he saw a rat scooting around, but made no attempts to capture it (was going to school, so in a hurry)

so from then on, the droppings became an indication of the Rat's whereabouts...

subsequent sightings of droppings: near the computer table, behind the pushable cabinets (all in the study room)

on the 31st july: droppings found in the bathroom and near corridors between main bedroom and study room. squeaks heard in my study room while i was home alone!! O_o`
movement to capture rat: a trap with dangling pieces of gardenia's softmeal bread as bait
on the 1st august: awoke at around 1245am and found that the bathroom has fresh droppings and a pool of urine (-_-`) *yucks and ewww* in the same corner near the toilet bowl (well, at least it has etiquettes and peed in the bathroom instead of our study room). trap moved from near bathroom to front of kitchen.
i heard a squeak in the living room and dashed back into my bedroom (forgot to close my study room's door). guess the rat has scrambled back to its sleeping area. further soft squeaks heard while in my bedroom.

...to be continued...

it was horrendous.
i felt so out.
and dwarfed.
swallowed, engulfed, by the people around.
i had to get out quick.
before i realise i couldn't fit in.

just 4 alphabets.
sent a tinkle down my spine.

and it didn't help that i was happy by it.

that was a bad dream. a very, very bad dream.
i can't stop dreaming like this. and it was just one tiny screen with a queer name, one string of words, and i'm set off thinking the whole day. crestfall.
i have to stop this.

when you have as much free time as i have... well i guess you get 5new blog updates per day... at the minimum haha.
who complained that i never write anything... i think i'm starting to write a lot (of crap). maybe cos i have nothing to download already since they are all made illegal. that's quite sad. i mean we support singers or movies, but they don't have to sell one cd at $19.90 when the cost price is only $2, then now they want to sue us for downloading cos we're not so stupid to buy their over-priced stuff. how ridiculous. and we haven't even mass-complained them to bits yet.
uhh i'm talking about that since i mentioned downloads. bluarghz.

missed me?

i've regretted many things.
like throwing my temper when i thought my feelings ought to be known. and suffering the consequences up till now.
like never daring to take a move - either to initiate a talk or to search back.
i've never gotten out of my habits - i still wait. wait. wait.
perhaps it's time i do something.
just perhaps.

as i stood there,
just rewinding the hands of time,
just staring,
dazed.

...and the trauma is finally over...
but a new one is about to begin.
it seems that this week is getting pretty packed for me.
whoever said that i'm a slacker at work?!
friday... office dinner, orientation outing, bondue outing, not to mention denzyl's out.
saturday... half day of work, half a day of ndp, SMUve in the night
sunday... vivace

and my truckloads of errands. i should make a note here.
**my medical certificate!!! still uncollected.**

if it's too good to be true,
it ain't gonna bring you nowhere.

i've been protected too long.
i won't fly away.
the winds will curse you,
the thorns will prick you.

the wings spread,
i'm ready to fly.
let the people stone you,
let the wildlife attack you.

and still,
it's worthy to die just once.
with freedom at my side.

please walk away.

and there it goes, pile after pile.
but it's good in a way.
at least i'm occupied for the moment.
or so it seems.

lately, i just can't seem to think anymore.
i'll just drown in the pixelated characters.
at least -
i own that world.

[.]
skipped.
is this what it felt like last time?

and just when you wish that he has a dimple...
he smiled
just like magic.
"so, wanna take a picture?"
but not to me.
so i turned and walked away.
being ignored -
seems to be something i have to get used to now.

oh man there suddenly seemed to be an overloading work pushing me around, i'm running askew!! sheesh. it's not good to have been slacking too long cos when my work suddenly seemed neverending, i guess i just sort of made it neverending... (one good example is to see what i'm doing now) oh well, people need to relax. but - just when my harry potter comes?! bad timing...

i'm looking forward to the next camp now that this one ended quite so well. unexpectedly. heh heh. and looking at my previous posts, i suppose i shouldn't have dreaded it so much after all. maybe it was due to past camp experiences since i really didn't have that much fun, but i attribute the outcome to the people in my group~! (not all though) and if i just overlook things that didn't really appeal to me, yup, everything was pretty smooth.

points of complaints:
the food was terrible. (not all la, but my briyani happened to have a litre of oil inside)
the drinks was basically plain water with colorings. (except milo and teh)
we were swimming in our holy (hole-y) tents. (ended up sleeping on trash bags...)
sleeping with wet hair. (like bath and sleep immediately?)
and i hate spider webs. (the sky was pretty though)

i shall keep the good points to myself haha

a to-hope list:
1) that thursday comes quickly.
2) that tuesday passes quickly.
3) that wednesday don't exist.
4) that monday would go on forever.
5) that friday would replace tuesday.

i didn't see any cute guys.
i didn't see any cute guys.
i didn't see any cute guys.
i didn't see any cute guys.

just trying to wake myself up.

if you just pretend it didn't happen, then your sub-consciousness would also play along with you, and maybe you can erase it from your memory, right?
wrong.
i supposed the more i pretend it didn't happen, the more it becomes terrifying that it has actually happened.

the last time i saw consecutive big moths (and i mean big, like a3 size that kind of big) was when i was probably in primary school, and i swear i saw the same moth (or maybe there was just too many of them?). the first time i think it was somewhere in singapore, the second was at a computer school my cousin was attending, the last one was at the beef noodles shop beside my fifth aunt's tang yuan shop. it got entangled in a big fan and laid on the floor, twitching, like a piece of paper, dying.
a few days ago, i saw 4 consecutive moths again. just wondering what it means. this time it's just much smaller, like 3 pieces of namecard sizes. the first was in the morning near my block while walking towards the mrt, and the second was at my workplace, the third it was back at my block again, and the next minute after i see the last moth, another one appeared at my feet, dead.

... and the smell still lingers

looking at this just bring back the puke-inducing smell... urghh. oh and doesn't this prove that we both don't drink enough water? by the way, it was warm... *pui pui* chrysanthmum, anyone?

it's just those feelings when all of a sudden you can hate someone so much, and you pick on the slightest faults and detest every inch of what he possesses. and it just fuel on the hatred when he really does something as obvious as picking his nose. urghh.

oh man... should i get the tablet... (-_-`) i'm in such a financial crisis. got a well-enoug compaq v2133ap but wanna change it to fujitsu t4010. eee i'm really looking for trouble le. bought my compaq at $1850, now selling at $1780, gonna buy fujitsu at $2560. need another $780 to top. wonder if it is worth it. if i upgrade that's another $399 to 1gb ram+dvd writer... which means i'll need $1179! and my salary's only $960 after cpf! that's over-budget. and i haven't even count in my traveling and food fares. i'm living on a thin line... arghh!! why don't i have a rich boyfriend or rich parents to sponsor me!!!?? this is so frustrating.

Congratulations Christy, you are...

'PoiPoi' Apple Lim of verypoisonouslady.blogspot.com

You look like a stereotypical bimbo outside but its a different story inside. You're a nice, simple, proud and straightforward person who believes what you're doing is right. You don't change people, and you love them for who they are. Your primary goal in life is to be happy, next to being pretty. You have your detractors but you don't let them bring you down. You go out of your way to help others out even before they ask, and for that they love you.

Which Singaporean Blogger Are You?

just finished watching lovers in paris... i'm in *LOVE* with park shin-yang!! aw... i don't think it could just happen to everyone. don't think i'll ever be so lucky!! *sighs* that smile, the dimple, dashing, charming, rich, tall and confident, everything a man should be!! as kang tae yung said, "ni bi wo meng xiang zhong de gen ling ren xin dong..." ooh so terribly true! i'm completely melted by his actions and words... and the expression he made when he was singing... the tearing at goodbyes... "i learnt two things from kang tae yung: how to love and how to say goodbye. i hope next time when i fall in love, and with her again, i will only love, and not say goodbye..." argh!!! i think i'm going crazy ..*_*.. (starstruck) pardon me for my daydreaming these few days...

the puppy died this afternoon. it was still fine this morning, i saw it. maybe the sadness in its eyes revealed that it already predicted its death anytime. last time it was still hopping happily around with its mommy. i guess the mom is more alone than ever, 7 caught... 1 died, none left...

i'm about to open a new shop for photostating services, my colleagues keep asking meto photostat large wads of stuff, and i do mean LARGE like half a metre high that kind, and in 5 sets (that was my boss)... and it comes in a neverending stream. suddenly i can feel the photostating lady's pain. and it's not just simple auto feeding, it's books and dividers, catalogs and double-pages! what a nightmare... and it's all over... all over except another thick binded horrid BIG book my other boss just gave me...

it's lunchtime... haiz... nothing to eat... my poor stomach.

i'm so slack now. can't stand it. too bored. surfed all the surfable webs, talked all the talkable crap and i still have 2hours. meeting xm later somemore hoho. yay, still a few more days before i get my pay then after that can get another pay. money money. $$. i think i should download an emulator to play my gba games le hahahaha. and i've already loaded all the harry potter books inside this com to reread. maybe i'll even download a psx emulator to play ps here. whoa what am i doing. (-_-```)

eeks the puppy just banged its wet nose into my jeans. now there's a brown salivary patch on my calf area. probably cos it's another wet day.

k.b.w.

You Are 22 Years Old

22 Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

Libra - Your Love Profile Your positive traits: You are open minded enough to date outside your typical "type" ... successfully! You are diplomatic - and likely to end a fight instead of dragging things out. You are easily loyal and faithful, but only for the right person. Your negative traits: You're a bit gullible, and partners take advantage of you. You still may not know it. You find it difficult to decide where to go to dinner, what movie to watch, who to date... You have to be in a relationship, or else you just don't feel like yourself. Your ideal partner: A smooth talker who enjoys socializing as much as you to. Someone classy and cultured who knows which wine to order with dinner. Is beautiful to you - although not necessarily attractive in the traditional sense. Your dating style: Romantic. If your date comes bearing flowers, wine, and poetry... well, your heart soars. Your seduction style: Giving. Your lover's pleasure is as important as your own. Soft and sensual - you don't like anything to be rough. Extravagant ... your fantasy involves staying at a five star hotel with your love. Tips for the future: Don't be so quick to compromise in relationships - and you'll get taken advantage of yes. Try being single for a while. Seems impossible, but you'll learn so much about yourself from doing so. Make some decisions about your romantic life, right now. You'll be happy that you did. Best place to meet someone online: Platinum Romance - the best place to meet other singles who love romance as much as you do Best color to attract mate: Green Best day for a date: Wednesday Get your free love profile at Blogthings.

ooh nice name

Your Japanese Name Is...

Dai Reizei

What's your Japanese Name?

You Will Die at Age 79

79 You're pretty average when it comes to how you live... And how you'll die as well.

What Age Will You Die?

You Are 55% Normal (Somewhat Normal)

While some of your behavior is quite normal... Other things you do are downright strange You've got a little of your freak going on But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself

How Normal Are You?

Your Seduction Style: The Coquette

You are a pro at playing the age old game of hard to get. Your flirting style runs hot and cold, giving just enough to keep them chasing you. Independent and self-sufficient, you don't need any one person to make you compelte. And that independence is exactly what makes people pursue you.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

Your Dominant Thinking Style:

Exploring You thrive on the unknown and unpredictable. Novelty is your middle name. You are a challenger. You tend to challenge common assumptions and beliefs. An expert inventor and problem solver, you approach everything from new angles. You show people how to question their models of the world.

Your Secondary Thinking Style:

Visioning You are very insightful and tend to make decisions based on your insights. You focus on how things should be - even if you haven't worked out the details. An idealist, thinking of the future helps you guide your path. You tend to give others long-term direction and momentum.

What's Your Thinking Style?

Your Deadly Sins

Envy: 80%

Pride: 80%

Wrath: 80%

Greed: 60%

Sloth: 60%

Gluttony: 20%

Lust: 20%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 57%

You will die in a duel.

How Sinful Are You?

Your #1 Match: ENTP

The Visionary You are charming, outgoing, friendly. You make a good first impression. You possess good negotiating skills and can convince anyone of anything. Happy to be the center of attention, you love to tell stories and show off. You're very clever, but not disciplined enough to do well in structured environments. You would make a great entrpreneur, marketing executive, or actor.

Your #2 Match: ESTP

The Doer You are adventurous and risk taking. You act first, think second. You love being the center of attention. Chances are you were the class clown. Competitive, charming, and charasmatic - you have your own code of honor. You live a flexible life, bouncing between a series of activies that interest you. You would make a great salesperson, marketing director, or entrepreneur.

Your #3 Match: INTP

The Thinker You are analytical and logical - and on a quest to learn everything you can. Smart and complex, you always love a new intellectual challenge. Your biggest pet peeve is people who slow you down with trivial chit chat. A quiet maverick, you tend to ignore rules and authority whenever you feel like it. You would make an excellent mathematician, programmer, or professor.

Your #4 Match: ENFP

The Inspirer You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends. You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules. Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives. You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're qutie the storyteller! You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

Your #5 Match: ISTP

The Mechanic You are calm and collected, even in the most difficult of situations. A person of action and self-direction, you love being independent. To outsiders yous eem impulsive, surprising, and unpredictable. You are good at understanding how all things work, except for people. You would make an excellent pilot, forensic pathologist, or athlete.

What's Your Personality Type?

Your Birthdate: October 1

Your birthday suggests that are executive ability and leadership qualities in your makeup. A birthday on day 1 of any month gives a measure of will power and self-confidence, and very often a rather original approach. This 1 energy may diminish your ability and desire to handle details, preferring instead to paint with a broad brush. You may be sensitive, but your feelings stay rather repressed.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

the nastiest duck in the world.

just sort of blew a small matter up and made everyone pissed off, not to mention hurl thoughtless insults at those who mattered.

you're not as good as you think actually.

oh man... i'm so dumb...
went out with W.K.Y yesterday and was supposed to be meeting my seller for the slippers. ok so i reached sembawang and got her message, so i changed train and stopped at yishun, then after the deal, i just stupidly boarded the train to marina bay and only realised it when i reached yio chu kang. almost kena kiap bian bian by the *beep beep beep doors closing*. finally took a train back towards jurong east. haiz.
and today. today!
packed my egg+luncheon meat+corn sandwich and i stupidly stupidly just mistakenly took the other packing which contains plain pandan bread. so now i have my darling sandwiches at home while i'm having the plain ones for lunch. gosh. and i will be having those for dinner. that sucks.
urghhh... let's see what else would else to the list. (-_-`)

Logic Math (oh wow.)

christy~bell, you're smartest when it comes to logical/mathematical intelligence

While others may have dreaded their math and science classes at school, these subjects were probably no sweat for you. In fact you may have even thought they were fun. Your logical/mathematical intelligence makes you the type who can enjoy working with numbers or thinking through difficult questions to arrive at a solution.

Whether you realize it or not, this strength has likely been a help to you throughout your life �not just in the classroom. This is true because for work or recreation, people like you can tend to rely on your logical/mathematical intelligence to look at the world. From noticing patterns of behavior in people to being able to appreciate the visual beauty in a repeated design, your special brand of intelligence can make life both interesting and rewarding.

initially there were 8 of them. then some bugger called spca and took away 7. the last time somehow got his tail chopped off and now hobbles around since it lost its tail for balancing. sometimes it would just follow me around, hoping for food maybe, but all we all can do is just stare at its sad, soulful eyes and watch it tuck itself back into the muddy hole for comfort. poor little puppy...

Still On Lightbulbs/Litebarbs/Rightbarbs

Q: How many RJC students does it take to
change a lightbulb?
A: 4 whole faculties. One faculty to design the new
bulb, one faculty to test it out, one faculty to
market it and one guy to write a stupid E-mail
about lightbulbs.
Q: How many HCJC students does it take to
change a lightbulb?
A: The whole school. To compete with RJC.
Q: How many VJC students does it take to
change a lightbulb?
A: The whole school. One student to screw it in
and the rest to cheer and wave flags and banners
to give him/her support.
Q: How many NJC students does it take to
change a lightbulb?
A: None. They can study without light.
Q: How many AJC students does it take to change
a lightbulb?
A: They're too busy trying to be one of the top 5
JCs.
Q: How many ACJC students does it take to
change lightbulb??
A: None. They'd use all their money to employ
YJC to do it for them.
Q: How many YJC students does it take to changea lightbulb?
A: None. Only one teacher to tell them what a
lightbulb is in the first place and to demonstrate
(how do you think they're able to change it for
ACJC?)
Q: How many CJC students does it take
to change a lightbulb?
A: They'd prefer it darker. *raises eyebrows*
Q: How many JJC students does it take to change
a lightbulb?
A: None. Their physics is so bad that they make
the male teacher cry.
Q: How many TPJC students does it take to
change a lightbulb?
A: They wouldn't bother.
Q: How many SAJC students does it take to
change a lightbulb?
A: None. They believe in praying for it.
Q: How many NYJC students does it take to
change a lightbulb?
A: None. They are still using oil lamps.
Q: How many SRJC students does it take to
change a lightbulb?
A: Huh, wat litebarbu...
Q: Don't you guys wonder who wrote this?
A: TJC!
Q: How many TJC students does it take to change
the lightbulb?
A: None. Th! ey think they are very bright already.
Q: How many PJC students does it take to change
the lightbulb?
A: F*** the lightbulb lah, the principal will do
something about rightbarbs. Let's do 300 jumping
jacks for not wearing the proper school attire.

i'm so mad at myself!!!! fancy giving the wrong addresses for the most important mails!!! #02-19!! #02-115!!! what am i doing!!! no wonder i'm not receiving anything. i'm such a sucker!!!!

getting tired of all that shit, the insults hurling, criticisms. so what if we're the same size now. oh yah, not as if you don't have a paunch too. fat ass. as if i care. yeah and what's up with that big pants you're wearing that's suitable for someone who was bigger than you were? what's with the eat and sit down, grow fat and stupid thing? shut the hell up. fish off.

save a life! donate blood! forward. forward. does anyone actually bother going down to the hospital? or would you just feel better knowing that you've actually done the one thing everyone would've expected? forward. forward.

sr-71 - my world

The fastest man in the world, fast asleep at the wheel
Nobody wants to be alone, so how did I get, here
When I look at you, I see him staring throughAwake and a smile, cuz he's been inside of you
Is he all the things you, tried to change me into?
Is he everything to you?

Does he make you high, make you real?
Does he make you cry? Does he know the way you feel?
Love is all around you, your universe is full
But in my world, there is only you

I can still find the smell
On my clothes and skin
I can still see your face, when youre sleeping next to him
Is he all the things you, tried to change me into?
Tell me does he�
::Chorus::

I've had enough of fears, you let them out
Now I wrap myself around you
Like a blanket full of doubt
He's your everything

::Chorus::

You make me high! You make me real!
You make me cry! Now you know the way I feel
Love is all around you, your universe is full
But in my world, there is only you

can't remember the last time i dated someone. like really the first time, not boyfriend girlfriend already that kind. i guess it would be pretty sweet, not knowing what would happen. feeling excited. yada yada. that's if you like the person. if not it'd be pretty horrible. bluarghz, i wouldn't even try to mention an example. but it's more like hi, eat baos, and let's go library? no i wanna go look at clothes. ok i'll just ta bao and go home - everything in 1hour. terrible. i wish i has taken the offer to go for happy hour. (-_-`) not to mention the guilt too.

The Top Threes

1> > top three most visited websites :
hotmail . yahoo auctions . blog .

2> > top three favourite songs right now :
life in mono . eyes on me . ? .

3> > top three favourite food :
egg . baus . ? .

4> > top three favourite drink :
milk . aloe vera . ? .

5> > top three outdoor activities :
shopping . shopping . shopping .

6> > top three indoor activities :
crafts . gaming . surfing net .

7> > top three accessories (that you own) :
butterfly anklet . ring . heart bracelet .

8> > top three major expenses :
clothes . shoes . traveling .

9> > top three most important people
famiLy . squaLL . darLing

10> > top three favourite hangout place:
orchard . bugis . toa payoh .

11> > top three things you do everyday :
eat . daydream . sms .

12> > top three favourite colours :
white . black . silver .

Story of Love

Once upon a time there was an island where all
the feelings lived; happiness, sadness,
knowledge, and all the others, including love.

One day it was announced to all of the
feelings that the island was going to sink to the
bottom of the ocean. So all the feelings prepared
their boats to leave.

Love was the only one that stayed. She wanted to
preserve the island paradise until the last possible
totally under, love decided it was time to
leave.

She began looking for someone to ask for help.
Just then Richness was passing by in a grand
boat. Love asked, "Richness, Can I come with you
on your boat?"

Richness answered, "I'm sorry, but there is a
lot of silver and gold on my boat and there would
be no room for you anywhere."

Then Love decided to ask Vanity for help who
was passing in a beautiful vessel. Love cried
out, "Vanity, help me please." "I can't help you",
Vanity said, "You are all wet and will damage my
beautiful boat."

Next, Love saw Sadness passing. Love
said, "Sadness, please let me go with you."
Sadness answered, "Love, I'm sorry but I just
need to be alone now."

Then, Love saw Happiness. love cried
out, "Happiness, please take me with you."
But Happiness was so over overjoyed that he
didn't hear Love calling to him.

Love began to cry. Then she heard a voice say,
"Come Love, I will take you with me." It was an
elder. Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that
she forgot to ask the elder his name. When
they arrived on land the elder went on his way.
Love realized how much she owed the elder.

Love then found Knowledge and asked. "It was
Time", Knowledge answered. "But why did Time
help me when no one else would?", Love asked.
Knowledge smiled and with deep wisdom and
sincerity, answered, "Because only Time is
capable of understanding how great Love is."

what do you want?
stare, dazed.
distracted, lost.
trailed off, senseless.
just stab me.

When Times Are Bad...

A NUS graduate found himself difficult to get a job here. He finally accepted the offer to work with Mandai Zoo.

"What to do? It's better to work like this than earning nothing...", mumbling to himself.

So since that day, the IT grad started work acting as a monkey. He has to wear monkey suit and mask, chew nuts and eat bananas. He has to climb trees too and jump from one to another to attract visitors. The zoo has since then enjoyed tremendous business due to the increase in visitors. Even SM Lee wanted to see the super 'smart' monkey in the world.

Unfortunately, one day when he was jumping from the trees. He fell down into a crocodile pool!

"Oh my God....I'm dying... now" he thought, as a hungry looking crocodile swam steadily towards his direction.

In the middle of his struggle, suddenly he heard a soft voice,

"Don't be afraid my friend... I'm from NTU".