187, perfect.

he really looks like him... maybe just a little difference in height...

urghh... phat thai phat thai...
fat thighs.

some species of people i've observed:

1. people who doesn't try and gets it.
2. people who tries and eventually and or occasionally makes it.
3. people who tries too hard and doesn't make it.
4. people who sometimes tried to and sometimes gives us
5. people who doesn't try and doesn't make it.

which are you?

i tried, but i failed. so i guess i'm not about to try anymore.

can't imagine i was in malaysia just yesterday...
US just a month ago...
and now i'm back in singapore.
in school.
now.

sighh... should i say life is boring or just too fast?

i realised i have msn here!
and hola, look who messaged me first.
you made my day!!! te quieros!!

too much time makes you wonder...
too much silence makes your mind wander...

i saw that face and i knew better.
so i saved an apology today.
i guess when your circle gets wider, doesn't matter if it shrinks an inch or so, even if that inch was built up over 7years.
because you know, that inch was about to fall out anyway... so why not save the pain of incision?

why is everything so complicated with you?
why is everything so simple with you?
why can't i say what i want to you?
why do words slip so easily with you?
why do i have to re-write and re-type every sentence to you?
why do i just type whatever i want to to you?
why is there pain...
why is there peacefulness...
why are you so far away?
why are you so far away?

忘れたくない...
彼はまるで大切な人になったんです。しかし、遠いからなにもできません。あのひとへ私の心を飛びでいった...
許さない。
知っていますが、忘れたくない。

it's just an automated message for god's sake!
why are you so happy about it?

because someone did something that generated that automated message, that's why... ..^_^..

Nickelback - Far Away

this time, this place
misused, mistakes
too long, too late
who was i to make you wait
just one chance
just one breath
just in case there's just one left
'cause you know,
you know, you know

(chorus)
that i love you
i have loved you all along
and i miss you
been far away for far too long
i keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
stop breathing if
i don't see you anymore

one my knees, i'll ask
last chance for one last dance
'cause with you, i'd withstand
all of hell to hold your hand
i'd give it all
i'd give for us
give anything but i won't give up
'cause you know,
you know, you know

(chorus)

so far away
been far away for far too long
so far away
been far away for far too long
but you know, you know, you know

i wanted
i wanted you to stay
'cause i needed
i need to hear you say
that i love you
i have loved you all along
and i forgive you
for being away for far too long
so keep breathing
'cause i'm not leaving
hold on to me and, never let me go

a theme song i had when i was in wildwood... heard it almost everywhere i go and at the most appropriate times... hmmm...

Dht - Listen To Your Heart

I know there's something in the wake of your smile.
I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yea.
You've built a love but that love falls apart.
Your little piece of heaven turns too dark.

Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.

Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile.
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yea.
They're swept away and nothing is what is seems,
the feeling of belonging to your dreams.

Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.

And there are voices
that want to be heard.
So much to mention
but you can't find the words.
The scent of magic,
the beauty that's been
when love was wilder than the wind.

Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.

Listen to your heart, mm-mmmmmm

I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.

Value

To realize
The value of a sister
Ask someone
Who doesn't have one.

To realize
The value of ten years:
Ask a newly
Divorced couple.

To realize
The value of four years:
Ask a graduate.

To realize
The value of one year:
Ask a student who
Has failed a final exam.

To realize
The value of nine months:
Ask a mother who gave birth to a still born.

To realize
The value of one month:
Ask a mother
who has given birth to
A premature baby.

To realize
The value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realize
The value of one hour:
Ask the lovers who are waiting to Meet.

To realize
The value of one minute:
Ask a person
Who has missed the tr ain, bus or plane.

To realize
The value of one-second:
Ask a person
Who has survived an accident...

To! realize
The value of one millisecond:
Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics

Time waits for no one.

Treasure every moment you have.
You will treasure it even more when

you can share it with someone special.

To realize the value of a friend:
Lose one.

expand (a+b)^n

1/n sin x = ?

find x

root 2 / 2

i'm really lucky.
so far i haven't had a day where i had to entertain long lines of guests for more than 2-3hours. whenever there's a long queue, the phloom breaks down or i get called somewhere else - giving postcards or going to the tunnel. maybe my luck will change later once my star is gone, but heck, there's only another week left anyway...
this is gonna be a long weekend... with doubles for saturday and sunday... and without motivation to look forward to.
i hope next week never ends...

Bao Vs Mee

Chapter One
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One day, noodle quarrel with meat bao(bun). They had a fight but bao was too clumsy and lost badly. He was very angry and he told noodle to stay behind if he has the guts and he'll get his pals to assist him. Meat bao went to find bread, man tou, jian bao etc to get them to reinforce him. Along the way, they saw maggi mee. They ah bish ah bish ah bish and beat maggi mee up and maggi mee beri puzzled why he kena beaten up. He said, "Why u all beat me? What have I done to deserve this?" The meat bao said, "Noodle! Dun think u perm your hair then cannot recognise u!"

Chapter Two
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Maggi mee, who was beaten up for no reason, was very angry. So he went to find bee hoon, udon, fried noodles etc to seek revenge. But on the way, they met small bao. Maggi mee looked at small bao for a while then told his brothers, "Bra-der! Whack him!" Maggi mee! whack small bao harder &harder. After the noodles family has left, they asked Maggi Mee why he hated small bao so much and beat him up so badly. Maggi mee said. "At first wanna teach him a small lesson only, but then see him act cute, made me so angry."

Chapter Three
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The more small bao thought of it, the more buay song he was. So, he found the bao family to whack Maggi mee. Then they found ying shi juan (noodles covered with bun). They brought him back as hostage and were about to put him on the stove to force him to talk when the bao head said, "That's not noodles! That's our undercover!"

Chapter Four
============
The family of bao and noodles are now enemies and they have gang fights whenever they see each other. One day, the noodles family was having a walk when they saw char siew bao alone. Seeing the good chance, all of them attacked him. The noodles family shouted, "Beat him hard ha! rd! Don't give chance just because he's vomiting blood!"

Chapter Five
===========
Poor char siew bao, with his injuries, went to the baoheadquarters to look for help. All the bao family was activated and together with red bean bao, green bean bun etc. they went to seek revenge. All the passerbys siam them as they look like they will kill. They saw french fries jalan jalan along, shopping. The bao family attacked him. The bao head shouted, "Noodle people still wear gold go shopping! Whack him!!!"

Chapter Six
==========
Finally, the bao family manage to kidnap noodle, the one who started up the whole show, and brought him back to the baoheadquarter. All the baos took turns to whack him. At the end, the chief of baos - dua bah bao took a final roll over noodle before they dump him. When the poor noodle finally went home, none of the family member could recognise him bcoz he is totally disfigured - flatten. In order not to let the family bear the bad name, he appears as a new member named Mee Pok.

If your BIRTH DAY is .......


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January 2nd ~ January 11th = Orange


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January 12th ~ January 24th = Yellow


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January 25th ~ February 3rd = Pink


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February 4th ~ February 8th = Blue


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February 9th ~ February 18th = Green


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February 19th ~ February 28th = Brown


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March 1st ~ March 10th = Aqua


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March 11th ~ March 20th = Lime


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March 21st = Black


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March 22nd ~ March 31st = Purple


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April 1st ~ April 10th = Navy


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April 11th ~ April 20th = Silver


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April 21st ~ April 30th = White


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May 1st ~ May 14th = Blue


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May 15th ~ May 24th = Gold


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May 25th ~ June 3rd= Cream


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June 4th ~ June 13th = Grey


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June 14th ~ June 23rd = Maroon


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June 24th = Grey


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June 25th ~ July 4th = Red


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July 5th ~ July 14th = Orange


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July 15th ~ July 25th = Yellow


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July 26th ~ August 4th = Pink


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August 5th ~ August 13th = Blue


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August 14th ~ August 23rd = Green


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August 24th ~ September 2nd = Brown


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September 3rd ~ September 12th = Aqua


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September 13th ~ September 22nd = Lime


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September 23rd = Olive


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September 24th ~October 3rd = Purple


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October 4th ~ October 13th = Navy


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October 14th ~ October 23rd = Silver


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October 24th ~November 11th = White


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November 12th ~ November 21st = Gold


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November 22nd ~ December 1st = Cream


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December 2nd ~ December 11th = Grey


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December 12th~ December 21st = Maroon


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December 22nd = Teal


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RED

Cute and lovable type, You are picky but always in love... and liked to be loved. Fresh and cheerful, but can be "moody" at times. Capable with people nice, soft, and that can love you for the way you are. Likes people that are easy to talk to, and can make you feel. comfortable.

Orange

You are responsible for your own actions, and you know how to treat people.You always have goals to reach and you really work hard to get there, you are competitive. Your friends are really important to you and you appreciate what you have, you sometimes over react that's because you are sensitive. comfortable.

Yellow

You are sweet and innocent. Trusted by many people, and have a strong leadership towards relationships. You make good decision and make the right choice at the right time. And always dreaming of Romantic Relationship.

Blue

You may have low self-esteem, and can be very picky. You are artistic and like to fall in love, but you let your love pass by, by loving with your mind, not your heart. relationship.

Pink

You are always trying your best in everything, and like to help and care for other people. But you are not easily satisfied. You have negative thoughts, and you look for romantic love like in a fairytale. relationship.

Green

You get along well with new people. You are not really a shy person, but sometimes you can hurt people's feelings by your words... You like to be loved and noticed by your lover, but mostly you are single, waiting for the right person.

Brown

You are active and sportive. It's hard for other people to become close with you, but you fall in love easily. But once you find out you can't get something, you give up and let go easily as well.

Aqua

Your feelings change suddenly and easily. You are always lonely, and like traveling. You are truthful, but listen and believe other people too easily. It's hard to find love for you, and get lost in love easily, Sometimes get hurt by love.

Lime

You are calm, but easily stressed out. You get jealous easily, and complain over little things. You can't get stuck into one thing, but you have a capable personality for everyone to trust you and like you.

Black

You are challenging, and have the "guts". But you don't like changes in your life. And once you make a decision, you keep it that way for a long time. Your love life is also challenging, and different.

Purple

You are Mysterious, never selfish and get interested in things easily. Your day can be Sad or Happy depending on your mood.You are popular between friends but you can act stupid at times,and forget things easliy.You go for a person that's trustworthy.

Navy

You are attractive, and love your life.You have a strong feeling towards everything. And very easily distracted.Once you get angry at someone, its hard for you to forgive them.

Olive

You are warm and light hearted.You seem to flow well with friends and family. You don't like Violence and know what's right.You are Kind and cheerful but don't evny other people.

Silver

You are imaginative and fun, You love trying new things.You like to challenge yourself and you learn things easily, you're easy to talk to and give good advice.When comes to friendship, you find it hard to trust someone, but once you find the right friend, you trust them forever.

Gold

You know what's right and what's wrong. You are cheerful and out going. It's hard for you to find the one you want, but once you find the right person, you won't be able to fall in love again for a long time.

Cream

Competitive and sportive. Don't like losing and always cheerful! You are trustworthy, and very out going. You choose love carefully, and don't fall in love easily. But once you find the right one, you don't let go for a long time.

Grey

You are attractive, and active. You never hide your feelings, and express everything that's inside. But can be selfish at times. You want to be noticed, and don't like to be treated unequally. You can brighten up peoples day. You know what to say at the right time, and you have a good sense of humor.

Maroon

You are intelligent, and know what's right. You like to make things go your way, which can sometimes cause trouble for not thinking about other people's feelings. But you be patient when it comes to love.. Once you get a hold of the right person, it's hard for you to find a better love.

White

You are shiny person,cute and intelligent Person. You like to make friendship with your higher persons, which can sometimes cause trouble. Your Strength is Your Love towards friends.You always looks to love somebody and u be loved by somebody. Your Intelligency may lead to success in your life

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今日、いろいろな人に話したんだ。とても楽しいですわ。。。特別にあの人の話し。聴きた後、いい気持ちがあるね！

私たちどこ来たから、どこ行こうまで。

なぜ自分の悪いことを見えないか。
なぜ自分が一番大切な物なのように。
なぜ近い友達が知らなくなちゃった。
なぜ世界に私のことを言ったよ。

あんたにとって、私は何者だ？
親友か。
敵か。
なんでもないかもしれない。
信じられない。

もう何でもわからないんでえす...
昔の一番友達は一分に変わった。ずっと知った人は今知らないん人になった。だから、私の世界はただ全部をたおしまったん。

逃げたいんだ...　
この地獄から。

疲れちゃった...
この人生なの。

知りたくない．．．
このひとだ。

何でもはなせないし、何でもでいないし、どう一生にいきていきましょうかな．．．

finally get to go online but kept getting disconnected from msn. wonder if it's just the my laptop, the connection, or msn?
new york is interesting and nice, but it's soooo cold here! and i'm getting tired of western food. i guess i can only survive in asian countries. after all, china, thailand and korea was suitable for me. it's 1am now and i'm not sleeping! my body clock is readjusting. but i'm getting dark eye rings. that's not good. oh well i got a 5hours ride ahead of me tomorrow. more than enough to replenish the sleep i'm missing now yeah...

what a complicated and disturbing movie with funny settings and characters... mirrormask... well, i'd recommend this to people who like philosophical movies such as the hours and the likes i guess... 眠い...　またね！

や～！！新いＢＬＯＧＳＫＩＮは自分が作った名のね！どう？美しいと思いですね．．．大好きだよ！あの七の罪は七の大好きな男の子が変わった...　ハハハ．．．！！　
in fact, i just thought since i have 7 guys then might as well put them as 7 sins... oh well i guess if you look at them another way, each of them do have a 'sin' that they carry i guess... i shall explain a bit here...
jin (samurai champloo) - killed his master (not purposefully...) and was being pursued by other followers of the same dojo for doing so
haruka (tactics) - the sin of mass-killing when he was a then a ruthless goblin, hence ended up being sealed. subsequently released by kantarou, who wanted to befriend an ogre-eating goblin.
byakuya (bleach) - carried his wife's sin and atoning for it by subsequently taking care of rukia (and someone being super cold to her)
chrno (chrno crusade) - was a devil who killed relentlessly for 'freedom', then lost his demon's horns and was trapped in a child's form due to loss of power
abel (trinity blood) - a krusnik, vampire who feeds on other vampires (that's sinful enough eh...)
loki (matantei loki ragnarok) - an angel expelled from heaven because he was thought to cause ragnarok (end of the world) and consequently gets pursued by odin's assassins
squall (final fantasy 8) - denied the world of all relations and seen as a lonewolf, he was actually shrouded by his orphanage past... (play the game to find out!)

oh now i remember who i forgot to put... haji and edward... oh well that would make it 9sins.... (-_-`) 残念だ！

i don't know why i'm still chasing the series. perhaps i've nothing much to do anyway. ah well. to say the least, tsubasa chronicles is very boring. the plot moves so slowly. it's episode 12 already and they've only found what - 3feathers? and in the beginning there's supposed to be a million of them scattered all over the world. if this had been real i don't think they would ever be able to finish them all. but i guess since it's only anime, they probably would. the story is so slow i can fold clothes, surf net and read my kingdom hearts faq while i'm watching the anime and i wouldn't miss any details. and that's so not exaggerating. and when it reaches the end of the episode, you're bound to know it cos the author pauses at the same scene for like 8seconds before it fades into the ending music mode. it's so darn irritating. i bet the author just wants to drag the story anyway. but i'll continue watching and see if anything improves, and i'm already about halfway through so i'll hang on anyway - am not one to do things halfway. heh. maybe next time i'll watch 2 slow animes together.

let's see, i've finally completed kingdom hearts 2 but not a 100% one... 89% when i beat that final boss but i guess it should be more now after i have finished searching for some more treasures and the titan cup. bluarghz. i don't think i'm gonna finish everything. sephiroth is a killer and the other cups and way too troublesome (form level 5, etc... and several fat men which i have to whack the hell before a time limit of a certain seconds). ughh... and the rest of the 10% are all mini-games. and oh i so hate mini games. and what's this about my gummi ship being 8% completed. (-_-`) i can't be bothered already. maybe i'll just copy a data file from zhifu and watch the secret ending. but wait, i've already watched it - on youtube. hahahahahah so i guess i'll put the game aside for now unless i'm bored the next time... so much that i'll train myself to level 99 and beat the crap out of sephiroth. またね！

やった！日本語ごで書けるんですは!　皆みえるんか？

marude, nani ka attan watashi no sei de.

it's not as if i don't want to help. just this once i've screwed up. not as if i am always on the clouds 24/7. i'm not a watchdog. i've tried to be better by helping. i've tried to do more. and i'm keeping myself mum, co si know the best retaliation is no retaliation. say what you want. ya right. sometimes, things that you tried to do are never enough. it's the things that you don't do that makes it obvious. in other words, even if you were to do a hundred good things, people will only blame you for that little thing you didn't do.
so i'm just closing on myself now. blast the music on my headphones so i can shut the noise from outside. so i won't hear the nagging, no matter how close. so i won't think about it anymore, no matter how strongly i oppose. it's never others' faults. it's your fault. atashi no sei de. yes me.

i guess it's times like this i feel glad i'll be away soon...

what are they going to do once the journey's over?
what am i going to do when i finish watching this anime?
that's why i suppose i hope everything would just last forever. but of cos, there's always the hands of time. something always has to end. if good things doesn't end, then so will bad things. this world is fair. i must say that i have held my breath for so long, i am finally relieved at how things have turned out. the previous chrono crusade left a bitter taste, but samurai champloo sure made me smile. all the while when i'm watching one episode per day (ok, sometimes 2 or 3), it had been a source of strengthfor me to carry on. i looked forward to takeaway dinner (maa, since mom is always ot-ing) because i can enjoy a 20minutes break from eating and watching a favourite anime with my brother. course, it's nicer to have company with you to laugh together, eat together and enjoy together.
now that my exam journey is over, time to look for another one...

i hate the ending...
i like happy endings better. at least there's no 'bitter aftertaste'. there's no feeling 'why couldn't have things work out better'. but i guess tragic stories always make reflecting back beautiful.
the one i which impressed me most about chrono crusade was the time ticking thingy. how would i feel, if i had a clock around my neck that is ticking away as i journey on, that marks the time i will die, and speeds its hands in moments of crises - like when rosette required chrono's powers. i think it's sad that someone who have done so much for humanity has to be tied down by that clock. but maybe that is where the story just seem so ephemeral, so wonderful. and it is this ending which makes looking at all the music videos fans have done so sad because you are looking at the moments they have spent together, but you have already known te ending.
and the trials incorporated by christianity in this show... the sacrifices to the likes of jesus christ by rosette. it's probably what inspired so many people, the cruxifixion, and awakened our realization.
that's why... i guess even tragic endings remind us of things... that not everything will always go well... not that if you pray you'll go to heaven, not that if you study you'll get a good grade, and not that if you are kind you will have a good life. good endings are not what we should seek for with our actions, but actions that comes from the heart, no matter what will still happen in the end, eh...

*p.s. the devil aion is damn shuai though... and joshua too!!! of cos, chrono in his original form is superb as well... hahahaha...

i thought fullmetal alchemist deserved to be the #1 rated anime, and was doubtful of samurai champloo when it took #1 position instead, but i was wrong. samurai champloo is truly an extraodinary anime. i've never seen anything like it (of cos that was what i thought when i watched fma too) - from its sequence change, break scenes (one of a kind and different for every episodes!), storyline, drawings, music (very hip-hop and indie-chic) and character personalities, it is all truly unique and captivating. eventhough each episode tells of a different story, the characters' personalities and histories are told and built upon them indirectly nontheless. and the stories are all incredibly thoughtful, whilst being supremely hilarious at the same time (i love the rhino-bug pulling the stone and the funny music-making rappy guy!), with an ending that is so unpredictable. this is one anime i wish could go on forever, hence i wanted to take my time watching it instead of finishing everything in one blow (of cos i have to set time apart for studying as well ;p). i'm on episode 12 now... hope a second series can come out...!!!
and i love jin!!!!!! oh my god #11 about him was fantastic...!! and the funny expression he has when he was told his specs was worth a lot O_o`

Did you know that those who appear to be very strong in heart, are real weak and most susceptible?

Did you know that those who spend their time protecting others are the ones that really need someone to protect them?

Did you know that the three most difficult things to say are:

I love you, Sorry and help me

Did you know that those who dress in red are more confident in themselves?

Did you know that those who dress in yellow are those that enjoy their beauty?

Did you know that those who dress in black, are those who want to be unnoticed and need your help and understanding?

Did you know that when you help someone, the help is returned in two folds?

Did you know that it's easier to say what you feel in writing than saying it to someone in the face? But did you know that it has more value when you say it to their face?

Did you know that if you ask for something in faith, your wishes are granted?

Did you know that you can make your dreams come true, like falling in love, becoming rich, staying healthy, if you ask for it by faith, and if you really knew, you'd be surprised by what you could do.

i finished dae chang geum in a week!
it's such a nice nice show. makes you want to watch it over and over again. especially when it gets to the last parts. and jung ho is such a great guy!!! ok, he doesn't look that appealing to many with his moustache, but character-wise and oh that smile and look!!! absolutely heart-melting... i can't believe there's actually such a guy. since this show is based on real history, of cos there IS such a guy. wait till you see the real face of jung ho without the moustache, ji jin hee is sooo damn handsome!!! WAAAA... *faints* and jang geum is such a great great woman. she is so so pretty!! she earns my total respect hands down! first ever woman in the imperial court with a rank, and the first ever imperial physician who is a female too... wow... that is really something. and this show really makes people empathize with her situation. and her willpower, determination, kind-heartedness and a spirit that never bows to evil. my new idol!!
how i wish there's a part 2... and that the show is longer... but i suppose the show is already as good as it can be already... and well, there is no second jang geum for a second part right... so i can only wait for jang geum's dream in anime form now!!!

Thank You, Dad

At age 8, your dad buys you an ice cream.
You thanked him by dripping it all over your lap.

When you were 9 years old, he paid for piano lessons. You thanked him by never even bothering to practice.

When you were 10 years old he drove you all day, from soccer to football to one birthday party after another.
You thanked him by jumping out of the car and never looking back.

When you were 11 years old, he took you and your friends to the movies.
You thanked him by asking to sit in a different row.

When you were 12 years old, he warned you not to watch certain TV shows. You thanked him by waiting until he left the house.

When you were 13, he suggested a haircut that was becoming.
You thanked him by telling him he had no taste.

When you were 14, he paid for a month away at summer camp.
You thanked him by forgetting to write a single letter.

When you were 15, he came home from work, looking for a hug.
You thanked him by having your bedroom door locked.

When you were 16, he taught you how to drive his car.
You thanked him by taking it every chance you could.

When you were 17, he was expecting an important call.
You thanked him by being on the phone all night.

When you were 18, he cried at your high school graduation.
You thanked him by staying out partying until dawn.

When you were 19, he paid for your college tuition, drove you to campus carried your bags.
You thanked him by saying good-bye outside the dorm so you wouldn't be embarrassed in front of your friends.

When you were 25, he helped to pay for your wedding, and he cried and told you how deep he loved you.
You thanked him by moving halfway across the country.

When you were 50, he fell ill and needed you to take care of him.
You thanked him by reading about the burden parents become to their children.

And then, one day, he quietly died. And everything you never did came crashing down like thunder on YOUR HEART.

i don't want to sleep... but i've no choice... have i?

MY PROF SUCKS!!!!!! i bet he doesn't even know what he's teaching that's why he cannot answer my questions. and he's just plain lazy so he can't be bothered to type out the solution via email. SUCKER!!! all his slides and notes are really not from the textbook's given cd rom and website's downloaded slides la!! so lazy, no need to do anything still can't be bothered to help his student. please go back to china where you come from!!!

what am i doing... mid term is only tomorrow but i'm still whiling my time away... haiz... this is pathetic. pathetic for someone who has struggled a long way to end up in the final leap, only to trip over by blind foresight and end up injured. pain. just move on.

i know it's stupid, but i can't help it.
i know it's true and i won't deny it.
it just sucks.

supposed to be doing my stats homework... but haven't been updating myself for quite long so here goes:

kendo

our sensei thinks we should write something to record our memories for the youth tournament. first time we fought.
well i was up against opponents of the 3rd and 8th kyu, but it wasn't as horrible as i thought. i think my worst mistake was when i tried to do a taekwondo kick - well i guess out of self-defense one can do anything right...
the 3rd kyu, from nyp, (ting ting or serena i think) was the first person who ever taught me how to keigo. hence i had expected our fight to be quick and clean, 2 whacks on the men and i'm off. the next fight with chery, my senior, was a draw because i managed to hold off her attacks and she didn't quite abused her men attacks which i thought i'd be doomed to fall prey do cos of our height difference. since my foundation wasn't very solid, i didn't really expect myself to score any points, so i was pretty happy with drawing. ;p
i think i did rather well in the team event too. because i did see myself scoring half-points (1 flag up and the rest waved), just that probably my strokes weren't thorough enough. and i abused my men attacks this time cos my opponent (also called ting ting, but surname huang) was a tad shorter than me. i was also glad philip sensei bothered to tell me to cut through with my attacks just before i start. well, i guess any pointers given by any sensei are worth a cheer because this probably proves that i can actually do it but i just needed extra push. so i am gonna work harder for my next few kendo practice and sharpen my moves...

new year

one week of break but i've done next to nothing but while away my time. first 2 days spent in malaysia was spent sitting around smelling cigarette smoke and listening intently to sounds people make when they are gambling (shuffling of mahjong tiles, flipping of cards, gasps of 'wah lau' etc), in between eating a lot of funny new year goodies and zhu chao at my san gu's eldest son's ship. oh and there waa a lot of housefly swatting and aimless walking around too. i guess this is all just part of bonding.
then there's the day when i just puked from 3am till noon i think. what a memorable day. i didn't really know what was happening to me so i was pretty frightened, i guess that was why i was crying like mad. but i think i got something really fantastic out of this ordeal. i realise i have the most wonderful, caring and meticulous darling in this world who doesn't mind sacrificing an entire day to stay by my side and watch me sleep the whole day, clean up my puke and carry a lump like me around. i was quite sad that i couldn't go eat the drunken prawns at his house though. i'm also glad i couldn't eat for the whole day, nor for the day after that, and can only eat a bit more after that - cos that means i can thin down wahahhahaha

school
i hate school. i hate midterms. and they are just coming so soon. bluarghz. i'm bored. bye.

Credit Card Scam

This one is pretty slick since they provide YOU with all the
information, except the one piece they want.

WARNING...New Credit Card Scam.

Note, the callers do not ask for your card number; they already have it.
This information is worth reading. By understanding how the VISA
&MasterCard Telephone Credit Card Scam works, you'll be better prepared
to protect yourself.

One of our employees was called on Wednesday from "VISA", and I was
called on Thursday from "MasterCard".


The scam works like this: Person calling says, "This is (name), and I'm
calling from the Security and Fraud Department at VISA. My Badge number
is 12460 Your card has been flagged for an unusual purchase pattern, and
I'm calling to verify. This would be on your VISA card which was issued
by (name of bank). Did you purchase an Anti-Telemarketing Device for
$497.99 from a Marketing company based in Arizona?" When you say "No",
the caller continues with, "Then we will be issuing a credit to your
account. This is a company we have been watching and the charges range
from $297 to $497, just under the $500 purchase pattern that flags most
cards. Before your next statement, the credit will be sent to (gives you
your address), is that correct?"

You say "yes". The caller continues - "I will be starting a Fraud
investigation. If you have any question s, you should call the 1- 800
number listed on the back of your card (1-800-VISA) and ask for
Security.

You will need to refer to this Control Number. The caller then gives you
a 6 digit number. "Do you need me to read it again?"

Here's the IMPORTANT part on how the scam works. The caller then says,
"I need to verify you are in possession of your card". He'll ask you to
"turn your card over and look for some numbers". There are 7 numbers;
the first 4 are part of your card number, the next 3 are the security
Numbers' that verify you are the possessor of the card. These are the
numbers you sometimes use to make Internet purchases to prove you have
the card. The caller will ask you to read the 3 numbers to him. After
you tell the caller the 3 numbers, he'll say, "That is correct, I just
needed to verify that the card has not been lost or stolen, and that you
still have your card. Do you have any other questions?" After you say

No, the caller then thanks you and states, "Don't hesitate to call back
if you do", and hangs up.

You actually say very little, and they never ask for or tell you the
Card number. But after we were called on Wednesday, we called back
within 20 minutes to ask a question. Are we glad we did! The REAL VISA
Security Department told us it was a scam and in the last 15 minutes a
new purchase of $497.99 was charged to our card.

Long story made short - we made a real fraud report and closed the VISA
account. VISA is reissuing us a new number. What the scammers want is
the 3-digit PIN number on the back of the card. Don't give it to them.
Instead, tell them you'll call VISA or Master card directly for
verification of their conversation. The real VISA told us that they will
never ask for anything on the card as they already know the information
since they issued the card! If you give the scammers your 3 Digit PIN
Number, you think yo u're receiving a credit. However, by the time you
get your statement you'll see charges for purchases you didn't make, and
by then it's almost to late and/or more difficult to actually file a
fraud report.

What makes this more remarkable is that on Thursday, I got a call from a
"Jason Richardson of MasterCard" with a word-for-word repeat of the VISA
scam. This time I didn't let him finish. I hung up! We filed a police
report, as instructed by VISA. The police said they are taking several
of these reports daily!


They also urged us to tell everybody we know that this scam is
happening.

Please pass this on to all your family and friends. By informing each
other, we protect each other.


Regards
Shek

christy~bell, your career personality type is INTP

That means that based on the standard measure of personality traits, brainstorming and creating new concepts is one of your strengths. You are an out-of-the-box thinker and come up with great ideas. You are one of those people who absorb seemingly disparate pieces of information and turn them into one brilliant and coherent thought. In other words, you see connections between ideas where others cannot.

Your inquisitive nature makes you a life-long seeker of knowledge. Your excitement comes from developing the concepts and ideas, once you know that your idea works, you are on to the next challenge. Your mind moves so quickly that you surround yourself with a strong team to finalize the ideas you conceive.

The reason employers and recruiters might be on the lookout for you is that only about 3-4% of the U.S. population shares the unique characteristics of your personality type. Research shows that businesses succeed when employers create a good balance of personality types in the office. And since only 3-4% of the U.S. population shares your type, that means employers are looking for you.



But, to truly show employers what you have to offer, you need to understand a little more about traits that make up your type.

ff12 trailer!!! nice theme song by angela aki. i can't wait!!

lots of thoughts running through my head...

first off, even if you feel that you are better than your seniors, does that give you authority to disrespect them, humiliate or laugh at them? no matter what, seniors are still seniors, and i do respect them unless they totally failed the job.

and secondly, if kendo is turning you into such a bakemono who lusts for blood, wouldn't it be better for you to quit it? (there is NO visible blood shed with any one of your hits anyway)

kendo is discipline. if the men alone shields you from differentiating right and wrong, friend or foe, then you have not the discipline yet.

lastly, we would definitely support your decision to keep silent as we won battles after battles, because you are not even fit to be called part of us. and yes, laugh if we fall, because it won't even be worth a notice for us.

hey guys take a look at the memoirs of a geisha link i put up! damn funny... ahahahah

just completed magna carta tears of blood. it's that feeling you get when you look so much to completing and you've done it, then you've got nothing to look forward to anymore. the ending of it was pretty satisfying, though short, and all the graphics were worth the patience!

watched memoirs of a geisha yesterday too. kinda disappointing for a show i looked so forward to. the book is definitely much better. the story pace is SLOOOW (seems to be the norm for everything i'm looking forward to nowadays), i almost fell asleep and the subtitles were so bad that i couldn't really catch what they were saying. it's fortunate i've read the book, else i won't have an inkling of what the hell was going on. i'm suprised dad didn't fall asleep. when it was around 1.5hours i thought the show was past limit, it felt like 3hours had past.

muscle ache ever since i got back from kendo. the strain on my shoulders - OUCH. guess that's the price you pay for trying to be independent. and i can't believe my calf muscle aches too. first time i'm haing pain all over. dakara, mochiron watashi can't go for today's morning training... (not to mention it's so darn far away and i've to wake up when the sun's not up) sorry guys, guess you can't put too much faith on me for the competition, and sorry SMU kendo club, you'll have to be embarrassed again...

and hey i've to get back to FA already! watched a lame show called madagascar, completed my stuff so enough fooling around, i gotta be back on track yeah... oh wait... there's still dinner... hmmm FA can wait hahaha - no way i can't repeat my MA mistakes again... (-_-`)

stop dousing in self-pity. get up and walk on. from now on, you will not depend on anyone.

Tomoko Tane - Broken Wings

I know this will not remain forever
However it's beautiful
Your eyes, hands and your warm smile
They're my treasure

It's hard to forget

I was still with this solution
Don't spend your time in confusion
I'll turn back now and spread...

My broken wings...
Still strong enought to cross the ocean with
My broken wings...
How far should I go drifting in the wind?
Higher and higher in the wind

My broken wings...
Still strong enought to cross the ocean with
My broken wings...
How far should I go drifting in the wind?
Across the sky just keep on... Flying

you're getting on my nerves... i'm evil i know.
let it vanish.

Pope Vs Ah Peh

About a century or two ago, the Pope decided that
all the Chinese had to leave Italy. Naturally there
was a big uproar from the Chinese community.

So the Pope made a deal. He would have a
religious debate with a member of the Chinese
community. If the Chinese win, they could stay. If
the Pope wins, the Chinese would leave.

The Chinese realized that they had no other
choice. So they picked a middle-aged man named
Ah Peh to represent them.

Ah Peh asked for one condition to be added to
the debate. "To make it more interesting", he
said, "neither side would be allowed to talk".

The Pope agreed. The day of the great debate
came. Ah Peh and the Pope sat opposite each
other for a full minute.

Then the Pope raised his hand and showed three
fingers. Ah Peh looked back at him and raised one
finger. The Pope waved his fingers in a circle
around his head. Ah Peh pointed to the ground at
where he sat.


The Pope pulled out a loaf and a glass of wine. Ah
Peh pull out an apple.

The Pope stood up and said: "I give up. This man
is too good. The Chinese can stay."

An hour later, the cardinals were all around The
Pope asking him what happened?. The Pope
said, "first I held up three fingers to represent
the holy trinity. He responded by holding up one
finger to remind me that there was still one God
common to both our religions."

"Then I waved my finger around me to show him
that God was all around us." He responded by
pointing to the ground and showing that God was
also right here with us."

"I pulled out the wine and loaf to show that God
absolves all sin. He showed me an apple to remind
us of the original sin. He had an answer for
everything.

What could I do?"

Meanwhile, the Chinese community had crowded
around Ah Peh. "What happened?" they asked.

Well," said Ah Peh, "First he indicated to me
that all Chinese had 3 days to get out of here. I
replied to him f*@k off and not one of us was
leaving." "Then he pointed that this whole city
would be cleared of Chinese. I showed him that we
are staying right here." "Yes, and then???" asked
the crowd. "I don't know", said Ah Peh, "He took
out his lunch, and I took out mine!!!"

Qian Bian Chinese Jokes

Q1) Ah Mei's dad has 7 wives. The 5th and 7th are Africans. Guess a Chinese idiom.
A1) Wu Qi Ma Hei

Q2) There's a party in the forest. Who didn't get to eat the cake!?!
A2) GRASS because Cao Mei Dan Gao

Q3) Ah bao was murdered! However, the police quickly found the killer. Who was it?
A3) Ah Dou because Dou Sha Bao

Q4) Xiao Bai and Da Bai are bros. As Xiao Bai grows older, he looks more and more like his bro. Guess a Chinese idiom.
A4) Zhen Xiang Da Bai

Q5) Osama, Bush , Blair and Saddam play mahjong. Who will win first??
A5) Saddam Hussein because Saddam Hu Xian

Q6) What's the panda's 2 biggest wishes?
A6) i. Get rid of dark eyes ring
ii.Taking colour photo

Q7) Who will pick up the dumpling (ba zhang) on the floor?
A7) Xiang Long because Xiang Long Shi Ba Zhang

Q8) There are 3 Male and 1 Female pencils in a box. The Female pencil got pregnant!! Which Male pencil is responsible?
A8) The one without the rubber

Q9) Xiao Ming drinks milk to grow up. What does Da Ming drink?
A9) Alcohol because Jiu Yang Da Ming

Q10) Which brand of shampoo is the wealthiest?
A10) "Lux" Super Rich

Q11) What did Batman say when he fell down?
A11) Painful Sia... (Bian fu sia)

Q12) 'Baby no teeth'. Guess a chinese idiom
A(11) Pei Bi Wu Chi

Q(13) Who is the fastest man in the world?
A(13) 'Chao Chao' cos suo chao chao, chao chao dao

A McDonald's Love Story...

A little old couple walked slowly into a McDonald's one cold winter evening.

They looked out of place amid the young families and young couples eating
there that night.

Some of the customers looked admiringly at them. You could tell what the
admirers were thinking:

"Look, there is a couple who has been through a lot together, probably for
60 years or more!"

The little old man walked up to the cash register, placed his order with no
hesitation and then paid for their meal.

The couple took a table near the back wall and started taking food off of
the tray.

There was one hamburger, one order of french fries and one drink.

The little old man unwrapped the plain hamburger and carefully cut it in
half.

He placed one half in front of his wife.

Then he carefully counted out the french fries, divided them in two piles
and neatly placed one pile in front of his wife.

He took a sip of the drink, and then his wife took a sip as the man began to
eat his few bites.

Again, you could tell what people around the old couple were saying. - "They
were used to sharing everything."

Then the crowd noticed that the little old lady still hadn't eaten a thing.

She just sat there watching her husband eat and occasionally sipped some of
the drink.

A young man came over and begged them to let him buy them another meal.

The lady explained that no, they were used to sharing.

As the little old man finished eating and was wiping his face neatly with a
napkin, the young man could stand it no longer and asked again.

After being politely refused again, he finally asked the little old lady,
"Ma'am, why aren't you eating. You said that you share everything.

What is it that you are waiting for?"

She answered,

"THE TEETH"

her reply:
we agree wat i told you TUE i'm @ oark mall wat. jsut like we agreed to meet
@ NG MO KIO END UPP. WHO DID NOT APPEARED?
WHO DELIBERATELY DENID THE FACT THAT HER FRIEND IS COMING INSTEAD OF HER~
YOU ALWAYS BACK OFF YOUR WORDS
THEN NOW YOU ARE POINTING FINGERS @ ME
RIDICULOUS
YOU ARE THE ONE THAT DID NOT HONOURED YOUR WORDS. I SAID ANG MO KIO MRT OR
EUNOS MRT.. BUT U TOLD ME LAST MIN DID U REALISE AND YOU ARE STILL SPOUTING
NONSENSICAL WORDS. STILL FEELING SORE ABOUT THE WHOLE THING CHILDISH.

I HAVE TO PAY FOR YOUR FARE IF YOU GO OUT OF THE MRT STATION I TRAVELLED TO
MEET YOUR FREN ON SUNDAY. DID I ASKED YOU TO PAY FOR THE TRANSPORT! SO I
THINK YOU SHOULD PAY FOR MY TRANSPORT TO PASS YUR FRIEND THE NECKLACE. COZ
IT'S WASTING MY TIME. WASTING MY MONEY!!! THE WHOLE IDEA IS TP POST TO U BUT
YOU ARE NOT WILLING TO TRANSFER WAT WAT CAN I SAID YOU DELIBERATELY WANNA ME
TO SPEND MORE. CRAZY STILL WANNA ARGUR ON SUN STUFF. CHILDISH!!!

actual letter of what i have sent in response to her reply:
can i ask if your purpose of meeting up is to meet me or to pass your item? because on tuesady, apparently, you passed your item AS PER AGREED. this is not a matchmaking session, i do not have to meet you personallly as long as the item still falls in my hands on the same time and at the same place and i have still fixed your item by the same time and date.
regarding transport fees, do you wanna guess how much my friend spent traveling to meet you then? he exited at marsiling because i thought you were not gonna meet up already and had to re-enter to travel to ang mo kio againh. and that amounts to more than your single trip. i'm not arguing over the transport fees on sunday because both of us have paid our prices. you know why there's no charges for meet ups? it's because both parties have provided consideration - we're both paying for our trips, that is why it is unreasonable to claim. and that is why i'm stopping at dhoby ghaut for you and NOT exiting.
i think it is you who feels sore about the whole thing if you're still dwelling about sunday's matter because that is now irrelevant. what i'm trying to negotiate is this meet up instead. i am not pinpoint any matters yet, i'm just telling you how i feel as a seller. i'm trying to negotiate this patiently, but take a look at your reply - all in capital and screaming that i'm a childish and sore seller - do i do that to you? no! i'm trying to reason here. please give a moment's thoughts before you hurl abuse at me. i guess this means we won't be meeting today. if you're still keen do sms me by 2pm.

what i really want to send in response:
please go to hell. (**insert all the foul words in existence here**)

"if you don't get your hopes up, you can take anything... you feel less pain."
i don't admire my squall for nothing.
i remember when i took home my history paper with a failed grade. that was my prelim. and i remember crying to my mom because i only had 1 elective, and failure meant getting retained. i didn't think that i would fail it.
it's just that i don't think i want that to be repeated again.

i'm not as carefree as you think i am.

maybe that's why i'm such a spineless, goaless worm digging the depths aimlessly.

UN Survey

A worldwide survey was conducted by the UN. The only question asked
was: "Would you please give your honest opinion about solutions to the
food shortage in the rest of the world?"

The survey was a huge failure,
In Africa they didn't know what 'food' meant,
In India they didn't know what 'honest' meant,
In Europe they didn't know what 'shortage' meant,
In China they didn't know what 'opinion' meant,
In the Middle East they didn't know what 'solution' meant,
In South America they didn't know what 'please' meant,
And in the USA they didn't know what 'the rest of the world' meant.

2 months since i last wrote.
not much to update anyway.

there's student discount of $1/ticket if you watch at jurong east theatre (not sure if it's for all the same types or only on weekends), watched oliver twist there and someone snored damn loudly in the theatres. sweet dreams.

why don't anyone believe that my accounting is just terribel even if i have proof. where's the help that i need so much?

it looks like it's raining soon. better take in the clothes.

no kendo today so i'll be home stoning all day.

Asian Kung-Fu Generation - Rewrite (from Full Metal Alchemist)

kishin da omoi o hakidashitai no wa
sonzai no shoumei ga ta ni nai kara
tsukan da hazu no boku no mirai wa
"songen" to "jiyuu" de nujun shiteru yo
yugan da zazou o keshi saritai no wa
jibun no genkai o soko ni miru kara
jiishiki kajou no boku no mado ni wa
kyonen no KARENDAA hidzuke ga nai yo
keshite RIRAITO shite
kudaranai chou gensou
wasurarenu sonzai kan o
kishikaisei
RIRAITO shite
imi no nai mousou mo
kimi o nasu dendouryoku
zenshin zenrei o kure yo
mebaete ta kanjou kitte kuyan de
shosen tada bonyou shitte naite
kusatta kokoro o
usugitanai uso o
keshite RIRAITO shite
kudaranai chou gensou
wasurarenu sonzai kan o
kishikaisei
RIRAITO shite
imi no nai mousou mo
kimi o nasu dendouryoku
zenshin zenrei o kure yo

Wanting to spit out the jarred thoughts is
Because there's no other proof of my existence
My future that I should've grabbed hold is
Conflicting between "dignity" and "freedom"
Wanting to erase the distorted afterimage is
Because I'll see my limit over there
In the window of the excessively self-conscious me
There are no dates in last year's calendar

Erase and rewrite
The pointless ultra-fantasy
Revive
The unforgettable sense of being
Rewrite
The meaningless imagination

The driving force that creates you
Give it your whole body and soul
After cutting my feelings that grew, I regret
After realizing that after all, I'm just a mediocrity, I cry
A depressed heart
A dirty lie

Erase and rewrite
The pointless ultra-fantasy
Revive
The unforgettable sense of being
Rewrite
The meaningless imagination
The driving force that creates you
Give it your whole body and soul

Gundam Seed - Akatsuki no Kuruma

Kazesasou kokage ni utsubusete naiteru
Mi mo shiranu watashi wo watashi ga miteita
Yuku hito no shirabe wo kanaderu GITAARA
Konu hito no nageki ni hoshi ha ochite
Yukanaide, donna ni sakende mo
ORENJI no hanabira shizuka ni yureru dake
Yawarakana hitai ni nokosareta
Te no hira no kioku haruka
Tokoshie no sayonara tsuma hiku
Yasashii te ni sugaru kodomo no kokoro wo
Moesakaru kuruma ha furiharai susumu
Yuku hito no nageki wo kanadete GITAARA
Mune no ito hageshiku kakinarashite
Aa kanashimi ni somaranai shirosa de
ORENJI no hanabira yureteta natsu no kage ni
Yawarakana hitai wo nakushite mo
Akaku someta suna haruka koete yuku
Sayonara no RIZUMU
Omoide wo yakitsukushite susumu daichi ni
Natsukashiku me fuite yuku mono ga aru no
Akatsuki no kuruma wo miokutte
ORENJI no hanabira yureteru ima mo dokoka
Itsuka mita yasurakana yoake wo
Mou ichido te ni suru made
Kesanaide tomoshibi
Kuruma ha mawaru yo

Shaded by the trees, calling out to the wind, I'm lying face-down crying
I saw a version of myself I didn't even recognize
On this guitar I'm playing the melody of someone who's passed on
A star falls in the grief of someone who'll never be seen again
Please don't go, no matter how much you scream,
all it will do is quietly stir these orange petals
Saved on my soft brow,
I send the memories in my palm far away
An eternal farewell as I keep strumming
The heart of a child clinging to a gentle hand
The blazing wheels cast it off and continue on
On this guitar I'm playing the grief of someone who's passed on
The strings in my heart being plucked at violently
In the pure white unstained by sorrow,
the orange petals stirred in a summer shadow
Even if my soft brow is lost,
I'll cross over the far off, red-stained sand
The rhythm of farewell
Branded into my memories, on the ever-turning earth,
there is something sprouting in remembrance
Sending off the dawn's carriage
Those orange petals are stirring somewhere even now
The peaceful daybreak I once saw
Until it is placed in my hands once more,
please don't let the light go out
The wheels are turning

that was the worst presentations anyone could have given.
i was so totally unprepared for the barrage of questions, and my group members didn't help at all also. imagine admitting to the whole class that you didn't read up on the case. (well, i couldn't find any other ways to smoke through stuff that i'm not sure about right) go ahead and laugh. bluarghz. haiz. think i probably failed my individual parts. i hate business law.

oh well, hope i can still fall back on the report.

introducing another love of my life... KWON SANG WOO~~ for those who have endured my craze please bear with me until i find another new love hahahahaha *drools* so shuai... i'm obsessed *_*

you looked right through me...

oh man... i can't believe i'm whiling my time away in lee kong chian library... i mean lee ka shing library. eeks. i've been looking forward to creative thinking classes after all the funny things i heard form my senior and now it's cancelled. it sucks double time too cos i have to waste about 7 hours of my time waiting for my dinner to start. (-_-`) oh well, at least i've experience of what i should do when i have so much time on hand with my laptop as the only source of entertainment. mail, sngapore auctions, hongkong auctions, taiwan auctions, several us brands websites, blog, msn, and yeah games. guess i'll be continuing kingdom hearts after this. heh. i think my dress sense is deteriorating. i'm totally clashing today. (-_-`) and damn! ... is being weird.

Law Enforcement Academy of Singapore (electrical)...

i'd like to pay a tribute to all my colleagues using the little time i have left before school starts.

to garry (my manager): the ultra rich guy who only ate a piece of so-called "premium" steak, 2 cuppucinos, 1 soup and 1 cup of ice-cream for his buffet. really can count them with my fingers. lots of money, a freak for cleanliness (there's always dust! no point wiping the shelves!!), a wise and sometimes silly even manager! he looks very cute when he laughs cos it's so kiddy, and his serious face doesn't always look all that serious to me. i will never forget the day i photostated 5 entire files for you, all the catalogues and such, and in the end the format was wrong (-_-`). hmmm. and stop telling me you got a lot of 'd's for your results (and d=distinction). *going crazy*

to hendrie (ex-assistant manager, now really manager since garry's gone): i really appreciate you trying to give me a full month's salary when i only worked for half a month and took so many leaves!! (oops i've just announced his good intentions) the funniest thing i remembered was that you told the tailor that your stomach has only gotten bigger since his last visit. and you're just about the only person who ever said thank you when i helped you do something, and commented the clothes i was surfing on the auctions are rather nice (i'm guilty as charged). and you practically bounced around when you got the internet up and and running, the look of triumph!!

to han (very senior engineer, soon-to-be-manager): i can'[t stand your alcohol breath and smokes!! (always kena niao-ed by me for smoking while door is opened) a very tall and stout guy who laughs like a kid (d'ya realise all my colleagues are very kiddy...) for a man like himself. likes to tease hazel and order her around, while being ordered by garry around. went shopping with garry and bought an apple notebook on impulse. only websites he surf is hardwarezone to look for new and more powerful handphones (changed about 5times in a week once - i had the shock of my life). loves his wife and bought her a 3g phone to see her while talking to her (hmmm but your own handphone's not 3g le...).

to richard (senior engineer): i know you're gonna get married and don't have money to treat us, as you have been oweing shirleen and everyone treats since don't know how many years ago. the name richard always reminds me of a doctor's name, and you look like you should have been one! hope you enjoy playing (and selling) all the games you leeched from me, and happy auctioning your phones + creating lots of ids to boost your own rating *hurhurhur* the only job you ever gave was handing up daily reports, and it was so funny seeing you with your 'bird nest' hair in various styles shouting at everyone to hand up their daily report ("ALBERT, WHERE'S YOUR DAILY REPORT!?!"), and scolding the banglas!! oh and he's the only one who drives a car to work.

to edy (just promoted engineer): what is it with you and my dates, and being too humble?? this guy wears specs and has 1dimple, so ideal for me but is attached (hoho just kidding alright don't get too high). too afraid to let everyone know the buffet he treated us yesterday costs almost $300++ (maybe more). a guy too generous and always speak in his soft indonesian drawl. he can take 1minute to think of what he's gonna say next ("ni de na ke... ah... errr... *scratches head* -5minutes past - aiyah...") i'm glad your sms has gotten a big longer than 2letters per sms since december ("i c."). a patient and mr. nice guy. lucky girlfriend! haha.

to jack (freshie engineer): a guy who loves jay chou and claims he looks like tidus. sloppy in appearance, he's always full of confidence and likes to chui niu ("wo tai you qian le"). the typical ah-beng sprinkled around singapore. haha. and i like your small little car which you used to drive me home with, i'll miss that one much. (he smses ,like this .no idea why .) remember when you tried to meet up for your monitor and we got lost while on the way home... *diaong* and when you reached marsiling only to realise the $355 zodiac package is a cheaterbug store! and you kept bargaining with me over my compaq laptop, and ended up configuring a desktop yourself. one horrible guy!! another thing i'll never understand about him is why he's only about as tall as me when he's a basketball player. hoho ;p

to albert (very busy engineer): bird bird!! he's the clown of our team!! and mr. bottomless pit also. he was serving everyone at the buffet yesterday with "self-made" rojak and duck noodles. i only just discovered he likes fishing. albert really looks like my grandmother, and he has 2dimples! what a cute uncle. although he's 40+, he acts like a little kid with all his lame jokes and antics. the only thing he'd lament about me leaving is... "who'll help me do material orders?!" trying to pick up computer skills by typing but always give up in the end and look for me. albert has learnt to be punctual and i always kena niao-ed for being 5-10mins late (cos i'm the second to reach office after him so he doesn't bother with the rest later). a take-charge person seen scurrying around during our shifting of office! albert owns a highly transportable lorry. hoho.

to yip (quiet engineer): yip always buy treats for us, curry puffs and what-nots. a very very quiet and shy guy who's in his forties and almost died of embarrassment when i first came in and called him 'uncle yip'. he's so quiet that sometimes when he sits beside me during my bus trips, i only realised his presence when we got off the same station! (too absorbed in my zodiac) always the "new guy" around cos he was transferred to another department and came back again, and re-introduced himself as 'new-bird' (to niao albert). i'm always shocked when he shouts at his workers though! i'm looking forward to the treat you're giving this wednesday! (although many are doubting whether you'll really be treating haha)

to bong ("starters (status)" draftsman): a down-to-earth and quiet guy who sits in the corner (in the centre now) peacefully doing his drafting. only recently he began to ask me to do some stuff for him and i had a haaaard time understanding his indonesian accent, what with pronouncing status as starters, and level as labour. even hendrie teased him about it! poor guy. a hardworking and grandfatherly like uncle. i think i always get frustrated when you tried to tell me something and i don't understand, and i need my aunt to translate english to me!! aiyoh... bong, ya gotta work harder on speaking to everyone. ;p

to hazel (only female engineer): only got to know you better near the end. i still can't forget how you dirtied your butt when you fell yesterday! everyone was rolling on the floor laughing about it. hope you won't have too much trouble taking over my admin stuff cos i heard you absolutely hated admin works, and now as the only female around, they'd assume you'd take over my job. hee. i infected her with my auctions fever also! i think everyone who's ever been an admin at LEAS electrical will definitely learn to yahoo auctions... (shirleen taught me and i taught mandy, now hazel also). and you will get used to everyone calling you "hei se" (black colour). hoho.

and that's all... hope i haven't missed out anyone... love you all and i will miss everyone once LEAS project ends. cos everyone will be separated le...

The Rat Mystery Files (v) - Tribute to Tweetz

it was really horrible...

i guess hunger overtook tweetz and he landed right in the trap, chewing happily away on the other half a loaf of the bun bread...

you know it has been a month tweetz came, but i haven't seen it once! how queer. and now it's caught but i couldn't even say goodbye, so no pictures posted. according to my mom, it was a rather lovely rat with brown skin and big shiny eyes. i suppose due to all the washing my mom did in the kitchen, it had free bath everyday.

the weirdest thing though, was that we had all given up on nabbing the tiny monster. mom placed the cage on top of a chair cos she needed to wash the floor, but didn't take it down. dad was smart enough to place another stool beside the chair so it could climb up the cage. and it did.

the horrible thing was dad threw tweetz along with the cage into the big canal outside our house. which means it must have been drowned when i reach home. at least it had a happy feast before it died i suppose.

maybe because i've been blogging about tweetz and laughing about all the silly antics it pulled which drove my mom crazy (it'll be different if i was the one driven crazy!), that i've sort of become attached to it eventhough i've never seen it physically before. and it doesn't help that mom complimented it on being a clean and pretty rat instead of those disgusting scurrying furballs along back alleys and rubbish dump.

we've sort of relaxed the security about covering our food and closing the doors at all times, but i guess we're used to it already!

(and regretfully, no more coackroach extermination displays by our friendly neighbourhoold tweetzie...)

i've been segregated from this world. no internet access, no reception, no fax or printer, totally nada.

and now i'm blogging again because everything's back!! whoo-hoo~ (except reception)

so dear friends if you find me uncontactable it's not because i've moved overseas or anything.

and dear me, smu underground places are gonna be exactly like this. i'm just experiencing it first. no reception. that sucks. ah well at least i can cut down on my sms rate.

The Rat Mystery Files (iv)

Tempt not, a desperate mouse�/em>

it has just been discovered, with great agony (and in my opinion a somewhat delightful knowledge), a cockroach disposed in its separate entities �legs, hands and organs askew in various parts around the refridgerator, with the ruthless murderer still on the loose and with trails unfound. The following night, the fearless rat left a large trail (did I say its trail was unfound?) of rubbish leading to its hideout, which is a little rectangular hole used for water drainage whenever my mom has to wash the floor. It appears that the tweetz (let� name the rat that way shall we) has decided to clean its newfound home by shoving the dirt we have swept in out of the way. With the help of my brother� intelligent plan, we decided to leave the trap right in its doorstep so that in its scurry it would dash into its own entrapment filled with wondrous pig� trotter, malt and fried squid (queer food for rats, I� say). I� have poked a really long saber deep into its new home, but my mother decided that a dead rat would stink and choke the place up, so we dropped the idea.

It was a peaceful day following the placing of our trap, but tweetz could probably survive on the leftover debris he had saved that was edible, hence he did not attempt to foolishly dash out for a pee. Somehow or rather, mom decided to shift the entrapment of food to the refridgerator again, to which I did not investigate the reason, but I suppose the rat must have slimmed down such that it was able to swerve rightwards / leftwards so as to avoid a head-to-head collision with the food trap, hence making its escape once again. Or rather, we discovered that we have not only one, but TWO drainage holes which is presumably linked, thus it could have actually went out for a walk via the other exit, rendering our trap useless since it was only facing one of the holes.

A hungry mouse is a flying mouse�/em>

And just a day ago, tweetz somehow managed to pull off a flying trick in the midst of our sleep. I suppose it has climbed to the edge of the cabinet� handle and performed a Dhalsim� body stretch to reach the bottom of the dangling bread in a plastic bag, then slid its fangs to punch through the double layered plastic, and used immense strength to haul itself and half a loaf of bread gracefully to the back of the refridgerator. That� only because we did not have enough bread for breakfast the next day and I was angst-ridden to know that the other half a loaf of my bun bread is in the food trap, and I was left with 4 slices of ham for breakfast and lunch. In the evening, there were discovered a slimy bunch of piles near the side of the fridge, which was discovered to be the other half of the loaf of bread, courtesy of my sister. And dad presumes it was just stocking up for the coming days when we are going to put our guard up to tighten the security of our food storage. How smart.

Will somebody call the pest control? Or are we gonna keep it to wipe the roach species. Is it a friend or foe??!!

The Rat Mystery Files (iii)

measures taken to let rat escape:
1) stinky balls were strewn around so it would suffocate the rat (etc in the bathroom, behind refridgerators)
2) main doors opened in the day and evening so it can get out
3) trap cage shifted from near bathroom to near refridgerator, back and forth (i have no idea why actually, maybe it's cos my mom wants to clean the kitchen floor)

the rat's queer behaviour:
1) i think it mistook my sister's green school skirt, which is currently used as a "ma jiao bu" (meaning floor mats) as food, cos my mom found it bitten and stuck near our washing basin. points for guessing how it got stuck there.
2) mom accidentally sucked up its dropping in the living room and had a hard time cleaning the vacuum cleaner. according to victim, the dropping was still fresh (*yucks*)

minor mysteries solved:
1) the squeaky sounds from my study room is actually the ringing sound of my phone. (it's spoilt ma...) knowing that, i still jumped at the squeaks. i was shocked when there was the sound in the evening and my brother just picked up the phone when i was abou to tell him that's the rat noise (-_-`) felt kinda dumb. O_o`
2) mom says it's pretty smart so she guess that it's a male. since the suspected babies theory has been declared void as above, she may be correct. (well, i'm not about to go on about why female rats cannot be smart o_o`)

it's probably gonna be staying my house for a long time. maybe i'll just give it a name. jerry? or tweety. (i hate these 2 characters anyway. no pro-tweetys/jerrys campaign please!)

The Rat Mystery Files (ii)

here's an update after being away from camp for so long...

last spotted before i went for camp: monday 1st august 2005. my sister's birthday! went to eat at xiao thai guo, the place with lots of cute waiters and cheap food. but i've digressed, so let's move on. anyway we were back in my house and the rat! it was in the cage trying to eat the malt powder (which was in a packet). we have decided to change the bread pieces to malt powder cos it was found that the rat tore open packets of instant malt poweder to chew on on top of our water flask (guess how it balanced there). BUT, my mom screamed at its bulky sight and since the cage was a little rusty, the defining piece of metal to lock on the cage did not fall down. gahhh so the rat pushed its big butt and scampered away.

repairs done: dad tried to polish and smoothen the metal piece so the cage would work. but alas, the rat did not fall for the same trick twice.

4th august 2005: my sis saw a tail peeping out from behind the fridge. guess it hiding place. (-_-`)

babies? i heard squeaks in my room again! security was tight and no rooms were left open except for the mere seconds while we entered the room. so i have duduced that there are probably babies around. checked the desk near my computer but no hints of them found. maybe it was only my imagination.

gone? mom cleaned the storage room and the floors. trails of ants were killed by boiling water near the dustbin area. wondered if there are crumbs the rat brought anywhere that lured the ants. or if its carcass is rotting, if it's dead, that is. she flooded the floors to clean but it's either the rat is so fat it can't be washed out by the flood attack or its not there anymore. ugh. where could it have gone to.

mom's deductions: there are less droppings already. the rat probably managed to slip into smaller nooks and crannies cos it's starving so much that it's thinner and has less stools now.

mom's horror: the rat sneaked into my mom's bag to eat the packets of biscuits inside! biscuits crusts and bits were all over in the bag. no droppings found though. haha.

next plan: set the trap up again and hope that its hunger oversomes its danger instincts, falling into our trap again.

having fun at vivace... in the girls' toilet. full length mirror included! too bad being underground means we're unreachable on our mobiles... hoho i have to laugh when xm's panasonic stabilizer crashed to the ground... stabilizer no more! oops... i'm gonna get whacked... O_o`

ghostly reflections of our own...

can you believe that i was one of the smaller people in the group... so much that i was hoisted around all the time. and there's our 3 muscular men supporting the weights. luckily we had a former cheerleader's help to form this in less than a minute haha

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISTER~!!! you're 22... so old liao...

The Rat Mystery Files (i)

indication of first appearance made: around last week 24th july (can't remember), the first huge dropping which i mistook to be a dead bug near my wardrobe in the study room.
supporting witness: my brother claims that he saw a rat scooting around, but made no attempts to capture it (was going to school, so in a hurry)

so from then on, the droppings became an indication of the Rat's whereabouts...

subsequent sightings of droppings: near the computer table, behind the pushable cabinets (all in the study room)

on the 31st july: droppings found in the bathroom and near corridors between main bedroom and study room. squeaks heard in my study room while i was home alone!! O_o`
movement to capture rat: a trap with dangling pieces of gardenia's softmeal bread as bait
on the 1st august: awoke at around 1245am and found that the bathroom has fresh droppings and a pool of urine (-_-`) *yucks and ewww* in the same corner near the toilet bowl (well, at least it has etiquettes and peed in the bathroom instead of our study room). trap moved from near bathroom to front of kitchen.
i heard a squeak in the living room and dashed back into my bedroom (forgot to close my study room's door). guess the rat has scrambled back to its sleeping area. further soft squeaks heard while in my bedroom.

...to be continued...

it was horrendous.
i felt so out.
and dwarfed.
swallowed, engulfed, by the people around.
i had to get out quick.
before i realise i couldn't fit in.

just 4 alphabets.
sent a tinkle down my spine.

and it didn't help that i was happy by it.

that was a bad dream. a very, very bad dream.
i can't stop dreaming like this. and it was just one tiny screen with a queer name, one string of words, and i'm set off thinking the whole day. crestfall.
i have to stop this.

when you have as much free time as i have... well i guess you get 5new blog updates per day... at the minimum haha.
who complained that i never write anything... i think i'm starting to write a lot (of crap). maybe cos i have nothing to download already since they are all made illegal. that's quite sad. i mean we support singers or movies, but they don't have to sell one cd at $19.90 when the cost price is only $2, then now they want to sue us for downloading cos we're not so stupid to buy their over-priced stuff. how ridiculous. and we haven't even mass-complained them to bits yet.
uhh i'm talking about that since i mentioned downloads. bluarghz.

missed me?

i've regretted many things.
like throwing my temper when i thought my feelings ought to be known. and suffering the consequences up till now.
like never daring to take a move - either to initiate a talk or to search back.
i've never gotten out of my habits - i still wait. wait. wait.
perhaps it's time i do something.
just perhaps.

as i stood there,
just rewinding the hands of time,
just staring,
dazed.

...and the trauma is finally over...
but a new one is about to begin.
it seems that this week is getting pretty packed for me.
whoever said that i'm a slacker at work?!
friday... office dinner, orientation outing, bondue outing, not to mention denzyl's out.
saturday... half day of work, half a day of ndp, SMUve in the night
sunday... vivace

and my truckloads of errands. i should make a note here.
**my medical certificate!!! still uncollected.**

if it's too good to be true,
it ain't gonna bring you nowhere.

i've been protected too long.
i won't fly away.
the winds will curse you,
the thorns will prick you.

the wings spread,
i'm ready to fly.
let the people stone you,
let the wildlife attack you.

and still,
it's worthy to die just once.
with freedom at my side.

please walk away.

and there it goes, pile after pile.
but it's good in a way.
at least i'm occupied for the moment.
or so it seems.

lately, i just can't seem to think anymore.
i'll just drown in the pixelated characters.
at least -
i own that world.

[.]
skipped.
is this what it felt like last time?

and just when you wish that he has a dimple...
he smiled
just like magic.
"so, wanna take a picture?"
but not to me.
so i turned and walked away.
being ignored -
seems to be something i have to get used to now.

oh man there suddenly seemed to be an overloading work pushing me around, i'm running askew!! sheesh. it's not good to have been slacking too long cos when my work suddenly seemed neverending, i guess i just sort of made it neverending... (one good example is to see what i'm doing now) oh well, people need to relax. but - just when my harry potter comes?! bad timing...

i'm looking forward to the next camp now that this one ended quite so well. unexpectedly. heh heh. and looking at my previous posts, i suppose i shouldn't have dreaded it so much after all. maybe it was due to past camp experiences since i really didn't have that much fun, but i attribute the outcome to the people in my group~! (not all though) and if i just overlook things that didn't really appeal to me, yup, everything was pretty smooth.

points of complaints:
the food was terrible. (not all la, but my briyani happened to have a litre of oil inside)
the drinks was basically plain water with colorings. (except milo and teh)
we were swimming in our holy (hole-y) tents. (ended up sleeping on trash bags...)
sleeping with wet hair. (like bath and sleep immediately?)
and i hate spider webs. (the sky was pretty though)

i shall keep the good points to myself haha

a to-hope list:
1) that thursday comes quickly.
2) that tuesday passes quickly.
3) that wednesday don't exist.
4) that monday would go on forever.
5) that friday would replace tuesday.

i didn't see any cute guys.
i didn't see any cute guys.
i didn't see any cute guys.
i didn't see any cute guys.

just trying to wake myself up.

if you just pretend it didn't happen, then your sub-consciousness would also play along with you, and maybe you can erase it from your memory, right?
wrong.
i supposed the more i pretend it didn't happen, the more it becomes terrifying that it has actually happened.

the last time i saw consecutive big moths (and i mean big, like a3 size that kind of big) was when i was probably in primary school, and i swear i saw the same moth (or maybe there was just too many of them?). the first time i think it was somewhere in singapore, the second was at a computer school my cousin was attending, the last one was at the beef noodles shop beside my fifth aunt's tang yuan shop. it got entangled in a big fan and laid on the floor, twitching, like a piece of paper, dying.
a few days ago, i saw 4 consecutive moths again. just wondering what it means. this time it's just much smaller, like 3 pieces of namecard sizes. the first was in the morning near my block while walking towards the mrt, and the second was at my workplace, the third it was back at my block again, and the next minute after i see the last moth, another one appeared at my feet, dead.

... and the smell still lingers

looking at this just bring back the puke-inducing smell... urghh. oh and doesn't this prove that we both don't drink enough water? by the way, it was warm... *pui pui* chrysanthmum, anyone?

it's just those feelings when all of a sudden you can hate someone so much, and you pick on the slightest faults and detest every inch of what he possesses. and it just fuel on the hatred when he really does something as obvious as picking his nose. urghh.