Nampyeon woke up with a good dream - he walked in NICU and found Minzy all big and healthy, and she was moving all her limbs. We thought it might be a good sign and called NICU to check if Minzy put on weight.
Unfortunately, reality turned out to be so much different. Her weight dropped by 20g to 540g... and nothing else changed T_T
In fact, what added on to our worries was the return call at 1.20pm. The doctor told us to visit immediately as they were scheduling an emergency surgery for her. They suspected rupturing of her organs due to gas accumulation but they were not sure where since it couldn't be seen via x-ray. they had to open her up to check which area was ruptured. We ended up taking bus all the way over. The doctor couldn't wait for our consent on paper and had to proceed before we arrived, around 4pm. When we reached, it was already 5pm. they told us that a simple operation would take an hour, but if they are unable to find the cause it would take 3hrs. we prayed that it would be a simple operation.
thankfully it ended around 5+pm, and we were able to see Minzy after they wrapped up the operation. the surgeon told us that an obstruction was found in her intestines, which blocked her ability to pass faeces. they had to cut off the connection and bring the intestines outside, so that poop can be passed directly from the intestines and into a bag. to put the intestines back, Minzy would have to be at least 2.5-3kg. she'd have to live with her intestines hanging out till then :((
Minzy was still asleep from the operation, but she looked like one huge mess. the first thing i saw was about 10machines hooked on her (there was so many it stacked from the floor to the ceiling) - blood pressure medicine, 3 different types of antibodies (that goddamn fungus infection..), nutrients, stabilizer, etc.
At first she was covered up with a blanket from neck onwards, so it didn't look so bad. but after that the nurse came in to adjust her and removed the blanket, and i could see the tip of her intestines poking out of her stomach and into a PU bag. her eyes were taped so that tears would not be generated from all her blinking. her limbs were all taped up from the drips... and she had slight bleeding from all the new IV injections. somehow her ears look bloated and she wasn't moving at all. her head was bandaged so they could attach a new monitoring device which checks the oxygen level and blood pressure. her blood pressure was low (about 43, but it dropped to 35 while i was there) and they needed to feed medicine to raise it. the doctor says that these 3 days would be the most critical period to see if she could hold up. she was so tiny... my heart broke for her T_T
i lingered around till the nurses told me they had to do a blood test (gosh, thank goodness they were drawing it from one of the bigger IV holes), and was too traumatized to take any photos. nampyeon, on the other hand, took photos and he commented that they seem to be making a cyborg out of her with all the wires around. i'm so sorry minzy...... T_T
nampyeon comforted me by saying that since she was under stabilizing medicine, she probably wouldn't feel pain since she'd be in dream land. i really hope that she would be having a nice candy dream, not shocked back into this painful reality. i was hopeful, because nampyeon had a good dream. i was sure i'd be able to see his dream someday.
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